so this was the most idek chapter I wrote. I didn't even know what I was doing. I wasn't feeling like super inspired, but I winged it. congrats me!

Karkat's POV

I had never felt so full in my life. Jake was a damn good cook. Fucking British accent still made me sick, but now it wasn't as bad it was only when he talked a lot. I stretched my arms above my head and hit the wall in Dave's room. I smiled and brought my arms back down, resting my hands on my stomach. Jake poked his head into the room and said his farewell to me. I nodded and he left. I heard the front door shut. Not too long after Dave walked into his room where I was at. My stomach turned and he sat next to me. Here comes that dreadful talk.

"hey, ready for that talk?" he ran his hand through my hair.

"fuck no"

"me either" he sighed and put his hand next to him. "but it has to happen sooner or later"

"I know, but I really hate talking about things like this"

"you really hate a lot of things." He smiled and laughed. "but that's ok" he leaned down, laying on his stomach next to me. "why did you stop cussing so much?"

"its more or less a cover.. I don't need a cover around you" he smiled and put an arm around me. I looked into his eyes.

"that's cute" I smiled.

"shut up" I playfully smacked him on the arm.

"listen to that lack of verbal abuse" he nuzzled into my neck causing me to giggle "it almost disappointing"

"fuck you, Strider" I couldn't stop laughing the way he was nuzzling me tickled so much.

"you know you want to" his hand went to my side and squeezed. I squealed and bent into his hand. "why so ticklish, Vantas?"

"stop! It tickles!" he laughed and kept tickling my sides. Suddenly I felt very turned on. What the hell?

"how come?" his other hand squeezed my other side and I wiggled back and forth. My jeans were getting tight. I bit my lip. "you look cute wiggling around like that. Why do you want me to stop?"

"because I'm getting turned on!" suddenly he stopped. His face was no longer on my neck I opened my eyes. He was staring at me with a surprised expression.

"are you serious? Why didn't you tell me tickling did that to you?"

"because I didn't know it did that to me"

"has no one ever done anything like this before?"

"I've never let anyone this close to me to find out"

"not even Terezi?" he looked at me, he was obviously worried on what my answer would be. I'd cut over Terezi one too many times. I couldn't keep doing that, but where would I be when Dave finally left me? I'd be without anybody. I couldn't be there again. It would be too hard. It would hurt too much. I felt tears brimming my eyes and shook my head to answer the question Dave last asked me. He took his hands off my sides and put them up higher on my rib cage. "so what did she say to you that made you want to hurt yourself?" he ran one of his hands over my stomach.

"I'd rather not say" his hand roamed up to my chest. My stomach felt like it dropped. It was a good feeling.

"if you insist" there was a long silence. I thought he had fallen asleep but when I looked at him he was staring straight at me. "why did you do it?" I bit my lip. I couldn't exactly place why I did it. It felt like the need was gnawing at me and wanted to get out. I couldn't tell him I felt like I needed to cut. He would get so upset with me. I put my hand on my forehead.

"I felt like I needed to. I felt a throbbing in my wrist and it wouldn't go away and it started hurting. I did the only thing I knew to get rid of it."

"what did you do with the razor?" I took my hand off my head and cautiously reached into my pocket. I pulled out the razor and handed it to him.

"I was gonna hide it when I got the chance. Back in your bag." he looked at me and then the razor blade in his palm.

"I would have found out eventually"

"I know that.. I just hoped you wouldn't. but where do we stand now?"

"like relationship wise?"

"yeah like relationship wise" he tossed the razorblade into the over flowing waste bin, then looked at me.

"well we kinda already talked about it. You're good being with me and I'm good being with you. We both figured we'd be happy together, so I guess we're dating now?"

"I guess so" I could feel how red my cheeks were.

"then that's settled." He kissed me on the cheek and pulled the covers over us. "now for extra sleep" I felt I should call Kankri, but Dave put his arm over me and I felt so content and happy I fell asleep next to him. For the second time in 12 hours.