Disclaimer: Twilight belongs to the fabulous Stephenie Meyer, not me. I don't own 'I will follow you into the dark' by Death Cab for Cutie, either.
Note: I have to dedicate this chapter to Rosa (one of my many Twi-Hard friends) who actually gave me a mix CD with that song on it. Thank you, Rosa, you're wonderful.
Eclipse chapter 7:
That night, possibly our last night together, went on basically the same as any other, but somehow it was completely different. Edward held me just a little closer that night and looked at me just a little differently than he normally did. I took note of everything that night; how his chest rose and fell as he breathed, the way his lips felt against my own when we kissed, the way that his golden eyes always seemed to be searching for something every time he looked at me. I tried to only focus on him and every precious second that we had together, but I simply couldn't. Two main questions kept burning in the back of my mind and refused to let me think about anything else until they were answered. First (obviously); would the Volturi actually kill me? And second, but most important; would Edward try to follow me in death if they did? I refused to let that happen, and I had to make sure of that immediately.
"Edward?" I asked. I had to make certain that he wouldn't try to do anything to harm himself if something should happen to me.
"Yes?"
"I need for you promise me something." I tried to keep from sounding like some scared little child… I failed.
"What?" He prompted.
"If something should happen to me tomorrow-"
"Nothing is going to happen to you tomorrow." He growled through clenched teeth.
"I know that it's very unlikely that anything will happen… but just in case, I need to hear something from you." I had to set him free from any obligation to me while I still had the opportunity.
"Anything." He said wholeheartedly. He stared intently into my eyes and my heart jumped to my throat before I could even attempt to get the words that needed to be said, said. I swallowed hard as if I were swallowing a blade, and continued.
"I need for you to promise me that should I die"- the word burned my throat horridly on the way out-"that you won't do anything to try to hurt yourself inany way. You have to go on, Edward. If not for me, then for Carlisle, and Esme, and…"-I was on the verge of tears, but I fought against the lump in my throat and continued-"and Emmett, and Rosalie, and Jasper, and Alice, for all of them." The tears finally fell from my eyes and I hurriedly wiped them away. I had to see him answer, to be sure that he wouldn't lie to me.
Edward ran his hand anxiously through his hair and looked away from my face. He exhaled sharply and turned his attention back to me after a moment. His face seemed resolved as he answered me with absolute sincerity.
"I can't" he said, shrugging unrepentant, "I can't make you that promise, Bella. If something happens to you…" He trailed off, anguished. I was touched by his devotion, but I .couldn't .let .him. do. this. I knew I had no real way to stop him and that made me feel so helpless. This was impossible. Why did he have to be so stubborn?
"Please." I begged in one final desperate attempt to keep him from killing himself just because of me. The tears came in more violent waves now and no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't stop them from falling.
"No, Bella." He said again, but softer and with more feeling this time. "Listen, I've been without you once, and I refuse to go through that again. Anywhere that you go, I'll follow, even if where you go is the afterlife."
He rocked me in his arms for a while after that and neither one of us said another word. Soon, the comfort of being in his arms stopped my tears. A quote from the movie we had been watching before entered my mind 'He and I…we're so similar. We're both so stubborn.' I smiled slightly as I recalled the words of Elizabeth Bennett in my head. Edward and I were also very stubborn people. We could never be swayed from a course of action once we were committed to it. But somehow, I felt strangely comforted with the knowledge that whatever happened, I wouldn't have to go through it alone. I wondered if that was wrong of me, but I didn't care. Edward seemed deep in thought as he stared at me. When he noticed that I didn't seem even slightly tired, he started to sing a song that I recognized, not because he had sung it before, but because it was on one of my mixed CDs from Phil.
Love of mine, Someday you will die
But I'll be close behind
I'll follow you into the dark
No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white
Just our hands clasped so tight
Waiting for the hint of a spark
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the 'no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
In catholic school, vicious as Roman rule
I got my knuckles bruised
By a lady in black
I held my tong as she told me
"Son, fear is the heart of love."
So I never went back
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the 'no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me have seen everything to see
From Bangkok Calgary in the soles of your shoes
For all one down, the time for sleep is now
It's nothing to cry about 'cause we'll hold each other soon
The blackest of rules
If heaven and hell decide
That they both are satisfied
Illuminate the 'no's on their vacancy signs
If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks
Then I'll follow you into the dark
Then I'll follow you into the dark
One final tear fell down my check as I fell asleep.
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Please don't be mad about how short this chapter is. I wasn't even going to have this chapter originally, but I thought that it would be important. Also, I've decided to keep it rated T…for the moment. Who knows, that might just change later on.
Sorry I couldn't post this earlier. At my cabin I have no internet, no cell phone reception, and 3 TV channels. I was trapped in the middle of nowhere with my family. Murder.
