I stared at the blank ceiling, near tears, and realizing that the saying dumb blonde is so true! I sighed and turned to Joe. He saw the pain in my eyes. A tear started its way down my cheek. Joe's finger wiped it away carefully. I closed my eyes. His finger touched my lips lightly tracing them. I looked up at him slowly meeting his eyes. Why would I be so stupid? Joe kissed me softly. I pulled away and sat up, covering myself with the sheet. I pushed my hair out of my face and laid my head in my hands, sighing. He sat up with me and tried to touch my cheek, but I shook my head, getting out of bed. "Emily, I-" Once more I shook my head and put my hand up, indicating for him to stop. Quickly, I pulled on my clothes that lied on the floor just a few moments before. I walked to the door. As I grabbed the handle I bit my lip, unsure if I wanted to say what was on my mind.
"I," I began quietly, "I want to forget this ever happened and I want you to forget me." I turned the knob.
"Emily," Joe started. I shook my head.
"Please, at least try to forget me. I would try the same thing, but I will never be able to forget you." I jogged out of the room into mine and Selena's room.
"Babe, where have you been?" Selly asked, pulling away from Nick. I closed the door, arching my back as I leaned my head against the door. "Emily, what's wrong?" Tears spilled out of my eyes. Selena and Nick stood up.
"I want to go home," I croaked. Selena nodded.
"Then we're going home. Nick, can you help me pack?" I slid down the door and let out a sob. Selena rubbed her temples and threw stuff into my bag. Nick stayed still staring at me. His jaw slowly flexed. I tried to calm myself.
"What did he do?" His words made me sob more.
Selena shook her head. "Nick, not now," She said sternly.
By that night I had everything packed and we were loading the car. I got in the car with only a wave goodbye. Selena and Nick were having a heart felt goodbye. Who would have thought that they would actually have fallen for each other? I glanced at Joe, who looked as if he was about to cry. Maybe he was, I was too far away to tell. His hands were stuffed into his pockets and his head hung a little, but his eyes, his beautiful chestnut eyes, stared into my sea blue eyes. A tear slid down my cheek. I'm sorry, I mouthed. He nodded and mouthed, me too. Selena hopped in the car turning the key in the ignition. "Wow that was hard." She sighed. I sucked in air and drew a heart on the window as we pulled away.
"Welcome home, my girls!" Selena's mom greeted excitedly as she placed a kiss on our foreheads. I took a deep breath and swung my bag over my shoulder, heading into my room. In case you didn't figure out, I live with Selena and her mom. Her mom got my step-dad locked up for hitting me, so I moved in with them. They were more of a family than my actual parents. When I got to my bed I lied on my back. I lay my hand on my stomach. I really hope I'm not pregnant. Selena paced in plopping down next to me.
"You had sex with him, didn't you?" I sighed and nodded. "I'm sorry I made you stay." I nodded in a way saying its okay. She sighed a got up. "I'm getting a shower." She skipped into the bathroom. I got up and grabbed her guitar strumming a few chords. Then I grabbed a song I had written out of my drawer and tried to write the music to it.
Selly had tried to cheer me up for days, but the possibility of being pregnant was on my mind and sometimes it felt as if my heart stopped when I thought of it. I watched my feet as one went in front of the other. I walk really weird like I'm on a balance thingy that they use in dancing and gymnastics. I took a deep breath of Texas air and sat on the bench I arrived at. Lena sat next to me. One bad thing about the Jonas boys is once you ever feel some kind of love towards them they stay in your mind and hearts forever. "Well, aren't we pathetic?" I asked placing my hands on my stomach. Selena sighed and nodded.
"We need to stop dwelling on them and do something fun! When's the last time we did something fun?"
"When we made plan Make Joe fall in love with me." Her face fell. "You know, I never really thought about what would happen when maybe we were never supposed to be together and if I noticed that after he started falling in love with me, but it happened. I'm a player." Selena laughed.
"No, you are most definitely not," She replied cracking up. I groaned and laid my head back.
"Well, well, well…look who we have here, Ms. I can make Joe Jonas love me!" Tracie said with fake enthusiasm. I rolled my eyes. Miley hid behind her trying to become unnoticed. Selena groaned. "So what did you finally figure out that no one not even a pathetic guy in a boy band will love you?" Tears filled my eyes.
"You have no clue what you're talking about."
"I don't?" She looked at the crowd that now surrounded us. All the guys who I grew up crushing on then hating snickered. She giggled evilly. "Well, then, why did you come back?"
"That's none of your business." I replied angry. Miley then did something extremely unexpected.
"Tracie, just shut the hell up, okay? I'm not in the mood for dealing with your shit today." Miley put out her hand pulling me up. She nodded for Lena to come then they both put their arm around me and we walked home. "You okay, Emily?" I nodded in shock.
"I would like to be the first to say, what the hell was that, Miley?" She sighed.
"The only reason I was 'friends' with her was because that's the only way she wouldn't pick on me, but it's harder to see her pick on everyone else then to be picked on. Sorry, I didn't stand up for you earlier."
I nodded, "It's okay." A UPS truck pulled up in front of the house.
"Uh, is there an Emily Osment here?" I walked up to the dude and nodded. "Sign here." I signed. "And here you go." He handed me the package. I sat back down in between the girls and slowly opened it. There was one single piece of jewelry in there. I pulled out the necklace that had a ring with a cross engraved on it in there. My mouth dropped, but I slowly placed it around me neck.
"Is that his…" I nodded and dropped the necklace around my neck, letting the ring lay on my heart.
