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Warning: mpreg, smut, swearing, possible drug use, violence, boy on boy, possible girl on girl, talk of abuse, OOC-ness and all the wonderful bad things in life.

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Warning: smut this chapter.

Fighting For Control

Chapter Seven: Realising Even Someone You Look Up To Can Disappoint

As soon as we arrived I looked around for Katniss. I spotted her over by the snares station, I turned to Cato and gave him a kiss on the cheek before letting go of his hand and walking over to where Katniss was hunched over. As I walked up I watched her perfect the snare she had been working on, the trainer praising her for how well she was doing.

"Katniss?" I mumble as I arrived, I was suddenly so nervous and I didn't understand why. I had never been nervous around her before so why now suddenly.

"What?" She snapped turning around to face me. She seemed surprised it was me standing there and for a second she just stared at me. "What do you want?" She sighed looking away from me.

"I just thought, maybe, look I wanted to talk to you about everything that's happened. Kind of explain and clear up what went down that first night." I say hoping she would hear me out.

"Fine, start from the beginning." She said standing and looking at me curiously.

"I, well, I don't know how to explain it I just um, as soon as I saw him I was just drawn to him. Its weird, like destiny or fate, like I didn't get a choice I just felt something instantly. And well after the parade I lie when I said he just introduced himself. Really he asked me to meet him on the roof that night.

I didn't even know if I was going to go up there but before I even knew what I was doing I was heading up there. We talked for a bit, he told me he wanted me, all of me. And I couldn't say no to that Katniss, he's the first person apart from Delly to every treat me normally."

"So what you throw yourself at the first thing that showed a once of interest?" Katniss coldly asked.

"Katniss." I basically shout in anger, catching her by surprise. "I know you might find it hard to believe but there is something actually there between us. Apart of me letting him in was me agreeing to stay on his floor and giving myself completely over to him."

"What like he owns you know?" She asked in a judgemental tone.

"No." I sigh realising she would probably never understand simply because she didn't want to. She had closed herself off to me and this was probably pointless right now. "He doesn't own me, it's just a tradition in District Two. They know when they have found their soulmate and once they have found them they will do anything to have them. Its not that he wants me Katniss, it's that he needs me. And I've never been needed before, the feelings he gives me, I can't even describe it. I truly already know I love him."

"Don't be ridiculous you can't love someone so quickly." She replied rolling her eyes.

"How would you know? Have you ever loved someone Katniss? Ever loved someone so much it almost hurt? Ever felt like your world was complete by simply being in their arms? And I mean it's different for me then you, I'm a freak of nature. What they did to me changed me in so many ways, maybe that's why I fell for him so quickly." I answer back aggressively, this ended up being a stupid idea. She wasn't interested in actually hearing me out, she didn't actually care about me at all. "Can I just ask why you've been so hostile towards me then?"

"Because Peeta, I looked up to you for never giving in. For taking all the crap people threw at you and never letting them put you down. For helping me that time when you knew you would get in trouble. For taking all th abuse your mother or the kids at school put you through and never giving in. It would have been so easy to just kill yourself, end all the suffering but you never did. I admired that about you, you still hoped for something better. But then you go and hide behind the first dick to notice the way you sway your hips. I think you're better then that, you're better then some brute from two looking for an easy lay." She spat out at me.

I was so confused, she said she looked up to me but I had never seen any evidence she ever had. I didn't understand, I thought she had never noticed me before, I guess I was wrong. But the last part of what she had said really upset me, I knew it wasn't true. "Katniss I'm sorry that's how you feel or what you think but you're wrong. And if you're to blind to see that then I'm sorry. If you really looked up to me you would have noticed how happy and full of life I have been the last few days. That even in the face of death I was willing to experience life and not cut myself off from the world outside my own head, like apparently you have. Look I was hoping we might not have to go into the games on bad terms but that doesn't look likely so good luck to you Katniss." With that I was done, I didn't want to hear anything else she had to say so I turned around and walked back over to Clove and Cato who were working on how to start fires at the fire making station.

I walked over trying to contain all my emotions but as soon as Cato looked up I broke down and threw myself into his arms. The tears started flowing as I sobbed into his chest. Cato hugged me tightly and softly hushed in my ear, it weirdly helping me settle down. "So it did not go well then?" He asked before kissing my forehead.

