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Chapter 7: Pains….
-"Em, it's for you"
Emma walked up to the door, sure it was Manny, who probably was wondering how she was doing but she soon realized her mistake…
"Sean? What are you doing here?
- Nice way to welcome me, Emma. Can I come in?
- Sure"
She was not quite sure what to do next. It was just too much happening in only one day. Sean looked also awkward; he did not know if he should sit. He did not know if he should start talking. He simply did not where to start. He had hoped he could come back to Degrassi and figure it all out in 5 minutes but it was more complicated. He found that out as soon as he had held her in his arms at school and she had disappeared. He did not want to feel so helpless, he wanted to be her hero again but he also understood that maybe this time, Emma needed more than a hero. She needed a friend and she needed to find herself again….
He realized he was having a hard time looking at her. He could not help thinking about everything that Manny had explained to him and he was also afraid of what she might be thinking of him…
So, he opted to go say hi to her parents… They were surprised to see him but he also noticed the concerned look on their faces.
He, then, turned around to Emma to realize that she was not in the room anymore…
Alex and Jay were in his car. He was concerned by her silence and at the same time, he felt guilty of not being totally there for her. In fact, he could not help but think about Emma….
Alex was looking at him. She had not wanted to go to the ravine. For once, she felt vulnerable. Suddenly, tears started to roll down on her face, washing away the make up that she had put on as a mask to hide her bruise….
Jay tried to dry her tears with a finger and started feeling angry as soon as he saw what she had been hiding. He felt his heart softened for her and he promised himself that he would not let anybody hurt her, especially not himself.
He knew that their relation was vicious from times to times but holding her while she was slowly calming down, he also knew that he loved her….
Ellie had made her way back to what she always had a hard time calling "home". She was afraid of her mom, she was terrified that the same circle of pain was going to start again. She had wanted to cut herself so badly but so far, she had held pretty well and that actually was giving her a sense of power….
She knocked at the door and waited. She had the keys but she had too many bad memories coming home to a destroyed woman and she had decided that if she was taking too long to answer the door, that meant she was intoxicated. In that case, she would go to Ashley.
"I'm counting until 5, Mom" she told herself after knocking a second time, a bit harder….
She did not have to go up to 3, that her mom, sober and surprised, opened the door.
She took one look at Ellie's brave face and she just opened her arms and said:
"Come here, baby" opening her arms and for the second time in less than 2 hours, Ellie felt the pain of Sean and her not being together anymore and felt into her mother's arms….like she used to do when she was a kid and her mom was still the one she could count on. Before all the problems….Maybe this time, she would be able to lean on her and get the time to enjoy being a teenager without all the added drama to it and maybe she will be happy again, even without Sean.
Emma just went to her room. She did not want to run anymore but she did not feel she was strong enough to be social with her parents and Sean. She felt so confused and needed to relax a bit. She felt asleep pretty fast considering all the thoughts that were racing in her head. She woke up like many times grasping for air. It was difficult from times to times to get a goodnight sleep. As she opened her eyes, she felt a presence in her room. Her heart started pounding, she wanted to scream but no sound was coming out…
