bTitle/b: It's about sex and saving lives (7?)
bAuthor/b: emdha
bPairing/b: Callie/Arizona
bRating/b: PG13
bSummary/b: Callie faces her demons. Will Calzone survive the pressure of family and past?
bDisclaimer/b: All television shows, movies, books, and other copyrighted material referred to in this work, and the characters, settings, and events thereof, are the properties of their respective owners. As this work is an interpretation of the original material and not for-profit, it constitutes fair use. Reference to real persons, places, or events are made in a fictional context, and are not intended to be libelous, defamatory, or in any way factual.
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They hadn't talked at all walking home. Callie was pacing up and down her living room, waving her hands around in wild gestures. "Increible. In-cre-ible! Papa y Erica? No puede ser coincidencia. Porque yo? Porque ahora!" she muttered to herself.
Arizona was sitting on the couch, observing her nervously. She usually thought Callie speaking Spanish was hot, but tonight, it was nerve-racking. Erica Hahn was back. Callie's first girl crush, the brilliant Erica Hahn, was in Seattle. She was dying to ask Callie what she was thinking, but she knew it wasn't the right time. Because not only was Erica Hahn back, her dad was in town too. And that meant: meeting the parents. And meeting the parents meant: coming out. In short, this was pretty much a disaster.
The phone rang. Callie shot Arizona a frightened look, knowing who the caller would be. Arizona walked over to her and placed her hands on her shoulders reassuringly. "Relax. Breathe. Look at me, you can do this. OK?"
Callie nodded and picked up the phone with a trembling hand. "Daddy?"
"Calliope. It's so good to hear your voice. Listen, your mother and I are staying in the Grand Hyatt. I have something to tell you, but I'd rather not do it over the phone. Can we meet you tomorrow?"
"Uh...sure, you can stop by at the hospital. I have something to tell you, too."
"Good. See you tomorrow then. I love you Mija."
"I love you too, daddy."
Callie hung up the phone. Arizona slid her hands off her shoulders, which she had squeezed encouragingly all through the conversation. "That wasn't so bad, was it?"
"For now, no. But tomorrow, that's when the drama enters." She looked up at Arizona. Arizona broke when she read the fear that was clearly visible in those gorgeous brown eyes. "Will you stand by me?"
Arizona pulled her girlfriend in her arms, stroking her back and kissing her hair. "Of course sweety, I'll be there every step of the way. Just holler and I'll be there in a sec."
"Did you just say 'holler'?"
"I know, don't even say it. Christina taught me some words to be less perky around you but it's not really my thing" she stated, a bit embarrassed. "Anyway, let's go to bed shall we? Long day tomorrow."
Callie nodded and they undressed and crawled under the sheets. But they didn't search for each others warmth like the usually did. They laid there, facing opposite directions, a cold gap between them, as they stared in the dark, lost in their own thoughts.
'What if my parents won't accept me?'
'What if she falls for Erica Hahn again?'
'I wonder how Erica's doing'
'Will her parents like me?'
'What do I say when I see her?'
'How tall is Erica Hahn? Can I fight her?'
'I'm not afraid. I can do this and everything is different now. I have Arizona.'
'I can handle this. I just need to be there for her.'
At those last thoughts, they simultaneously reached out for the warmth of each others bodies. Callie snaked an arm around her waist and pressed her body into Arizona's back, breathing in her unique scent. The intimacy between them was undeniable.
"I love you" Callie whispered.
"I love you too."
At those words, they fell asleep with a satisfied smile. Enjoying it while they could, because the horrible feeling that this was just the still before the storm haunted them both.
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Arizona was having trouble finding the perfect outfit for 'meet-the-parents day'. She didn't want to appear to eager, but a sloppy lesbian girlfriend wasn't exactly helping Callie either. She didn't dare asking her: the brunette was dead nervous all morning, dropping each piece of crockery she laid her hands on and over boiling the eggs until you could bash a skull with them.
"Sweety, we're gonna be late. We'll grab something on the way, let's go." Arizona carefully led her girlfriend out the apartment, packing her handbag herself.
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"Dr. Torres, your parents are waiting for you down the hall."
"Thanks Bailey" Callie sighed, walking out of the attending locker room, led in her shoes. "Let's do this" she said softly to herself.
As she exited the room, she clashed right into a tall blonde figure, which was unmistakably Erica Hahn's.
