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CHAPTER 7

SAY ANYTHING

Julie stood in front of the Riggins house, biting her bottom lip as she knocked on the door.

"Julie," Billy stared at her in surprise as he opened the door.

"Hey, Billy," Julie greeted him with a fake smile.

"What a surprise. Do you wanna come in?"

"No, no, thanks. Actually, I'm looking for Tim," she said, trying to avoid Billy's gaze.

"Oh, I dunno where he is. He goes somewhere every afternoon and come home only night," Billy answered. "But I can tell him you were here, or you can leave a message or something."

"Ahm, no it's okay. I think I know where he is. Thanks."

Julie could feel Billy's eyes on her back and she knew it wouldn't be much time until he figured out what was going on. Then he'd tell Mindy and the whole town of Dillon would know the Coach's daughter got knocked up by that Riggins boy.

The truth was she didn't care. She was used to people talked about her. But she was worried about J.T. He was just a little kid. Julie always thought it was cowardly and selfish of her to stay in Dillon just because she wanted her parents and friends around.

Tim was there where she thought he would be: at the cliff, hitting beer cans with a golf club. As Julie stopped the car and watched him for a moment, she thought about the times when they'd spent so many hours there.

Tim heard the car and turned to see who was there. Julie met his eyes as she stepped out of the car. She didn't say a word, just took out the golf club from his hand.

"I haven't been here since…" Julie stopped for a moment and swallowed hard as she tried to make herself strong enough to talk.

"Since we last talked," she finished as she lift the golf club up, ready to hit the can.

FLASHBACK

Julie was pacing up and down in front of her car with her mobile in her hand. Her whole body was shaking. It had been two weeks since Tim had left. She didn't understand what happened. In one moment they were so happy and in the next Tim was gone.

She couldn't sleep, she couldn't eat since he had left. She didn't care about anything at all. She cried every night and became numb during the day. She felt like a part of her died.

She tried to call Tim a million times before Billy told her he had changed his number. It was like he wanted to totally erase her from his life. But she still hoped that whatever had happened, they could make it back.

She dialed the number that she'd stolen from Billy's mobile when they were at the Collettes' house and sighed, trying to hold back her tears.

"Riggins," Tim answered and Julie needed every ounce of strength to not start crying when she heard his voice.

"It's me," she said. Her voice was ridiculously small and shaking.

"Jules?" Tim asked, surprised.

"Yes."

"What do you want Taylor?" Tim asked with a sudden change in his voice. It sounded like Julie would be the last person in earth he wanted to talk to.

"I just… I wanted to talk to you about what happened," she said not sure what to say.

"What happened? Nothing happened," he said with a cold voice what broke Julie's heart.

"Where did you get my number?" he asked, irritated.

"I… I stole it from Billy's mobile," Julie mumbled, trying to swallow her tears.

"Nice. You always get what you want, right?" Tim said, edgy.

"Tim, please," Julie sobbed in the phone as she flopped down to the dirty ground like her legs couldn't hold her anymore. "What do you want? Just tell me. Say something, anything. I'll give you anything, just come back please."

"I don't want anything from you," Tim answered simply.

"But I love you," Julie sobbed even harder.

There was a moment of silence on the other end of the phone before Tim answered.

"I don't. Don't call me again," he said before he hung up the phone, leaving Julie kneeling on the dirty ground with a broken heart.

FLASHBACK END

"Nice hit," Tim said as he watched the can fly.

"Yeah," Julie said as she gave back the golf club to Tim.

"Okay, here's the deal," Julie started, looking coldly at Tim.

"You can meet J.T. but only if I or somebody like Tyra or my parents are there. You can't tell him who you really are. This way, if you decide to leave again. it won't cause even more damages" she explained in a way that made Tim think she was like a lawyer.

"I won't leave," Tim said staring at the ground, hands in his pockets.

"Sure. Like I said, you said it before," Julie answered. "That's the only way I let you meet him."

Tim nodded, feeling uncomfortable from her cold tone.

"All right. Call me about the time. And talk to Billy, please. I don't want the whole town to talk about us," Julie said as she started to walk away.

"And Riggins," she stopped in front of her car. "If you ever hurt my son in any way, I'll kill you. I mean it."

Tim nodded again. He knew it wouldn't be easy to get Julie to trust him again.

"Julie," Tim called after her as she opened the door of her car. "Tell me about him," he asked hoping to steal a little bit more time with Julie and get to know more about his son.

Julie sighed. She knew the smart move would be get in the car and drive home, where her friend and son waited for her.

"Please," Tim pleaded and she couldn't help but turned back.

"All right," she nodded.

They sat on the bed of Tim's truck with beers in their hands. For several minutes, neither of them said anything.

