---Author's Note: This is a mini filler chapter for now just to catch people up on how Edward is feeling, then I'll add another chapter which will be longer which you might not expect ;) but that's all I will say. My plans for today were demolished as the band I was going to see in concert cancelled the gig because the drummer left!! ARGHH! So that's all. I'll write again tonight. REVIEWS PLEASE!! I don't own twilight. I don't own the quotes used from the songs 'Untouched' by The Veronicas and 'Not Fair' by Lily Allen and 'Wishes' by Superchick. Thanks, Abbie xo
Summary of previous chapter: Bella & Edward are in the airport being picked up by the Cullens. Bella runs straight to Emmett. Emmett explains about Rosalie leaving. Emmett has non-brotherly thoughts about Bella and Edward speaks to him.
When Beauty Leaves And The Lion Lies
CHAPTER VII - EDWARDS POV - LOVE, CONFUSION AND ANGER
I don't understand. Alice was her best friend in the family, so why run to Emmett? That had been playing in my mind, toying with me. She isn't in love with Emmett. She is in love with me, I have nothing to worry about. But the constant voices in the back of my head "Bella is going to leave you for Emmett, she doesn't love you anymore - you betrayed her. You heard his thoughts: he wants her."
I sighed and looked over to Bella. We were both sitting on my bed. She ran her fingers over the soft, satin covers and looked back at me, gazing emptily into my eyes.
"We need to talk," I told her. Her eyes held confusion. Then she exhaled, quickly, filling her eyes with anger.
"No, Edward, we don't need to talk. I need to talk and you need to listen," she growled. I was about to say okay when she started talking again. "You made promises to me, which you didn't keep. Didn't even TRY to keep. Do you know how unwanted and unloved that makes me feel?" she began.
"Bella, love, never feel that way I lov-"
"Don't even say it. Do you know what? I feel so untouched, and I want you so much that I just can't resist you, but it's not enough to say that I miss you. Oh you're supposed to care, but you never make me scream, all you do is take. It's not fair and I think you're really mean, it's really not okay. It's not just that though, is it, Edward? No. You're overprotective and not just 'you can't go out after 10pm' it's 'you can't see your best friend because he's a werewolf - not even in public.' He may be a werewolf but you're a fucking vampire, should I not be around you in case it is dangerous? You get to be around me all the time and I have responded to your wishes maturely. You follow me everywhere and even have your siblings watch over me if you have to go hunting. It's creepy. After all of the things you've put me through, tell me, why am I still in love with you?"
"Bella, please, love, we can work this out," I begged.
"You broke my heart on my eighteenth birthday and my honeymoon; I'm taking it back from you. And taking back the life I gave to you. Life goes on before and after you. The saddest thing is you could be anything that you could want. We could've been everything, but now we're not. Now it's not anything at all. The hardest part was getting this close to you and giving up this dream I built with you, a fairy tale that isn't coming true. You've got some growing up to do."
"Bella, no, don't do this. I need you."
"See, this is all about you! It always was, but I was so blindly, so foolishly in love with you. But I don't think I am anymore. Edward, I wish we could have worked this out. I wish I didn't have these doubts. "
"We can work this out! I can change, dear," then it clicked. She was leaving me for Emmett, the tears trickled down her cheeks, leaking from her furious, sad eyes.
"You've been the same person for a century, you can't change," she sighed and a sob broke through.
"This is about Emmett isn't it?" I questioned.
"No! Edward! This isn't about you or anyone else, this is about me. What I want. What I need. We're taking a break."
"No." I wouldn't let her do this. This isn't what she wants.
"What do you mean no? I said we are. End of conversation, I'm going downstairs," she walked towards the door but I ran and stood there, blocking her path. She pushed me, feebly.
"Bella, you aren't leaving until we have sorted this out," I added.
"You can't stop me," she hissed, "EMMETT!! COME HERE AND I WISH TO ACCEPT YOUR OFFER!"
What offer? I pondered that thought, within 10 seconds Emmett had shot up the stairs alongside Alice and Jasper. Bella shuffled into the corner of the room. The three vampires pounced at me, Bella left the room and stumbled downstairs. We were fighting, but I was too distraught at losing Bella to fight back, so I gave up and let them hurt me. I knew she hadn't broke up with me, but we weren't together either and it hurt.
"I told you, you are controlling," she spat at me as she reached the bottom of the stairs and entered the living room. I wailed in defeat and my siblings climbed off me. Jasper and Alice apologized being sure to let me know that I deserved it with a good, mental ass whooping. Emmett looked at me like I was dirt on the bottom of his shoe, he was angry that I had upset Bella so much. She was still weeping softly in the living room. He made no attempts to apologize, he didn't want to and I deserved it. He went to comfort Bella with Alice. Jasper told Alice to remind Bella that he did care about her but couldn't be in that kind of emotional climate. She understood.