"Erica!" she exclaimed, trying to act casual.
"Hi Callie. I was wondering when I would bump in to you" Erica said, staring into the brown eyes intently.
"Uhm...well...I work here you know, it happens..." Callie stuttered. Dammit, why was she stuttering? "What brings you here anyway?" she continued, a little more aggressive than she intended.
"I have two heart transplants to be performed in Seattle Grace, we don't have time to fly back and forth due to the patients their condition. I'll probably be here for two days or so. Anyway, gotta run, meet me for lunch?"
"Yeah, sure."
"OK. It's good to see you Callie."
"You too Erica."
'One down, one to go' she thought, continuing her way down the hall to her parents.
Her mother flew around her neck the moment she turned the corner. "Mija!"
"Hi mom. Hi dad. Please stop choking me."
Her mother stepped back and observed Callie from head to toe, like mothers do. "You look lovely Calliope. It's so good to see you" she said, pulling her daughter in for another hug.
"It's good to see you too, mom" Callie said, pulling out of the embrace. "Anyway, to what do I owe this visit? What did you want to tell me?"
Her parents exchanged a look, which did not go unnoticed by Callie. "What, what is it?"
"Calliope" her dad started, taking a step towards her. "I will be admitted to Seattle Grace Hospital soon. I wanted to be close to you, so I chose to be a patient in your hospital."
"What?" Callie laughed nervously. "What's wrong with you?"
"Last week, I didn't wake up. Your mother called the ambulance and I woke up 3 hours later in the hospital. Appears I had a heart attack. They ran some tests on me and it appears I have coronary heart failure."
"Oh my god" Callie's voice trembled as she put a hand over her mouth in shock. "Oh my god..."
"It's nothing to worry about, it's very treatable and..."
"No dad, it's NOT OK, you have a serious heart condition. Don't take this lightly."
"We are not, Calliope. I just wanted you near me throughout my treatment."
Now it was Callie's turn to fling herself around her father's neck. "Oh daddy, I'm happy you're here. I will take really good care of you."
"I know you will, Mija, I know. So, what did you want to tell us?"
"Oh...it's nothing, it can wait..." Callie said. Now was definitely not the time to drop such a bomb. Making her dad better was all that mattered right now. "I'll pass your file to Christina Yang. I want her to treat you, she's the best here."
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Arizona was stunned by Callie's news. She felt horrible that her dad was ill, but she couldn't help but feel a little bit relieved. Now she wouldn't have to do the whole meet-the-parents thing she was dreading. She was always good with parents in law, but she never felt the urge to prove herself so much as to Callie's parents.
Callie's lunch date with Erica was bothering her, much to her dismay. She was never a jealous person, and she doubted whether the emotion she was feeling was even jealousy. She had seen the way Erica acted around Callie, and she had seen how nervous it made Callie. Arizona didn't know if it were nerves of fright, or even worse: butterfly nerves. She trusted Callie with her whole heart, but the feeling that Callie might not be as immune to her ex as she said she was, kept haunting her. It wasn't really Callie she was worried about: it was more about Erica Hahn and what lengths this woman would go to to get Callie back.
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Callie was hiding in the supply closet. She felt like the walls were closing in on her. Her dad, her perfectly healthy dad, was sick. This morning, everything was OK, and she was totally prepared to introduce Arizona to her parents. Then everybody would know and she could move on with her life, without any fears or secrets. It was the last thing she needed to do to start the rest of her happily ever after life with Arizona. But now, everything had changed. She didn't want to keep Arizona in the dark any longer, but she had to. Especially since Erica was back. Callie was surprised at the effect Erica had on her. She definitely didn't want this whole soap drama to play in front of her parents.
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Christina was going through Mr. Torres' chart, examining him to determine the course of treatment. Apart from the usual small talk, she didn't really know what to talk about with this intimidating man. Even though he was laying in a hospital bed, he still had this aura of authority around him.
"So, Dr. Yang, you're Calliope's roommate. Tell me, does she seem happy to you?"
"Uhm...you should ask that herself Sir. You see, I don't really pick up on other people's feelings" she answered curtly, continuing to examine him.
"I see. Could you ask her to stop by when you see her? I haven't seen her around in a while."
"Hmm. She's probably doing nasty things with Blond- sorry, Arizona."
