Is This the End?
I laid on the bed as tears poured down my cheeks. After a few minutes there was a soft knock on the door. I sat up to listen but didn't move towards the door.
"Ness, sweetheart it's Leah, Rachel and I" Kim said softly.
I thought about it for a moment but decided not to open the door. Normally I would have let them in. Along with Emily they are my sisters and they always make me feel better when I'm upset. Today I'm too embarrassed to talk with them about what happened. Sure my bra didn't show much more than my favorite bikini but there's a difference. Wearing a bikini to the beach is one thing. Being stripped by your fiancé in front of all of your friends is another.
I lay back down and continued to cry. My sisters left to let me be alone. It wasn't more than two minutes later and Jake was at the door.
"Renesmee please let me in."
"Go away Jacob"
"Don't tell me to go away. I don't want to leave you. I won't leave you."
When I didn't respond a second time he began to pound on the door. I took my heels off by the bed and went to the window. I looked out the window to see if anyone was in that part of the yard and it was free of people. I knew if Jacob kept pounding on the door that it wouldn't stay closed for long even though it was locked. Especially since I cracked it when I shut it as I came in. I very quietly opened the window, it was a good 15 foot drop but I could do it.
"Renesmee please"
I went to the bathroom door and slammed it shut and quickly jumped out the window. I knew there were chances that the pack was waiting for me in the woods but I took the risk anyway. I took off running to the main Cullen house at as close to vampire speed as I could. Once I made it past Sam's pack's patrol line I heard a set of paws beating the ground close behind me. The wind was coming from behind me and I could tell from the sent that it was only Leah. I wasn't worried about Leah fallowing me. She wouldn't give me away to Jacob no matter how angry he got.
I ran to the south side of the house where I knew the large glass doors would be open. Once inside I went to the first family member I could find. Alice had just walked into the room as I entered. Since she can't really see my future she didn't know I was there. I collided with her wrapping my arms around her tears still falling heavily down my cheeks. She wasn't expecting me and I almost knocked her over. She may be a vampire but I was still running at my top speed as I entered the house.
"Renesmee"
I held her tighter.
"What's wrong?"
I couldn't form words to tell her what had happened. I reached up at showed her with my gift instead. As I finished Rosalie came into the room looking at me worriedly. I reached over and showed her what I had just showed Alice.
"Emmett"
"What my Rose?"
"Come on we are going hunting."
"We just got back from hunting."
"Just come on."
They left out the door and Leah came in. Over the last eight year Leah has gotten over her dislike for my family.
"Alice"
"Yes"
"Are my parents around?"
"They are hunting with Esme and Carlisle."
"Alright"
"Let's go up stairs to my room and get you some different clothes. It should help you feel better."
She picked me up and took me up to her room. It probably looked quite funny from Leah's point of view. I was a few inches taller than Alice but other than that we are about the same size. We could wear each other's clothes that hadn't been tailored. She set be on the bed and went to the closet. To my surprise she came back out with sweatpants and a t-shirt. I tried to control my crying while she changed my clothes. Once she was done the door opened. I assumed that it was just Leah but I suddenly I felt calm and relaxed.
"Jasper"
"What has my sweet niece so upset?"
"Stupid Jacob"
"I'm sorry angel"
The three of us went back down stairs to the living room. I went to the couch where Leah was. I cuddled into her suddenly feeling cold. My eyes were just closing when I heard Rosalie and Emmett coming back into the house. I caught Jacobs sent with them and hissed.
"What are you doing here?"
"Blondie told me I had to come talk to you."
"Well, I don't want to talk to you."
"What did I do that upset you so much?"
"YOU WERE STRIPPING ME IN FRONT OF THE PACKS."
"You still had you bra on. It's no different than your bikini top."
"WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU? IF I DIDN'T KNOW BETTER I WOULD SAY YOU'RE DRUNK."
"Ness calm down."
"I'M NOT DOING ANYTHING YOU TELL ME. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU. ONE MINUTE YOU'RE THE WORLDS SWEETEST BOYFRIEND AND THE NEXT YOU'RE BEING AN ASS."
The rest of my family entered the house sometime after I started yelling. Jacob moved closer to me. My dad hissed when Jacob tried to touch me. I don't know if it was due to my thoughts or Jacobs's.
"Jacob, how do you not see what the issue is?" I started to cry again. "What happened to my wolf? I can't handle this right now. Something has changed you. Maybe it was what happened with Embry, or what we did the other night. I don't know but right now I don't think I can keep the promise I made right now. Maybe in a few months I can but right now I can't."
I took a deep breath and then took the ring off my left hand and placed it in his.
"I'm sorry but right now you aren't my Jacob I don't know who you are."
I walked over to the stairs and up to my parent's room. As I reached the doorway to the room I heard the ring bounce a cross the hard wood door down stair. A few moments later the sound sad wolf howls outside the house reached my ears.
"Baby girl"
I turned to my mom knowing she wanted to know what had happened. I showed her with my gift and she held me as tight as she could without hurting me to her chest. Then she scooped me up and took me to the bed in the room. I laid there in her arms and stared at the wall of CDs. Sweet soft music from my dad's piano floated up the stairs into the room. I knew he was trying to help me drowned out the heartbreaking wolf howls. I listened to the soft music for a few hours before I fell asleep in my mom's arms.
Jacob's POV
I'm not sure what I didn't to make her hate me. At first the howls that I let out were my own sadness about her giving the ring back to me. I soon realized that howling was the wrong thing to do. I could feel each one of her sobs run though me and I couldn't help but to howl again each time I felt them. Maybe she was right, maybe I did get too upset about the kiss between her and Embry.
Who am I kidding myself I have every right it the world to tear him apart of that. And then the way he was dancing with her tonight. I was relieved when Paul interrupted them but then he did it too. Why is this happening to me? Every so often lately I have an extreme urge to attack someone in my pack. Usually its anyone that is in within ten yards of Ness.