"No, she said she used to look up at me but doesn't anymore because I apparently I've hidden myself behind the first dick to notice or take any interest in me. And, and she thinks you're only interested in me because I'm an easy lay and that you don't really care about me, or, or that I don't actually love you." I sob out feeling so stupid I let her effect me this much.

"Did you just say you love me?" Cato asks.

I back off his chest and look him in the eyes. "What?"

He grinned at me. "You said that you loved me."

"I, I do." I realise then what I had said to Katniss, and I did love him. I loved Cato, already, in the space of three days I had actually completely fallen for him.

Cato pulled me into a kiss, filled with passion and heat before pulling away when we both needed air. "I love you too cutie."

I smiled at him, all the problems and reasons I was upset just seemed to fade right there and then. He loved me to, I know he really felt something for me, Katniss was wrong. "You love me?" I question for some dumb reason. I guess the insecurities Katniss had brought back were still playing around in my head, making me question him.

"Yes Peeta, don't believe a word Katniss said to you. I mean let's face it, you haven't put out yet which means you aren't that easy of a lay. If I had wanted that I could have slept with Glimmer the night we arrived. I mean she basically propositioned me as soon as I got off the train. But that's not the point, I know you feel what I feel when I'm with you. You feel complete right? Like with me nothing else matters?"

"Yes." I answer, Cato still beaming from my revelation of feelings towards him. Seeing him this happy was starting to make me feel happy.

"Well then nothing else matter, I have you and Clove here to back me up. And that's all I need, a boyfriend I love and a best friend who I adore." Cato laughed at the last part when he directed it at Clove.

"Bite me." She smirked as she successfully lite a fire. "He's right though Peeta, she stupid if she can't see the love you guys seem to radiate when you are together."

"Thanks Clove." I smile at her then realise that all of Panem would have seen everything. I felt uncomfortable knowing they had all seen me cry so I turned to the fire Cato had built. "So um, how do we make one of these things?"

The rest of the afternoon was spent moving from one survival station to the next. We made sure atleast one of us had mastered it so if need be we were prepared for anything. It was strange though, a lot of the other tributes seemed really confused watching the District Two tributes do anything other then train with weapons. I guess it was common knowledge careers typically never normally tried at these stations. They all stayed clear of us, making sure to leave a station as we walked up, which I didn't really like. I found it troubling they were simply scared of me because I was will Cato. But what was more troubling, atleast in my opinion, was the fact Marvel was still watching us closely. He didn't approach us at the survival station but I could tell he knew something was up. And if he was as perceptive as I was guessing he was going to try to come up with a plan to find out what we knew or break our strong knit alliance up. Glimmer on the other hand didn't seem to notice at all, even when Marvel would pause and look like he was about to head over to confront us.

Thankfully before he could do anything though the siren went signifying training was over for another day. I heard towards the elevators with Cato, hand in hand and Clove next to Cato. We were really going to stick close together no matter what, none of us was going to willingly risk not getting put in the same group. Once we were back on our floor I pulled Cato straight to our bedroom.

I guess he could sense I wanted to say something because as soon as I closed the door and turned around he looked at me expectantly. "So what do you need to tell me?"

"Well firstly I wanted to tell you that I love you." I say walking up slowly to him. "Then I was going to say that you really stink so maybe we should take a shower before dinner."

"Oh, really. I smell that bad?" Cato asks amused at how flirty I sounded.

"Mmhmm you do, so come on let's get you naked and in the shower." I say opening the button and zip on his training uniform pants.

"Well you best be stripping as well cutie or I'll have to punish you." Cato cocky grin returns before he pulled off his top.

"I am don't worry." I reply as I pulled of my own top and then let my pants and underwear fall to the ground. I don't know how I was already so comfortable infront of Cato suddenly but I didn't question it. I just wanted to enjoy having some alone time with the boy I loved.

Cato pulled off the remaining items of clothing he had on before leading me over to the shower in the bathroom. He turned the water on and waited a second for it to warm up before he stepped and pulled me in with him. "So cutie, now that you've realised that you do infact love me does that put sex back on the table?"

"Maybe, sooner then I originally thought but I don't want to plan it. I don't want to make my first time this huge thing and the end up being disappointed. I know your first time sucks, and it's not at all romantic like in novels. Its going to be painful and awkward and well atleast I have you here." I mumble, realising I had started to ramble on because thinking about our first time still made me nervous.