Mr. Torres looked up in surprise. "Arizona? Isn't that a, though rather odd, girls name?"
Christina looked up at him in shock. Shit, she didn't tell him yet?!
"No ehm...Arizona...it's a nickname, his real name is...Arizonus! Yeah, he's Greek. Big, hot, muscular Greek, that Arizonus!
Mr. Torres eyed her suspiciously. "You're a very bad liar, Dr. Yang. You do know that?"
"Yes Sir."
"Is my daughter...a lesbian?"
"I eh...as I was saying, I don't pick up other peoples feelings very well, so...I'm done here, I'll come back in a few hours" she stuttered, backing out of the room as soon as possible. Just then, Callie came walking in. "Please don't kill me" Christina whispered, before running out of sight. "What?!" Callie yelled at her, frowning. "Hi dad, how are you doing?"
"Calliope, is there something you want to tell me?"
"Uhm...not really, why?"
"Dr. Yang was just telling me about your new...lady friend."
Callie's face dropped. "I'm going to kill that bitch" she hissed through clenched teeth, her knuckles turning white.
"Now now, there's no need for that Calliope. Just tell me what I can do to fix this."
"How do you mean, fix it?"
"Well, it's obvious that you're confused. But honestly Calliope, I can't believe you would go this far to disengage yourself from your parents. You know what this will do to your mother."
"Excuse me?!" Callie exclaimed, not believing what she was hearing.
"Come on Calliope, when are you finally growing up? Your thirty-two, single, workaholic. I think it's time for you to let go of this riotous lifestyle and find yourself a husband, give your mother a wedding and grandchildren. Don't you feel the same way?"
Callie walked back out of the room, shaking her head and tears in her eyes. "No dad, no I don't feel the same way. And I am appalled by your reaction. I thought you'd be happy for me, I thought you'd be proud of me. I'm a doctor for god's sakes! What does it take for you to love me for who I am?" Callie was furious now.
"This is who I am dad. Love me or just leave!" her voice was thick with emotion as she spat the last words out, turning on her heels and dashing out of the room.
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Arizona was checking her watch every five seconds. Callie was having lunch with Erica and her plan was to casually drop in and join them. She checked her watch one last time and headed to the cafeteria. As she paid for her lunch, she scanned the room, but no sight of Callie and Erica. She walked past the occupied tables and stopped dead in her tracks as she saw them in a deserted corner: Callie's head laid on Erica's shoulder, Erica's arm around her, stroking her arm and whispering in her ear. Callie was sobbing, she must be upset. Arizona's eyes filled with tears at the image before her. She threw her plate on a nearby table and sprinted of, hoping she would make it out of this place before her emotions got the best of her.
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After Callie left her dad she searched for Arizona frantically, but there was no sign of the blonde doctor. That's when she bumped in to Erica for the second time that day. Erica immediately noticed something was wrong with Callie, and had dragged her to the cafeteria to comfort her. Callie knew she was sobbing in the wrong arms, but she didn't care: her dad, once the most important person in her life, had basically called her a failure. And somehow, it felt good to be this close to Erica again. It felt familiar and comforting. She never saw her hurt girlfriend looking at her from a distance, storming off in tears. And she never saw that Erica did.
Suddenly, Callie's pager went of. "Oh my god, he's crashing!" she gasped, pulling herself from Erica's embrace and sprinting off.
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"Clear!" Christina charged the paddles for the third time, still not getting a heartbeat. Callie was panicking outside, her nose pressed to the window. They wouldn't let her inside and it was killing her.
"Shit. Charge to two hundred!" Christina yelled again. Callie watched helplessly as her father's body rose up from the bed from the shock.
Suddenly, there was a heartbeat.
"We got a heartbeat. I got it from here people" Christina said, trying to wake Mr. Torres up. After a few slaps, his eyes opened and he looked up at Dr. Yang with a confused look.
"You just went into cardiac arrest Sir, but we were able to bring you back. We do need to operate as soon as possible, so I will schedule you for tomorrow Sir. I'll be right back." With that, she walked out, pulling Callie by the arm.
"Listen Ortho, I know you're mad at me, but it's for the best. Your dad is going into surgery tomorrow and I suggest you talk things over before it's to late. Your call. But you might want to wait until tomorrow, he needs his rest."
"OK" was all Callie could say. "Thanks Christina" she added as she turned the corner.
