Hello, me again *waves*. In this chapter we have Isabella's power and a bunch of self realisations.

I chose to change Bella's nick name in the last chapter because i wanted her new identity to be disassociated with how she was. Truthfully, i had trouble thinking up a nickname and settled on Iz as my other idea was Bella 2.0.

On with the chapter, as usual SM owns stuffBPOV


Peter and Charlotte walked in the door around 7am. Expectant looks in their faces as they watched us reading innocently. "Sooooo….?" Peter started "do we need to have a slumber party where we braid each others hair to find out the details of last night or are you going to tell us?"

"What do you reckon Sweet Cheeks?" Something tells me Jasper isn't going to let that nickname go. "No Honey Bunny". They cringed at the names we'd adopted. Despite their curiosity they kept quiet, Peter was bouncing on his heels trying to restrain himself like some strange Alice/Emmett hybrid. I couldn't help but giggle. We headed out to train.

The day's training was different to before the change. They had dealt with Newborns in the past and knew how erratic they became under attack. At this point they just showed different moves. It came time to act out the attack moves against each other while I observed, when Peter went to attack Jasper I freaked out. Seeing Jasper being attacked by Peter and Char caused me to switch personalities . I couldn't explain what was happening, it was total loss of control. The noises coming out of me and the urge to stand and protect Jazz were too much. A ball of electricity enveloped the both of us when I rushed past Peter and Char.

They immediately dropped to their knees, hands up and heads bowed aware I wasn't myself. They slowly began to move backwards and kept moving until they were out of sight. The electricity was slowly dissipating but I was still panicked over Jasper's well being. It's ok Iz, we're both ok. I could feel calm emanating from him and his voice assuring me through the mind meld. I was brushing my hands over him making sure he wasn't injured. I was vaguely aware of my actions through the panic. I gradually calmed down. What the hell just happened to me Jazz?

I have a vague idea, but can we talk about this with the others?

Oh shit, Peter and Char are going to be pissed aren't they?

No, Iz. They're most likely going to be smug and sympathetic. He sighed and lead me to the house.

Jasper was right, Peter was wearing his signature irritating grin. It was like a neon sign advertising the fact that he is a gigantic smart arse. I flopped on the couch just as Jasper did. Char started, I was grateful.

"Your reaction on the field today was normal. Sometimes you have a connection so strong to another being that your inner vampire recognises that person's bond with you. It surpasses the venom bond between friends, family and sires. God knows the Major was in strife when I was being trained as a Newborn, between him attacking Peter and myself he was on the receiving end of both our inner vampires. This is one of the primary behaviours of mates."

"This doesn't make things any less awkward" I had to intervene, I was recently dumped by someone who I thought was the love of my life and lost my father. Now the supernatural had thrown me a curve ball.

Peter surprised us by softening his voice "Iz, you know this is right. I get that you're apprehensive, believe me its understandable. You both may feel like this is rushing into something very serious, but you've never mated before"

"…but Alice"

"Jazz, she wasn't your true mate. You may not feel it yet, but you will all too soon. What you and Isabella have gone through in your past relationships will be nothing compared to the relationship you will have. Your connection is nothing that we've ever encountered in the Vampire world"

"Pressure much?"

"Trust me munchkin, it'll be easy as more time goes by. Just let it happen, you're on course"

I sighed, this was going to be awkward. Do we date? I'm certainly not at the stage where I'm going to jump into bed with him straight away. Time, I needed time. I felt Jasper nudging me I agree.

Jasper pulled on my hand, I followed him outside and we sat in the sun. We needed a break, this was too much information to handle. God, this is overwhelming Iz. There's too much shit going on at the moment. I think you're right though, this is one of those things we need to just let happen. Could we just go back to trying to fight train together? Focus our attention elsewhere for a bit

What if I hurt someone Jazz?

I don't think its likely if it's the two of us, and we're mates

We can give it a go, I guess. Backing up, he stalked towards me "Keep it defensive, Iz. Blocking and dodging". He was circling me. Inside the house we heard Peter humming the Jaws theme followed by Char hitting him over the head. I blocked out all noise and concentrated on Jasper's foot work. That would be the indication of where he would strike.

He lunged and I swiftly ducked, catching him mid air and propelling him towards the forest. There was a huge crash followed by a flock of birds leaving the woods. I stood there gaping, flooded with remorse. Shit.

