A/N:
Okay, this story is NOT COMPLETE. I accidentally hit the complete button or something yesterday, which I totally did NOT mean to do. Because there will be more. A lot more. XD Thank you so much MostlyxShortxStories for saying something, because I never would have figured it out. ^^
So, my email will not let me know when people review anymore, or when I update a chapter. It's so strange. The messages didn't go to any other folder, either. So sorry for not replying to you guys, I'll write my replies at the bottom.
K, so this chapter is going to be MATT again. Whoot. I don't want to confuse anyone that much.
Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note.
Chapter 7: MATT (for those who don't read author notes)
I looked up at Light, and my smile diminished a little. "Yeah, it's good," I said quietly.
Light looked at me with concern. "Matt? What's the matter?"
I shook my head slightly, a small smile on my face. "Nothing. Just thinking."
"About what?"
I chuckled. "The gods must hate me," I said barely above a whisper.
"Why's that?" Light sounded puzzled.
"Why else would they force me to go through this?" I asked exasperatedly. "Was I bad in a previous life? A murderer? Did I commit a mass-genocide? Huh?"
"Matt, calm down." Light put a hand on my arm in comfort. I didn't have the strength to throw it off. Hot, angry tears leaked from my eyes, and I turned my gaze back to the window. The mother and her child were gone now, and the parking lot was deserted of human life. I closed my eyes tightly and removed my goggles so I would be able to wipe away the falling tears.
I sniffled. "Why me?" I asked quietly, waiting for an answer I knew Light could never give me.
"Why do I have to die?"
Light's grip tightened reassuringly. "I don't know, Matt," he said honestly. His voice rang through the room; strong, pure, the voice of a leader. Of someone who knew he'd be alive to have children, and watch them grow up, too. Someone the exact opposite of me.
Another tear slid down my cheek. I lifted my hand to wipe it away.
"Matt," Light started, "everyone dies. That's a fact. It always happens. But for certain people, they die earlier than others. It doesn't mean they did something wrong; some of them may have, but not all. And Matt, you've done nothing wrong. You're sick. It's a disease. And I'm sorry to say it, but we can't guarantee you'll live. But we won't stop. If you don't give up, we won't either."
I turned back to Light after replacing my goggles, and saw it written on his face. He was speaking the truth. He really wanted to help, but only if I wanted to be helped.
And I did. I took a deep breath. "Okay," I said, my voice a little shaky from crying. "I won't. I won't give up." Light smiled.
"That's what I want to hear." He let go of my arm, and grabbed the clipboard from bed. "Now, let's get down to what I came here for."
I looked at him for a minute. "Uh, Light?"
"Yes?" he asked.
"Why did you come here?"
Light laughed. "I'm here to check up on you." He glanced down at the clipboard, picking a pen out of his coat and clicking the back. "So, how have you been feeling? Side effects or anything?" He looked at me expectantly.
"Dizziness, nausea," I said. I closed my eyes for a minute. "I've been feeling really tired."
Light nodded and scribbled something down. "Those are probably from the tumors, not the CAT scan. They might be advancing quicker than we thought." A dark looked crossed his face, but he shook it away. "I suggest staying in bed for the rest of the day and see how you feel tomorrow. I'll give you some medication to help with the nausea and dizziness, alright?"
I nodded. Talking had tired me out, and I just wanted to curl up in a ball and go to sleep. "Okay," I said, suppressing a yawn. "I'll do that." Light smiled as if he knew something I didn't, but I let it pass, choosing to climb into my bed.
"I'll have nurse Amane bring you the medication in a few minutes." Light got up and started to leave.
"Uh huh, sure," I said lazily. I was still feeling a little sick, but for the most part I just wanted to sleep for a long, long time.
Light nodded, but hesitated at the door. "Matt," he said for a final time.
"Yeah?" I replied.
"I heard that you went to see Mr. Keehl."
"Who?" I asked. Then it hit me. "Mello?" I asked, a little more awake. Light nodded.
"Yes."
"What happened?" I asked quickly. "Is he alright? Did he die?" Fear rose in my chest. He didn't die, did he? He seemed pretty indestructible to me. Well, besides the fact that he got totally wrecked by a car.
…Shut up.
Light chuckled. "Calm down, he's fine. He complains every minute that he wants to leave, but he's not in any physical harm." He shifted the clipboard in his hands. "I heard from Nurse Amane-"
"Misa," I cut in. "Dude, you're banging her and we all know it. Just call her Misa."
Light looked uncomfortable. "I heard from Misa"-he said it as though he hand something sour on his tongue-"that you were talking with him."
"Yeah, I met him the other day," I said.
Light smiled. "That's good," he said. "Matt, you need to make friends. It's unhealthy if you don't. And even though he may be a pain-"
"-In the ass," I added in.
"- he's around your age, and I suggest you take full advantage of it."
I swear to god I just saw Light wink.
…
Awkward.
"Alright, I'm going to let you rest," Light said. "I'll talk to you later."
I could only nod. Did he really wink? What the hell did he mean by that?
I shook my head to clear it, immediately regretting the action when the room started to spin. I cursed and closed my eyes, willing the dizziness to go away. After a couple minutes, I opened them, and the world turned from black to a familiar orange. When nothing spun, I sighed in relief. I lay down in my bed, pulling the covers up tightly. I turned onto my side, facing the window, and willed myself to sleep. In a few minutes, I figured out that that was impossible. Damn. I had too much on my mind to even be thinking about sleeping, even if I was so tired. So I sat there and waited until Misa came to give me whatever the hell she was going to give me and hoped to god it was strong enough to knock me out.
She came into the room a few minutes later, and whatever drug Light told her to give me was good. (Not that I take drugs or anything…eh hem…) I looked at her and returned the smile she was giving me.
"That better, Matty?" she asked hopefully. I nodded a little bit into my pillow, stifling a yawn. Misa laughed. "Okay, I leave you to get some sleep," she said, closing the blinds in the room and turning the lights off before leaving.
"Mm'kay," I replied lazily. I was feeling much better. My nausea had diminished, and the room stayed in one place. (A/N: As my mother would say, that's some high quality shit. XD) Not to mention the fact that I felt I could fall asleep now.
I took one last glance through the darkened room, and strained to hear the sounds of the hospital through the door. Everything sounded pretty quiet, and I released the breath I didn't know I was holding.
Keehl. His last name is Keehl, were my last thoughts before I was swallowed into sleep.
A/N:
Whoot?
Darn, no Mello. But I'm going to update again later today. I can't write anymore since I have to (Like, really have to) get ready for school, haha.
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K, I gotta go to school, bleh.
Till next time!