Where the hell was Arizona when she needed her?
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Arizona was hiding in a patients room, a thirteen year old girl with leukaemia. The girl was sleeping, Arizona was curled up in a chair in the corner, watching her sleep and dabbing her eyes with tissues. She tried hard to keep quiet, but her sobs awakened the girl, who looked up at with her big dark bags surrounding her eyes. "What's wrong?" she asked in a little voice.
"Nothing sweetie, go back to sleep" Arizona answered, faking a laugh and failing miserably.
"But why are you crying then?" the girl pursued.
"Grown up problems sweetie." The girl still looked at her questioningly.
"OK then...I'm afraid my girlfriend is falling in love with her ex-girlfriend. And she is very sad because her daddy is very sick. I don't know what to do. I am afraid she'll make bad decisions when she's sad."
"Oh" the girl thought long and hard, making Arizona laugh for the first time that day. "Well, can't you just be better than her ex-girlfriend? Like, cook for her and be really sweet to her?"
Arizona was stunned by the truth in the little girl's advice. The answer was so simple. This wasn't about her, it was about being there for Callie. Arizona stood up, shaking her head and laughing to herself. She couldn't believe she was taking advice from a thirteen year old.
"Where are you going Dr. Robbins?"
"I'm going to follow your advice and be the best girlfriend ever" Arizona replied, stroking the girls forehead lovingly.
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Callie was just about to text Arizona to meet for dinner tonight, when she saw Erica sitting in the hallway, her head between her legs, hands in her hair. Callie plopped down beside her. "Everything OK?"
"I'm fine. But one of my patients is worsening by the minute. The heart he was supposed to get was useless. Looks like I'm staying here longer than I thought."
"Wow, that sucks" Callie replied, not really knowing what to say.
"I tell you what, let's have dinner and catch up, we haven't really gotten to that due to all the drama that goes around in this hospital."
"Yeah sure, I'd like that. I'm off at 7:30. Meet you at the exit?"
"Good. I'll see you then" Erica said, as she stood up to check on her patient.
Callie watched her walking away, a knot forming in her stomach. Why did she agree to dinner this fast? She hoped Arizona wouldn't mind, but she knew the answer already. Maybe it was best not to tell Arizona. Besides, this dinner meant nothing, so there was no use in worrying her about absolutely nothing.
But first, she had to check on her dad.
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Arizona sneaked to Callie's place early that evening, lighting the room with a zillion candles. She was cooking an Italian dish, her mothers recipe. Just as she was about to put on some nice romantic music, her phone rang. It was a text from Callie: "Hi sweety, working late, staying with my dad tonight. See you tomorrow, LY, C."
Arizona sat down, fighting back the tears that were welling up in her eyes. 'It's nothing, she needs to be with her dad, I get it. Don't get jealous, there's nothing going on' she reassured herself.
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Callie sat down in the chair in the far corner of her fathers room.
"Are we going to yell to each other to talk?"
"I don't know dad, you tell me."
Mr. Torres sighed and closed his eyes in exhaustion. He seemed to be thinking hard. "Calliope, sit here with me." He gestured to the side of his bed.
Hesitantly, Callie moved her chair closer to the bed. Her father took her hand in his.
"Tell me about her" he said.
Callie crooked her eyebrow in astonishment. "Really? You wanna hear about Arizona?" Her father nodded.
"OK...um...here name is Arizona Robbins and we've been together for almost three months now. She's an attending paediatric surgeon here. She has blonde curly hair, but sometimes she wears it slick. Her eyes are sky blue, she's very pretty dad. And she's perky. Apparently, I like perky."
The sparkle in her eyes didn't go unnoticed by her father, who smiled at her.
"And how did you meet?"
"Uhm...that's kind of embarrassing. She kissed me in the toilet of a dirty bar."
Her dad shot her a questioning look.
"I was depressed, I just divorced George, Erica left me..."
"Wait, there's another woman before her?"
"Yeah, did I not mention that?" she replied, half joking, half terrified by the look on her fathers face.
"Anyway, she followed me into the toilet, we kissed, and we've been together ever since. Well...kind of. She didn't want to go out with me at first, saying I was a 'newborn'." Callie pronounced the words sarcastically, rolling her eyes.
Her father laughed heartedly at the word. "A newborn, you?!"
