I'm getting this chapter out so fast because it's one of my readers birthdays today. Happy Birthday Larn555! It's a short chapter but I hope you all like it!
The doors of Kaname Kuran's room closed quickly and the pure blood leaned against the closed doors struggling to breathe. It wasn't physically exhausting to run as fast as he had, no he was breathing heavily for a completely different reason. He stared down at the floor, his hand raising to his throat to feel the fang marks had healed, but his pulse was racing rather quickly.
"What was that?" Kaname muttered to the empty room.
When he was with Zero ...
When Zero had been …
When he ...
The thought still made Kaname sick, but there was another feeling. One he wasn't familiar with. It felt strange, like something foreign inside him, but it was something he liked even though he couldn't define it. It was less of a feeling and more of a need. A want. But what did he need?
It was then that Kaname became aware that his hand was still on his throat, more specifically tracing over the spot that Zero had bit him. Even though the holes were long healed it was like he could almost feel his fangs still there. A shudder ran down him, but not one of disgust like he would normally. What did it mean?
Stalking across the room Kaname went into the adjoining bathroom and looked at his neck in the mirror. Just like he thought there was nothing there. He felt a moment of disappointment before he stopped himself. What was he disappointed about?
That was the first time anyone had ever drunk from him. He always thought that … well it didn't matter now. He needed Zero. The thought made his heart skip a beat. "What the…?" He paused, thinking before saying out loud, "I need Zero." His heart started to pound painfully as he felt the shadow of his fangs in his neck. "What the hell?!"
Feeling weak and drained he grabbed a wine goblet that had the blood tablet already dissolved in it. Instead of drinking it like refined wine, like he would normally do, he drank deep from the glass as if he had needed it more than anything. More than Zero. He thought with a scowl, but the thought made him a little sad. "WHAT THE HELL!?" He yelled crushing the glass in his hand. "ICHIJO!"
The blond aristocrat appeared before Kaname looking startled, as he had every right to be. He had never heard Kaname shout before. "Kaname-sama, what's the matter?"
Kaname looked over at Ichijo. Now that he was here he didn't know what to say. "I don't … know." He said slowly. This alarmed Ichijo even more. If Kaname didn't know something he wouldn't say so. He looked so much younger than he normally did. Almost like a lost child. "What …" Kaname looked up at Ichijo not sure how to word it. "What is this feeling?"
"Feeling?" Ichijo repeated. It was hard to imagine Kaname not understanding a feeling. It was true that he didn't often express himself, but he was sure that the pure blood had experienced the full range of emotions at least once. "What feeling?" Ichijo helped Kaname over to the bed and sat down with him. It felt almost too casual.
Kaname started at the floor trying to find the words. "It's like … less of a feeling and more of a need." He said slowly, trying to make sense of it as he tried to explain it at the same time. "A need … to … do something." Ichijo listened patiently watching Kaname. "A need … for someone."
It was then that the pieces started to make sense to Ichijo. "For someone?" He asked, wanting to make sure his hunch was correct. Kaname just nodded still staring at the floor. Ichijo sighed. "Kaname-sama, don't scare me like that. If you were talking about Yuuki, you should have said."
The pure blood looked up confused. "Yuuki?" He asked wondering why Ichijo thought he was talking about her.
Ichijo nodded. "I'm actually not that surprised that you don't understand this emotion." He patted Kaname on the shoulder sympathetically. "You've always had such pure intentions towards Yuuki, I always wondered if you'd ever feel this." Kaname was confused and it must have shown on his face because Ichijo explained slowly. "It's called lust, Kaname-sama. You're lusting after Yuuki. It's only natural for a boy," Ichijo snickered at his part, "your age." He felt like he was explaining about wet dreams to a teenaged boy. "You want a physical relationship with Yuuki, and after how long you've loved her and seeing what a fine young woman she's become I can't blame you."
His mouth slightly open Kaname just stared at Ichijo. Lust? "I wasn't … talking about … Yuuki." He said very slowly.
"Oh." Ichijo said awkwardly, taking his hand off of Kaname's shoulder.
They sat in silence for a while, not talking. "Lust? You're sure?" Kaname asked, almost afraid of the answer.
Ichijo bobbed his head in response.
Again they sat in silence. "How do you know about lust?" Kaname asked turning to his friend.
"Look at the time! I better get some sleep! Good day!" Ichijo left the room faster than Kaname had left Zero's.
Alone again, Kaname looked at the floor contemplatively. "Lust?" Then he simply laid down on his bed and thought.
At first I wasn't sure about adding this scene, just had it be something that happened that the reader wasn't aware of until later. But the part with Ichijo kinda ties into something later so I had to add it. Let me know what you think! Once again Happy Birthday Lar555!