"Like I've told you before, we'll wait until you are ready. I promise though it won't be that bad, and if it is I'll take the blame. But until then we can just help each other out." Cato smirked as his hands slid down my back to my ass.

"Oh is that what we are calling it now, 'helping each other out', huh?" I giggled at his choice of words.

"That's exactly what I'm calling it cutie." He leant down and kissed me with the same amount of passion he used in the training centre. That only confirmed to me he wasn't playing up his love out there for the cameras. If he was he wouldn't put this much effort into a kiss no one saw.

He worked his way down my jaw, heading down my neck until he found the spot that makes me moan and squirm in his arms. I feel him smirk against my skin. My eyes flutter shut as I really start enjoying what pleasure he was bestowing onto my body. I feel us move until I am pressed against the wall, Cato bends before picking me up from the back of my thighs. I wrap my legs around his waist, as my arms wrap around his neck loosely.

It felt so right being in this position with Cato. Cato pushed his body closer to mine, sandwiching myself between him and the wall. I loved it though, in this position both of our hardened members were right up against each other. Cato started to grin up against me, forcing more moans from me. Having his hard muscles pressed up against me like this was so much of a turn on I felt like I could lose it already.

Everything felt more intense this time round, the kissing, his grinding. Cato slowly slid one hand back up to my ass before circling a finger around the hole. I bit my lip knowing what he wanted to do. "Baby do it." I half moan.

"Did you just call me baby?" Cato asked looking back at me for a second.

"Maybe." I reply not really registering what was coming out of my mouth.

He chuckles before returning to my neck, his finger slowly slipping in. The sting returned but I knew it would pass, this was exactly what I wanted right now. But then I questioned if it really was, was I happy just with his finger? What was stopping us from going all the way right now?

"Cato, I want you to do it now." I say once I had finally mustered up the courage.

"Do it now?" He questions, pulling away from my neck.

"It, I want it now. I want you to fuck me." I blurt out, not knowing any other way to say it.

Cato seemed shocked for a second but regained his composure. "Are you really sure about this? I don't want to you to do this just for me."

"Yes I'm sure. This is about me Cato, I want it so bad, and I can't remember any reasons as to why we shouldn't." I say pulling him into a kiss.

This was it I was really ready for this to happen. I wanted it so so so badly, and I needed Cato to do this. I just had to have it happen already, I wanted him to fuck me. He loved me, I loved him, why wouldn't I want it now. Cato slipped a second finger in, I bit my lip at the sting but it wasn't that unbearable. I could do this, I was going to finally find out what if felt like to go all the way. He worked his fingers in and out of me, scissoring them to loosen me up. I felt my body relaxing and as Cato realised this he started to work a third in. The sting returned for a second but once again faded away.

I kissed Cato shoulder as he continued to work on my hole. "Cato I can't wait any longer." I moan when he hits that spot in me. It was magical, I felt warmth all over, stars danced across my eyes, my body felt as if it was on vibrate. He brushed up against that spot again, causing another moan or meow as Cato put it from my mouth. "Cato common on, I want this so bad right now." I pleaded.

"That bad cutie?" He smirked finally removing his fingers. I huffed at the lose but I felt him shift until his cock was lined up with my waiting entrance.

The anticipation was to much, tried to force him to move quicker but all I got was a growl from Cato. "Cato." I growled back.

"Alright, just be patient I don't want to actually hurt you." He says as he finally started to push in.

I bit my lip and the sting came back as he pushed in, I concentrated on relaxing and just as he got the head in there was a loud bang at the door. It startled both of us, causing Cato to slip and lose his grip on me. We came tumbling down with a thud onto the shower floor. We both let out a pained groan, my knees took most of my own fall, Cato however had fallen flat on his ass. Thankfully he slipped out as he fell, or that could have been a whole other world of pain.

"Get outta the shower and come to dinner. No one is interested in waiting on you two fucking." Clove giggled from behind the door.

"I'm going to kill you Clove." Cato yelled.

I kissed him on his lips. "I know but I guess after dinner we can try again?"

Cato smirks at me. "Well now I just to eat as fast as I can so I can get you into bed."

I giggle at him. "Fine, it's a date."

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