Sorry it took so long to post this chapter I was a little overwhelmed and couldn't find the time to work on it. I had testing in school the last couple of weeks but now I'm out for summer so I'm going to try and post more often.
CHAPTER 7
"Your daughter?" She says to herself. "You have a daughter?" she asks in disbelief looking at me
"Yes." I say. She surprises me when she walks over to me and begins to play with Liz.
"Can I hold her?" She asks me with a hopeful smile on her face. I smile and place Liz in her awaiting arms.
"I am going to go and get her stuff so we can leave." I tell her before walking back up to my room. I pack a few extra outfits and lots of diapers and wipes. Then I go downstairs to the kitchen and put a few bottles into the bag. I go into the hallway and set the bag by the door and go back up to my room. I grab the car seat and go back downstairs where Rosalie is playing with Liz in the living room.
"Come on we have to go to your house." I tell Rosalie picking Liz up and putting her in her car seat. I buckle her in and pick it up before walking toward the door. I set her down to grab my coat and her diaper bag then pick her back up before walking out the door with Rosalie locking it behind us.
"We're gonna have to take my car" I say turning toward Rosalie
"Why?" She asks looking at her car "What's wrong with mine?"
"Mine has the base for Elizabeth's car seat in it." I say walking toward my car and putting Liz in the back.
"Who's driving?" She asks me
"Nobody but me drives my car." I say getting in the driver's seat as she gets in the passenger seat. I start the car and pull out of the driveway. I turn on the radio and moonlight sonata by Beethoven begins to play. I sit back in my chair with a contented sigh while humming along to the music.
"You and Edward would probably get along great he listens to classical music all the time. He is a music freak his bedroom walls are lined with tons of CDs." She says
"I may have to check that out someday." I say in an intrigued manner while rubbing my chin. She just rolls her eyes and looks out the window.
"You really don't mind that I have a daughter?" I ask her
"No." she says without looking at me
"You don't care that I got pregnant in high school?" I ask in a small voice
She turns and looks at me with a stern look in her eyes "Just because you got pregnant in high school doesn't mean you are any less of a person. I think it might actually make you a better person because you had to juggle being pregnant and being in high school then you had to go to high school while taking care of an infant and from what I observed in school you are doing a good job at it."
"Yes it does. I'm a slut according to everyone at my old school and when it gets out that I have a daughter I don't want people to think of you differently because you hang out with a teenage mother." I say looking away from her willing back tears that threatened to fall.
"You are not a slut Bella. Don't let what anyone says get to you." I opened my mouth to say something but she held up a hand to stop me. "I am not going to argue about this with you anymore so look at the road and drive."
After that we sit in a comfortable silence for a while before she tells me to turn onto a path that is almost invisible. We drive down the path for a long time before it opens to a clearing where the Cullen's house sits. I have only been here once and that was at night so I wasn't able to see what the exterior of the house looked like and let me tell you it was beautiful. It was 3 floors light browns and tans with tons of windows there were multiple decks and balconies and a yellow Porsche 911 turbo parked in front.
"WOW." I say
"Pretty isn't it" She says getting out of the car before flashing to my side and opening the door for me. I get out and go around grabbing Liz suddenly feeling really nervous. Rose must be able to tell how nervous I am because she gives me a comforting smile before leading me to the front door. I take a deep breath before walking inside behind Rosalie. I have a blanket draped over Liz's car seat so you can't see her but when we walk in all eyes are on us and I can tell they notice the car seat in my hand because soon they are all looking between me and it.
I look at Rosalie and she gives me an encouraging nod so I walk over to the corner nearest me and set the seat down. I unbuckle Elizabeth and set her on my hip still hidden from view while I grab her pacifier from the diaper bag before standing up and walking toward Rose while Liz plays with the piece of hair that I had left hanging down.
"Everyone I would like you to meet my daughter Elizabeth May Swan." I tell them confidently. Their is a silence for a few moments before anything happens.
"YOU HAVE A DAUGHTER?" Emmett yells startling Liz and she begins to cry burying her face in my shoulder. I rub her head while humming moonlight sonata until she calms down.
"Yes I have a daughter and would you kindly do me the favor of not scaring my 4 month old." I say with annoyance in my voice. He mutters an apology before going to sit on one of the tan couches in the living room.
"Now, I know you all have questions so how about we move to the living room so I can sit down." I say walking toward one of the armchairs sitting down and waiting for them all to be seated before continuing.
"What are your questions?" They all begin to talk at once and I can't understand any of it so I hold my hand up. "One at a time please." I say and Edward goes first.
"Who is her father?" he asks
"I will get to that later but I will tell you that he doesn't know about her and if I have anything to do with it he never will." I say.
"Why wouldn't you tell him he has a daughter? He has a right to know." He says
"If I tell you my story you will probably understand so I'll just begin at the beginning." I say looking around the room. They all nod their head and I look at Elizabeth as I begin to speak.
"I was in my freshman year of high school and him and his siblings were the new kids. He has 1 older sister and a younger brother. I became great friends with him and his sister he was a year ahead of me and his sister had already graduated. I went to their house all the time. It was like this until my sophomore year when he told me he was in love with me. I didn't like him that way so I told him that and he said it was okay and that he just needed to get it off his chest. I thought we were good after that so I continued as if nothing happened but then one day when I went over to their house." I break off as a sob wracks my body and I hold Elizabeth tighter to me. "I went over to his house to see his sister but she wasn't there it was just him. I said I would just text her and I tried to leave but he wouldn't let me."
I have to stop because the sobs are too harsh to continue. Rosalie comes over, sits on the arm of the chair, and wraps her arm around my shoulders, and rubs my arm in a form of comfort. "He grabbed my wrist and pulled me back. He was too strong. I…I…I couldn't get away. He r...r...raped me that night and told me if I told anyone or didn't do as he said he would hurt me or the people I care about. I had to keep it a secret from everyone especially my best friend because he was her little brother so I stayed in my house I would hardly ever leave so they never knew I was pregnant. My family knew what had happened because I had to tell them when I found out I was pregnant. I haven't seen any of my friends from Phoenix since right before I began to show when I told them I was moving. I didn't actually move until way later but I had to tell them something so they wouldn't try to come see me. I switched to homeschooling so that i wouldn't have to go to the school and to keep the pregnancy a secret. Anyway, on October 28, Elizabeth was born and I moved here a month afterward. Then after that you all know."
There was a loud growl and I looked up to see that Emmett, Jasper, and Edward all had looks of pure rage on their face. When I looked at everyone else I could see the fury in their eyes but they were much better at controlling themselves.
I stand up and hand Liz to Rosalie before telling them I would be right back. Violent sobs were still wracking my body as I went into the bathroom shutting and locking the door behind me. I jerk my cross-over purse off and set it on the counter. I begin to frantically search through my purse for the thing that will give me sweet relief. The thing that will distracted me from the emotional and mental turmoil I am in from the memories off what happened that day. I find it and immediately run it under the water. I push up the sleeve of my flannel and put the edge of the razor blade against my arm. I swipe the razor blade over my left arm making blood well up from multiple cuts going from my wrist to the inside of my elbow. I drop the blade and sink to the floor in relief.
I don't know about the ending of this one.
Well anyways please review and let me know what you think.
Also maybe give me ideas for future chapters.
