Hello everyone! I know I should have updated a looong time ago. There's a reason I didn't and it's called finals. I still have two weeks till the Christmas break, but I can't have you wait a month for an update so I managed to write a lil something to hopefully cheer you up :)

I don't own the characters or the songs, just the ideas.


All this time she was going out of her mind, thinking of how to make everything perfect when all she had to do was let go and do what she wanted to. She aimed for perfect and what she was feeling was the closest thing to that. She didn't know what to expect, what would happen, but she knew she needed comfort and kissing him, being that close to him was as comforting as it could get. Maybe things would work out…

He instinctively brought her closer and broke the kiss for a moment, just to make sure this wasn't on impulse. It wasn't. She was still looking at him with adoration and all he could do was adore her back.

''Nate-'' she took his face in her hands and stare in to his eyes hoping she would fin honesty she craved for ''- do you think that two people who have been trough as much as we have , can really forgive and forget?'' she asked him the same thing she did all those years ago and at that moment Nate knew everything would be alright with them. It may be a long way getting there, but it would be alright.

''Yes-'' he laid himself down on her bed and took her with him ''-do you?''

She sighed ''I just want to move on….and if I want to do that, I have to stop living in the past''

Nate smiled up at her and nodded ''Stop living in the past-'' he pondered ''-I like that''

It was the last thing he managed to say before her lips were all over his again and her fingers busy unbuttoning his shirt.


The first ray of sunshine entered Manhattan right in time as the blonde bombshell extended her hand and hailed a cab. She was at her destination in no time and was so busy playing with her hair that she didn't have much time to think through the conversation she was about to have, and that's saying much because playing out scenarios while riding was her favorite activity.

She just didn't want to think about it too much.

She didn't have to do much in order for the doorman to let her in, a blink or two with those long lashes was all it took to charm the man in to letting her in.

She made sure not to make her walk too loud, it was after all 7 in the morning and no matter how Blair liked to have it early, Sundays were reserved for sleeping in. Serena didn't bother much to let her know she was coming; Blair liked surprises, although she wasn't so sure she would like that one.

She thought about just going in, but Blair could be mad and barging in wouldn't go to her use. So she knocked, a light barely audible knock to let her know she was there. When there was no response even after a fifth knock she decided to just go in.

''Umm hello?'' she shoved the door lightly, trying to peek on her friend, all she saw was a bunch of sapphire-white sheets and some brunette curls ''-Blair, you awake?'' she whispered. Obviously not. She tiptoed inside the room, leaving the croissants she brought from Blair's favorite bakery on the table. It was so dark in the room you couldn't see a thing, luckily she knew the room by heart. Finally, but clumsily, she reached the curtains she was looking for and undid them in one swipe.

''Morning sunshi-'' her voice stopped in her throat when she realized that besides the sheets there was a half naked Nate covering Blair ''-oh my God'' she said half whisper half shock. She quickly put the curtains back where they were and headed straight out, not minding the loud clacking of her heels that time. Maybe a little too late-

''Serena?-'' Blair murmured in disbelief, was that really happening or was she having yet another Serena nightmare and her past has come to haunt her once more? No, not a nightmare, Serena was indeed trying to escape her room. ''-Stop right there'' she commanded and pulled the sheets tight to herself. She managed to wriggle out of Nate's warm yet firm embrace. He noticed the loss of contact but was too sleepy and exhausted from last night to care.

''What are you doing here?'' Blair asked from the top of the stairs. She was wrapped in sheets so there was no question, her and Nate have gotten back together and it made Serena sick to her stomach. She came there to make peace with Blair for the umpteenth time, she was willing to look pass the fact of Nate and Blair having a child together but as long as they were apart. If the whole situation happened a few months before it wouldn't sting so bad. For the biggest part of her life Serena found a way to outshine Blair, she didn't do it on purpose, it was just the way things needed to be.

And then all of a sudden everyone wanted Blair. First Nate, then Chuck who she could have but wasn't satisfied with. The one that hurt the most – Dan. And then Nate again? No, Serena too deserved to have someone. Everyone said that her life was perfect. It was all fake with a short expiration date and Serena knew it better than anyone. Crystals may shine brighter but diamonds are forever.

She wanted to have that romantic carefree love that Nate and Blair had. Sure there was a tone of drama and tears, but there was happiness and over this world love she never experienced. She of all people knew Blair and Chuck wouldn't last, just like her and Nate because no matter how hard you try, you can't deny someone the right of true love. He would always go back to her and she would always take him back.

With bitterness in her throat she murmured quietly ''-I just-I wanted to clarify some things-'' she looked down at the floor with fear of breaking down ''-we'll talk some other time''

''It's seven in the morning Serena, if it was discussable some other time you wouldn't have come here at seven. So spare us both the time and spill it'' For the first time ever Blair felt guilty for being rude to someone. The pregnancy hormones were taking their toll on her. Thanks god she wasn't sick too. Morning sickness and Serena all in one morning was something she couldn't handle if she wanted to.

Serena rolled her eyes and started staring at her custom made Manolo flats.

''I just came here to, well, say I'm sorry for acting the way I did yesterday. I know it was immature, but the news was pretty big. Put yourself in my shoes''

I'd rather not.

She remained still at the top of the staircase getting used to this new Serena who actually had the guts to apologize and admit she was wrong. Was she on drugs or something? She was glad to have at least some weight lifted from her shoulders but all of it was too sketchy. Serena was never the type to admit they were wrong even if everything proved they were. Why the sudden mood change? She expected for her to be mad at least a month or so, then slowly start crawling back.

Blair was no saint but neither was Serena. They both had their twisted ways of getting what they wanted, and this time Blair wanted the truth.

''Are you really here to apologize or is this another one of your schemes to break me when I'm finally happy?'' she could tell she caught her unprepared by the look of disbelief that was washing over her features.

''I-'' she stuttered ''-no Blair, I came here to apologize. Not everyone is all about schemes as you are.-'' She was getting real worked up ''- you know what? Fine. Think whatever the hell you want. I don't care-'' she was almost in the elevator but she stopped to make one last snarky comment ''- oh and tell Nate I wish him good luck, he's going to need it since he fell back in to Queen B's den''

'' So that's the itch, Nate huh?'' she yelled. Blair grasped the fence as hard as she could. In her mind Serena was getting hit by a car that she was driving. That's your average UES friendship, the biggest ride you'll ever have with not much of a happy ending.


I know it's really short and it probably sucks, but bare with me. All this time I barely manage my schoolwork let alone fanfictions. Luckily this will soon be over and then I promise I'll get back on one chapter per week. Hope I didn't disappoint you too much:( till next update, xo L