Bella's pov
It had passed a month since my last letter to Edward. Jacob had send me one too, a few days ago. He was telling me that he loves me and misses me. Here, in Forks, the things were getting weird everyday. Many families from Europe were coming and living here. My father had taken a family, a woman with her two children. They were a very lovely family and I loved being around them, especially Sue. She was reminding me my dead mother, she had died when she I was fifteen from cancer.
I had to move out from the house since there wasn't many space for five people. Esme agreed to let me live at her house. It was nice to have next to me Alice and Rosalie all the time. They were such a nice help when I had nightmares and comforted me when I needed to be comfort. Plus, Alice needed someone to be with her after she had gotten out of the hospital. So, here I was, at my 'new' room, leaning into the window with Edward's letter in my hands. I asked from Alice and Rosalie to be alone when I'll open it. It wasn't a simple letter; it was a letter which would give me push to fight for him and my feelings or to back off.
Dear Bella,
Today after our gun practice, I lied on my bed and started thinking about the day we met. Do you remember it at all, Brown eye girl? You were running from Tyler and you fell into my arms, I felt whole that moment. The first thing that you said was sorry I am kind of clumsy. But the truth it didn't matter to me. I am pretty sure you heard me chuckle and that's why you shook your head. When you looked up, I saw your eyes. I felt like they were the only eyes I wanted to see when I'd wake up every morning and the only ones when I'd fall asleep at nights. You told me your name and my heart started beating faster than usual. Then, I told you mine and my lips were on your hand outside palm. I remember you blush, something that I'd never forget. But then he came, Brown eye girl. He took your attention and you forgot me. I heard you giggle and my heart broke when it was because he said something funny.
So, Bella if you ask me if I am willing to take a chance to make you mine then the answer is yes, because I was expecting this day since that day. I miss your laugh, your eyes, and your blush but when I close my eyes I see them, I hear it. Don't be afraid of me, don't be afraid of Jacob. If he really loves you he will want to see you happy, like I do. I want to see you happy Bella, and this words will be my last if my life end before you be. I think back the times Jacob held you in his arms and his was rocking when you were upset or when he just had you in his arms. I was wishing me to be that person. I am a helpless, hopeless man. I am opening my heart to my best friend's fiancée.
Yours,
Edward
Tears started slipping down at my eyes. They found the soft paper and made softer than it was already. You could still recognize which tears were slipped now and which when Edward was writing the letter. I went and lied on my bed and started thinking of the day we met.
*Flashback*
I was walking on the road when I was Tyler coming. I started immediately walking faster then I ran. I wasn't in the mood of dealing with him now. He couldn't take no for an answer. I was looking down and I didn't see the people in front of me.
"Ow." I said when I stepped on someone. "I am sorry, I am kind of clumsy." Then I heard him chuckle and I shook my head. I looked at him. I saw the most gorgeous green emerald eyes ever. "I'm Bella." I managed to say. "Edward." His said with a voice like velvet. How a man could have a voice like velvet? He took my hand and kissed my outside palm. A blush was already in my checks.
"Edward!" a very husky voice said. And then, I saw him. He was tall, with short brown hair and brown eyes. He was attractive, friendly and handsome but nothing like Edward. "Oh, hello nice lady. I am Jacob." He didn't kiss my hand he just smiled.
"Bella." I smiled back and I got lost in his eyes. "Well, how Eddie managed to meet such a beautiful lady like you? He must pay someone." He said and I giggled like a small child but the man before was still in my mind.
*End of Flashback*
But think it again now; Edward was still in my mind. Every time that Jake and I were meeting outside I was looking for him. I hadn't realized it then but I do now. He was in my mind and other times when I was looking out of my window and it was raining. Then the trees were so green that their color was reminding me his eyes. And now, I just lied in my bed, hearing the rain which just started wishing realizing how stupid I was earlier. Edward was always in my mind but I never took it seriously. As my realization was out tears and sobs were too. I started sobbing like it was the only think I could do. I made myself a ball and continue sobbing.
Alice and Rosalie got in the room and tried to comfort me. Their hands were around my body, shaking and they were whispering "Shh..." while more memories burst in my mind. His smile, when he was talking to me. How drown I was every time he was speaking, how amazed I was from his manners, his tastes in music, books and his hobbies. He liked to ride horses like I did. We often took small rides. One day we found a beautiful meadow.
*Flashback*
"WOW." I said as we entered a meadow. It was very green with many colorful flowers. "Yeah, wow." He said and climbed off his horse. He came to me and helped me to climb off.
"Do you hear it?" he asked me with a smile, still holding my hand from before. "There is a river near." He said and helped me to sit down. I closed my eyes and stood there hearing the birds signing.
"It's magical here." I whispered. I opened my eyes only to find his green ones. "Yeah, it is." He said softly. I entangled my fingers with his. "I want to get married here one day." I said softly.
He shrugged and chuckled. "You may get your wish true if you really want it." he said. He cut a red tulip from next to him and gave it to me.
I blushed and thanked him. Weird feelings started taking my body over but I shook them. I really should back off from Edward Cullen before it was too late.
*End of Flashback*
I was shaking for all this new details, for all this new feelings but only one was first and stronger than the others. Love. I was complete madly and deeply in love with him.
"Bella, sweetheart..." Rosalie whispered. I turned to look at her, tears still rolling down. "I love him, Rose. I love him." I shook my head in disbelief. "Hun, we know that. You're marrying him, remember?" she said in a joke tune. I laughed at her. Her expression became confused. Then, I said something that took her out of guard.
"I wasn't speaking about Jacob."
I did uptade soon, so I'll keep my head and today. LOL. It's seems like Bella realized something. It's small I know but it gets like that out of me. I write what I want to right. More flashbacks are on the way and more future too. Yeah, I may skip a few years. Review always makes me happier! :)
