I'm sitting in the kitchen on the bar stool next to the kids, watching Alex make dinner. She won't let me help saying she has it all under control. The kids are sitting in their high chair next to me, Hayley won't stop staring at me.
I have a feeling she doesn't like me but thats just a guess.
"If you keep staring at her she's going to start crying." Alex says. I look up at her, she smiling at me, standing at the stove sturring something. "She wont stop staring at me." I reply looking back at the little girl. "I mean at least with Hayden he smiles or wants me to hold him." I add looking back at Alex.
She shakes her head saying, "Maybe you should try holding her. She knows your uncomfortable around her." Shes back around facing the stove. I look over at Hayley, who is still staring at me. I smile at her reaching over to pick her up, she doesn't move nor smile until I touch her. She lets out a loud scream and I let go of her leaving her in the high chair. I turn to Alex who is laughing at me.
I glare at her, "Its not funny Alex! She hates me." I say getting off the stool and walks towards Alex unable to take Hayleys screaming. Not surprisingly she stops once I get away from her. The reaction makes Alex laughs harder which in turn makes Hayden start laughing. "Okay everyone laugh at me. Whatever I dont care." I jokingly glare at her crossng my arms.
She stops laughing catching her breath. "I'm sorry its just cute that she acts like that with you." She turns the stove off. "Can you set the table for me?" She ask changing the subject I nod.
I stand there for a minute before asking, "Uh where are the plates, and stuff?" I feel stupid asking a question like that in my own house. She points to the cabinet replying. "Plates are up there and silverware are in the drawer underneath it." I nod walking over to it.
The dinner is thankfully not filled with awkward silence at least for now. We've sitting on opposite sides of the table, shes feeding hayley and I feed Hayden while eating our own food.
"So how come Hayley walks but Hayden doesn't?" I ask taking a bite of my food, looking at her over my fork. She looks over from feeding hayley a spoonful of food. "Its said that girls mature faster then boys. So I think its just a matter of time before he walks, but he's good with crawling." She shrugs. "Plus he walks if you hold his hand." She smiles turning back to Hayley.
"That doesn't count as walking." I say smiling at Hayden, laughing softly as his eyes start to close slowly. "I think he's ready for bed." I point to him, looking at Alex. She smiles chuckling. "I'll put him down if you want." I offer watching her feed Hayley.
She looks up at me. "Are you sure?" She questions putting another bite into Hayleys mouth. Yeah," I answer "I think its best you deal with her and I've got him under contol." I smile as she nods.
I walk up the stairs holding Haydens small frame in my arms. I walk down the hall looking quickly at the pictures I pass, trying to remember some part of my past. I get nothing as I reach his room.
Getting him changed took longer then planned. It would have helped if I had asked Alex where everything was, but after a few minutes of searching I found pajamas for him. I lay him in the crib watching him fall asleep before walking out of the room.
I follow the sound of talking to the room across the hall. Its similar to haydens only this rooms pink, and full of stuffed animals. I lean on the door frame as she turns holding Hayley on her hip. The little girl now in footing pajamas with stars and rainbows on them, I offer a grin when her eyes find mine.
She looks tired.
I watch as she continues getting Hayley ready for bed before turning around gesturing at the door. I push off the door frame standing in the hallway unsure of where to looks at me for a minute. "Are you tired?" She asks searching my face.I nod as she lead me to the room next to Hayleys.
"This is our room, you can sleep in here and if you want I can sleep on the couch." She says it quickly watching me for an answer. "Its fine we can share." I answer offering a small smile.
She looks uncomfortable.
She nods walking over the a dresser, she pulls out a tank top and shorts. "This are yours." She tosses them to me. "You can change in the bathroom." She points to the door on the right. I nod walking to the door.
When I get out of the bathroom she's changed and sitting on the bed. She grins at me as I close the door behind me, I walk to the opposite side of the bed pulling back the covers I sit down. "Do you want to watch t.v. or just go to bed?" She asks looking to plasma t.v across from the bed. I shrug replying. "It doesn't matter." i suddenly feel tired.
She nods scooting more on to the bed, I do the same laying stiff as she turns off the light. I lay there staring at the ceiling, when I hear her whisper. "Mitchie?" I lay there for a moment longer before answering. "Yeah?"
"Are you ok?" Her question is simple but to be honest I feel weird laying in bed with her, "I'm fine." I answer. She doesn't say anything but I feel the bed shake as she shifts her position.
"Alex?" I speak quietly and with uncertainity. "Yeah Mitch?" She asks.
"Do..do you mind wrapping your arms around me?" I ask. "I can't fall asleep." I reason hoping she'll say yes. I feel her shift again, and her small frame is pressed against mine, her arm wrapped loosly around my waist. I nod mumbling 'yeah'
Sleep finds me quicker this time.
I can't see her, but I hear her soft wimpers. She's no longer on the bed and I have no idea where she is the only thing giving me an idea is the soft sound she's making. I dont know how long she's been up or how long she's been crying, but I have a feeling this isn't the first time she's done this.
I dont move not knowing what to say.
I listen as she starts talking. I don't who it is, and I'm guessing its herself. "I know this was a mistake, and that it happened for a reason but God please bring back the Mitchie that remembers me."
God? Does she believe in such a person after what happened?
"I want the Mitchie that would say stupidly sweet things to me, and talk about how much she loved life because she got to spend it with me. The one that wanted kids and the perfect family. The girl that tried so hard to make everything perfect for our life together." She stops as a sob echos in the room. One last whisper is heard.
"Bring back the Mitchie that Loved me."
A/N: What did you guys think? Mitchie any closer to falling for Alex? I notice more people feel sorry for Mtichie then Alex So how many are feeling sorry for ALex after this chapterThis chapter was a little harder for me to write not sure why but it was. :) hope you guys enjoyed it and Please review.
NicnicBbycakes: I think depressing is good at least for this story. And I think this chapter got just a little more depressing. :)
Seth:I like the way you summerize the chapter, and that chapter 6 was your favorite. Heart breaking is what I am going for. :D
Nhie Bunnybunny: I wish she could just rememeber but then I wouldn't have a story since thats the whole point of the story (Mitchie remembering why she loves Alex) slowly but surely she realize everything. :)
BrucasDemena: I updated wheres my hint lol and yay for liking my story
thousand lies: I feel more for Alex when writing the story but I wouldn't want to be in Mitchies place. I suck at updating :)
Hyperlauren: It would be awesome if same sex couples could have kids but for now its a work of fiction :) Some day maybe
DorkyKidReader: Yay for tears, of course thats a good sign that I'm doing something right. I'm glad Alex is breaking your heart because I want her struggle to show so yay again :D
Marissa-Xtreme Haley Fan: The relationship between mtichie and hayley will get stronger over time. I'm glad you liked the chapter over all. It was def. one that I worked hard on. :)
KittySquyres: I'm happy I could show the emotion in the scene. Thank you for reviewing.
lita rocks LbC: When hayden was crying I pictured Alex to be like crying in the kitchen or something random like that. I never thought of having Alex be a wizard but I could work that in possibly. umm I'll have to think about that. :D
teenidiot: Thank you for reading and reviewing much appreciated
i am indistructible: Points for feeling bad for Alex. Shes my fave right now. :) And bed time in this chapter what did you think?
