Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy even though I wish I did.

There is one good reason why I haven't updated: Nothing could EVER beat the last three episodes and I didn't even want to try. But now that they're over (and were freaking amazing!) and we don't have a new episode for 3 weeks, I have an update for you! So I'll recap you. Meredith and Derek kissed. That's all you need to know.

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"I'd give it all, I'd give for us…"

The only reason that Meredith had succeeded in avoiding Derek was that she didn't have to work the next day. By doing that, she had also succeeded in avoiding the discussion that they would inevitably have about the kiss they had shared. The amazing kiss that neither of them had been able to forget about since it happened. Meredith's roommates just assumed that she was distracted and tired after what had happened during her first shift, so they didn't question her about her mood. But Addison noticed a change in Derek's mood. He was happy. He hadn't acted like this for a very long time.

"Derek, what's going on with you?"

"What are you talking about Addison?" Derek asked, practically whistling as he got dressed for bed.

"You're smiling."

"Yeah. It's called happiness. I understand why you wouldn't recognize it."

Addison sat up in bed, closing her book and taking her glasses off. The man who stood in front of her was not the husband that she had been living with for years. Somewhere down the line their relationship had changed.

"This isn't the Derek I know. The Derek I know mopes around and never smiles."

"Things change Addison. Things change" he answered as he got into bed.

"What kinds of things?" Addison asked suspiciously, Meredith Grey being the farthest thing from her mind.

"I don't want to talk about this right now. I've had a long day Addison. Can't we just go to sleep?" Derek replied, just wanting to go to sleep and dream about the woman who had changed his life in one moment.

"And we're back to the old Derek," she muttered, rolling over in bed and once again going to sleep without so much as a goodnight kiss from her husband of eleven years.

Just as Addison had done with Derek, Cristina noticed that something was up with Meredith. Izzie and George had attributed it to a post-surgery high from her first shift, but Cristina knew different.

"What the hell is up with you Meredith?" Cristina asked, sitting next to Meredith at Joe's.

"Nothing," she answered, swallowing another shot.

"That's crap Grey. Tell me what's going on. Because if you don't, I'll find out. You know I will. So spill."

"I kissed Derek" Meredith admitted, putting her head down on the bar.

"You kissed McDreamy?"

"In an elevator."

"You kissed McDreamy in an elevator?" Cristina repeated.

"It was…he's a good kisser…a very good kisser…he was…" Meredith said.

"Stop. Right now. I do not need to hear about your tonsil hockey with my boss. Our boss."

"I don't know what to do." Meredith signed.

"What to do about what?" Cristina asked, "It was one kiss."

"He's married. I like him. I'm not supposed to like my boss. My very married boss. Very married to a beautiful doctor who makes me feel hideous. But I like him. And we kissed." Meredith said, continuing to ramble.

"You're screwed," Cristina said as she drank her beer.

Meredith dreaded going to work the next morning. Not only did she have a hangover from her night of drinking at Joe's with Cristina, but she knew she was going to see Derek. Which meant she was going to want to kiss Derek again. And again. She was getting in the elevator to go up to the locker room when, just like two days before, a familiar hand stopped the doors from closing.

"Good morning Meredith," Derek said in his usual chipper tone.

"It's too early to be a good morning," Meredith groaned, still getting used to her hours as an intern.

"It's always a good morning when you see me."

Meredith couldn't keep herself from laughing. She had been in the crabbiest mood when she woke up that morning but just seeing Derek and hearing his voice had changed her day immensely.

"Ahh. Very arrogant today aren't we?"

"Not arrogant. Confident." he said, giving her that irresistible smile.

"Whatever," Meredith said rolling her eyes.

After a few moments of silence, Derek spoke again, "Should we, ya know, talk about the kiss?"

Right after he said it, he regretted it. He had gotten Meredith to loosen up and now, just mentioning the kiss, he could see her tense up.

"There's nothing to talk about. We kissed. And it can't happen again. You're married and you're my boss. Therefore, we can't kiss. It was…we just…"

"It was what?" Derek asked curiously.

"The kiss…I mean…you felt it too right? You feel this. This whatever it is. Don't you?" Meredith said, looking Derek in the eye for the first time since he got onto the elevator.

"Yeah I do."

"Okay. I just thought I was imagining something. But then we kissed and then it was…but you're married. And I have to see your wife everyday. And I'm going to feel guilty. So we definitely cannot kiss again."

"Meredith," Derek chuckled, "You're rambling."

"I know. Bad habit," she said.

"I know I'm married. But things with Addison me haven't been the same for a long time. And I don't regret kissing you."

"Me either."

"We could be friends," Derek suggested.

"I don't know if I could do that. I don't know if I could just be friends with you." Meredith admitted.

"We could. I'm a good friend. You'd be lucky to have me. We could meet. Have coffee. Have meaningful discussions about the complex nature of our existence. Might be fun. We could be friends Meredith." Derek said, almost begging.

"I don't know Derek. We…"

Before she could continue he cut her off, "Give me a chance Meredith. Please."

Meredith took a deep breath, "Just friends?"

"Just friends," Derek said smiling.

Friends. They could do friends.

"Give anything but I won't give up…"

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