Tim didn't want to rush Julie. He was already happy she even stayed there.

Julie still wasn't sure staying there was smart. Tyra would probably yell at her again about how stupid she was. But she stayed because of J.T. It was not because she still liked to be around Tim and she still missed him like hell. No, that absolutely wasn't the reason, she told herself.

"His name is Jason Timothy Taylor," Julie started, staring in the distance.

"He's 4 years old and he's the best thing ever happened to me. He saved my life," she said looking at Tim as her eyes filled with tears.

"You know after you left everything broke apart," Julie continued, looking away again.

"I was like the walking dead. I showed everyone I was okay, they didn't know anything about how lonely I was. I felt pathetic and numb. Then one day I found out I was pregnant and everything changed," she smiled.

"Of course, I was scared and didn't really know what to do but I wasn't alone anymore."

"Why didn't you call me?" Tim asked.

"I didn't want your pity," Julie said as her voice hardened again. "You were quite clear about your feelings last time we talked."

Tim nodded slightly as he remembered how cruel he was with Julie.

"Anyway, he's smart, very smart and he's got a great sense of humor. Probably that's the only thing he hadn't got from his father," she laughed.

"You know, he's pretty much like you," her voice became softer as she glanced at Tim.

"Really?" Tim asked with a shy smile on his face.

"Yes, and I don't mean he looks like you. Though, he does. God, even his annoying smirks are yours," Julie rolled her eyes making Tim smile.

"He got your attitude, your arrogance and he's not much of a talker either. And he's very grown up. Sometimes if I wonder he's more grown up than me and that scares me. Like last year when he broke his arm," Julie smiled as she remembered the accident.

"He broke his arm?" Tim asked suddenly worried.

"Yes, he did," Julie laughed.

"What happened?"

"He played big Timmy Riggins and well… let's just say the tree was bigger than him," she answered making Tim laugh, too.

"You can imagine how freaked out I was. Do you know what he told me?" Julie asked as she glanced at Tim again, who looked at her curiously.

"He said, 'No worries'. That freaked me out even more if that was even possible."

They laughed together. Tim couldn't even remember the last time he felt so good, so complete. After a long time he was where he belonged, there with Julie.

"He's a real football fanatic. I think he has already played football in my stomach… with my kidneys," she said grinning, reminding Tim about the first time he met J.T.

"He told me he wanted to be a fullback… so he can hurt people," Tim regretted bringing it up the minute he said it. The light atmosphere changed as Julie's smile fade away.

"Sorry," he mumbled awkwardly.

"You don't have to, it's my fault. People hurt him because of me and he also thinks he should protect me," she said as she tried to swallow her tears.

"I try so hard but it's not enough. I am not enough. I should have moved away from Dillon but I'm a coward. And it's so hard because he hides his feelings. He doesn't talk to me about it. It's like he started to build a wall around himself. I'm an awful mother," she said as tears rolled from her eyes.

"Jules," Tim whispered as he touched Julie's face, wiping away her tears.

There was a moment of silence. It was like the Earth stopped spinning as they looked deep into each others eyes.

"I'd better go." The moment was gone as Julie pulled away from Tim's hand.

"J.T. and Heath are waiting for me," she said as she hopped off the truck.

"Heath?" Tim asked with a sudden jealousy in his voice. Yes, their moment was definitely gone.

"Yes, Heath," Julie answered simply.

"Is he a man?" Tim asked dumbly.

"No, Riggins, Heath is a girl whose parents were so retarded they gave their daughter a boy's name," Julie answered, irritated.

"You left our son alone with a stranger?" Tim stared at her in disbelief as his voice became suddenly accusatory.

The truth was that wasn't the problem Julie left J.T. with someone he didn't know. The problem was that someone was a man.

"Oh, no, no, no, no, no. And again, no. Don't even try. Don't you dare! One, Heath isn't a stranger, he's my friend. Two, he's always there for me and J.T. He was the one who took us to the hospital when J.T. broke his arm or when he stepped on broken glass. He was the one who stayed up with me for days when J.T. was sick and I could continue. And three, he knows your son more than you do, which isn't such a big thing since you don't know him at all," she finished with an angry look at Tim, who looked away, hurt by her last comment.

"Just like you don't know me anymore," she said as she got into her car and shut the door.

I shouldn't have been so mean… Julie thought as she glanced at Tim before she pulled away. No, I should have gone home, he caused this, not me, she thought as she became angry again. He asked for it. Tim Riggins was the only man who could make her so pissed, so angry and so full of emotions. The only man who made her feel so much… Gosh, Taylor, stop it! Don't go there! Julie told herself shaking her head.