"I know right!" Callie laughed, waving her hand in the air. Suddenly, his expression was serious again.
"So tell me, does she make you happy?"
"What do you mean? I'm happy yeah."
"No I mean, does she make you happy? It's a simple question."
Callie stared in the distance, thinking about her sweet girlfriend and how much her life had changed for the better after they met. She smiled and looked her dad in the eyes.
"Yes dad, she makes me very happy" she said, the lump in her throat clearly audible as she pronounced the words softly. Her father looked back at her. He always had the ability to show his emotions through his eyes, this time no exception.
"That's all that matters Calliope. I love you and I want the best for you. I know I was a bit harsh today. It's just that...it's a big change you know. We have to get used to it as well. I don't know any...gay people" he shifted uncomfortably in his bed. "This is all new to me. So you'll have to guide me through it. It will take some time to get used to, but after today I realise our time together is not unlimited. I...I don't want to spend it arguing."
A single tear slid down Callie's cheek as she listened to her fathers sweet words. "Me neither daddy" she said.
"Good. Now if you don't mind, I'm going to take a nap because tomorrow, Dr. Yang is slicing me open."
A brilliant thought just popped up in her head as she heard her father speak. She checked her watch. 'Shit!'. "Dad, I gotta run, but I'll check with you first thing in the morning OK? I love you" she said, planting a kiss on his forehead.
"I love you too Calliope."
Arizona knew what to do. She blew out all the candles, packed dinner and walked over to the hospital, which was across the street from the hospital. If they couldn't enjoy a romantic dinner at Callie's place, dinner would have to come to Callie.
Her timing couldn't have been worse.
As she clumsily opened the glass door of the apartment building with one hand, she saw two figures walking out of the hospital. One of them she would recognize any time. The other, well, that wasn't to hard to figure out. Her body stiffened as she watched Callie and Erica laughing and walking to the parking lot, their arms linked.
Arizona dropped the food and ran inside. Her lungs were suddenly short of air and she felt like she was choking. She sat on the stairs, breathing irregularly, her hand on her chest. "This isn't happening" she muttered to herself. "I'm hallucinating, this is not real." But she knew in her heart that what she saw, was indeed very real.
One day, and she was already losing Callie to Erica Hahn.
Christina came bursting in, swearing under her breath until she noticed the pile of blonde curls sobbing on the stairs. "Blondie? What's wrong?"
Arizona quickly dried her tears with the palm of her hand, taking a deep breath. "It's nothing, really. I'm just...not feeling very well."
"Fine, don't tell me. Just kick your girlfriend for me when you see her okay."
"Why on earth would I do that?!"
"She kicked me off her dad's surgery."
"What?! Who's performing the surgery then?"
"That Hahn bitch. And Callie's assisting. She doesn't even do cardio, pfff...I swear to god, I'll snap HER bones if I get the chance..." she continued swearing, making her way up to their apartment. "Anyway, I'm gonna dance it out. Wanna come?" Christina looked back and saw a mass of blonde curls running out the door.
Arizona hardly knew where she was going, her eyes blurry with tears. All she could think about was the image of Callie and Erica in the cafeteria, Callie and Erica arm in arm laughing. She hoped she had wine at home.
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Callie was driving to Arizona's apartment. She just had a long dinner with Erica. They talked all night, about their jobs, their lives...as the evening progressed, Callie realised how much she had missed Erica. It brought back good memories and she was happy they were talking again. But after their fourth glass of wine, she started sensing a vibe from Erica. She was leaning in, complimenting her on her appearance, her work. Callie couldn't deny it, she was definitely flattered, but the alarm bells in her head went of the moment Erica had laid her hand on Callie's across the table. She had said she missed this, talking, being with each other. She didn't know why, but Callie had answered that she missed her too. There was something about this woman that she couldn't resist, even after everything that happened.
She knew she was skating on thin ice, so she cut the night short, saying she had to get back to her dad. She saw the look of disappointment on Erica's face and she knew then that she had made the right call.
She knocked on the door of Arizona's apartment. "Who is it?"
"It's me!"
"Go away Callie"
Callie frowned and knocked on the door again. "Arizona, open the door. What's wrong?"