Nice one Sweet cheeks I could feel the pride radiating off Jasper and heard chuckling from behind. "I didn't know you could fly Major"

"Shut up Peter"

"You did good Munchkin. He's really aerodynamic isn't he?" Charlotte shook her head as Peter continued his taunting "…could even be an Olympic Event one day." Jasper's loud growl spurred Peter into action, damn he could run fast. Jasper followed behind, laughing.

With the boys preoccupied I took the opportunity to talk to Charlotte. We spent the better part of the afternoon discussing my memories. It was like a constant cycle in my head. Meeting the Cullens…rescued by Edward several times…baseball…James…Phoenix…Birthday…being left in the woods…the pain…Jasper's letter…fishing with Charlie…Laurent…Victoria.

Remembering the foggy human memories helped greatly, I felt disconnected from them because of their lack of clarity in my newly renovated mind. The emotional pain was still there, but it wasn't as all consuming as it had been when I was alive. The memories Jasper had helped me with during my change were invaluable. He had seen my dad through his eyes and could perfectly recall every detail and imprint it on my mind.

Charlotte and I discussed the dynamics of the Cullen family. I had been so blind as a human, I knew they guilted me into a lot of things for the sake of 'human experiences'. Charlotte was the perfect sounding board, she knew them but was separate from the situation. I was bitter and angry, understandably so. She was able to stop a thought in its tracks when things got too much for me. It was nice having a true friend. It was a struggle not to feel stupid over what happened. They had used me and I had let them. Seeing things from the new perspective changed how I saw them. It was clear they really didn't know me, nor did they care to.

I had told them everything about my life and despite the fact that I had grown up very independent they had disregarded my choices. They patronised me and coddled me until I lost who I was. "Iz, I know your pissed off. You're not that person anymore. Like Jasper, you have the Isabella that you were in Phoenix, the Isabella you were in Forks and now your Isabella Whitlock.

"Look at what happened in your past, understand it, but don't let it continue to hurt you. Use the experiences you have to make you stronger. Look at it this way; if you found yourself back in time, on your first day of School in Forks, what would you do?"

"I would run away faster than Eddie boy" I growled out. "What if you were taken back to Phoenix at the age of 10"

"I couldn't do it again, fending off mum's boyfriends, the lecturing I'd have to do to mum and getting her ready for work. It's too much"

"See? You've experienced responsibility and independence through your mother and total dependence and nurturing from the Cullens. The two lives are so extreme there was no way to know how to deal with the changes in environment. Now you can reconcile those experiences and make your own educated choices."

"Wow, you should be a psychologist"

"Well its nice to use my degree from time to time". She smirked at me. Did all vampires go into further education?

Char left me alone to stew in my own thoughts, she returned to the house. I sat watching the sky darkened. I looked at how I would deal with things differently. I'd been a fool for trying to take responsibility for everything. I should have refused Alice all those shopping trips. I should have told Rosalie to piss off. I should have befriended Jasper, irrespective of his thirst. I had been Edward's singer and he learned to work through the thirst, Jasper should have been given that chance.

Peter sat down beside me "I'm glad you've started to understand Munchkin"

"Do you read minds Peter?"

"Of course not, I just know. I get feelings and ideas sneaking into my head. At the moment they're telling me great things about you. You're doing good Munchkin."

"I'm confused as hell, I know where I stand with my old life and my old families. But what do I do now? I have Victoria ripping through my past, I've changed species, my best friend is apparently the love of my existence and what do I do about it all?"

"Firstly, stop trying to look at everything at once, even our minds can be overwhelmed. At the moment you need to focus on training. Learn to fight, learn to hunt. Now is the time to acclimatize"

"What about Victoria"

"You cant just run after her, we don't know how good a fighter she is and you're too likely to lose your shit and get killed. That would kill Jasper."

"Oh hell"

"Hell's right Munchkin. Just concentrate on training now, everything will fall into place. The better you get with training the better you'll feel". He sighed "Come on, lets head back. Major's getting anxious".

Returning to the house I heard Jasper sigh in relief. I let out a sigh as I caught his scent, it relaxed me more than his power did. Glad to be of service. Are you ok Iz?

Fine Jazz, just getting my head around everything.

The rest of the night was spent watching old movies as a family. Slowly Jasper and myself gravitated towards each other, starting out at opposite ends of the couch and ending up with me curled into his side.


Another note thingy:

I gave Isabella's shield an offensive attribute (the electricity) because at the moment she is still running on anger. The psychological damage has altered her to the point where her gift is altered.

I also wanted to debrief what was happening with Iz mentally which is why we spent so much time in Isabella's head, she's been through a lot and wanted to show how she was evolving. The next chapter will be more fun :)