Suddenly, the door swung open and a furious Arizona stood in the doorway. "Really? 'What's wrong'? Shouldn't you be with your other girlfriend, you know, the brilliant heart surgeon?" she spat sarcastically. Callie opened her mouth to speak, but Arizona interrupted her. "I saw you two, in the cafeteria. I thought, why doesn't Callie come to me for comfort? I mean, last time I checked, I was your girlfriend. But there you are, crying in the arms of Erica Hahn, not even five hours after she's back. I was sad, but I trusted you, so I decided to make you dinner, show you that I'm here for you. But you had to work late, so I thought I'd bring dinner to you. Fortunate thing, you happen to live right across the hospital. Unfortunately for you, I had front row seats seeing you walk with that woman, arm in arm, going god-knows-where..." she was yelling now, her cheeks flushed, the wine she was drinking spilling all over the floor.
"Ari...I'm so sorry..."
"Don't be! It's obvious you've made your choice! But at least be honest with me. Don't text me you're working late when in fact, you're running off with Erica Hahn."
"Okay I realise in retrospect, that wasn't the smartest thing to do. I just didn't want to upset you over nothing. I knew you'd overreact and..."
"Over-react?" Arizona spat. "You think I'm overreacting?!" She pronounced the word in utter disbelief. "So I should be OK with you throwing Christina off your dad's surgery and ask Erica Hahn instead, with you assisting? That means five hours of you and Erica Hahn side by side?"
"Whoa stop right there. I just asked Erica because she's the best and I want the best for my dad" Callie defended herself.
"Oh cut the crap Callie, it's not a complicated procedure, you and I both know Yang can do it just fine! You're just looking for an excuse to be close to her, admit it!"
"That's not true Ari, I asked her because I know she can fix my dad!"
"Callie, can you honestly look me in the eyes and tell me that you feel nothing for Erica Hahn? Can you honestly tell me that you asked Erica solely to operate because of her surgical skills?"
"Ari...I..."
"Tell me the truth, I can take it" she snapped, sternly.
Callie looked at her feet, trying to find the right words.
"I know enough. Leave, please" Arizona hissed, her blood boiling.
"Ari, please listen, I..." Callie pleaded, making her way into the apartment.
"No Callie, YOU listen" Arizona started. "I said I loved you. I poured out my heart, I gave you everything I had because I loved you. I gave you those words, I gave you my heart and you threw them right back in my face, just like Erica did to you. God you're such a hypocrite. You still have feelings for her and you don't even realise it. I understand it is hard to see her again, but I trusted you with whole my heart Callie, and I never expected you to go behind my back like this. I...I gave you my heart and you broke it" she said, swallowing away the emotion welling up in her throat, trying to maintain her angry look. "Guess I was your sloppy second after all."
"No, no it's not like that Ari" Callie said, stepping towards the furious blonde, trapping her against the door.
"Don't Callie, don't" Arizona said firmly, trying to push Callie away but Callie wouldn't give in. Instead, she grabbed her face between both hands and kissed her. Arizona instantly melt into the kiss, but pulled away soon after. "Ari, don't give up on us. I need you..." Callie was on the verge of tears now, desperately trying to find the right words. She couldn't let go of her, she just couldn't. But she had to as Arizona pushed her away forcefully. "Go" she ordered.
Tears were falling down Callie's cheeks. "But...you're still my girlfriend right? I mean, you still love me...right?" she asked in a little quivering voice.
Arizona stared at the ground. "Just...go" she said, without looking up.
Callie turned around and ran our of the room, not bothering to close the door behind her. She descended down the stairwell, stopping halfway to burst out in tears.
She blew it.
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The moment Arizona shut the door behind her, she collapsed onto the floor in loud sobs, burying her face in her hands as the hot tears fell onto the ground.
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A/N: Again, extremely long chapter. I can't seem to write shorter chapters any more! Again, no smut in this one, and for that, I apologize. I just felt like this story needed...well, a storyline basically. It just didn't feel natural writing a hot scene into this chapter, I wanted it to be realistic and digging into their emotions takes a lot of words, too. Besides, no one wants a bad porn movie without a good plot right ;)? I gave this chapter a lot of thought and I hope you like it. I have lots of ideas for the next chapter so stay tuned! Oh and another thing: you might have noticed English is not my mother tongue, so occasionally, I find myself limited when writing this fic. But...I learn as I write and read, so I hope you can live with that. Meanwhile, tell me your opinions, they are my inspiration and encouragement. And suggestions: still very welcome! XOXO
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