I walked down the school corridor to my locker, putting my books away. No one will never know that I lost my virginity to Andy, no one will know that we're in love. I'm fucking sick of having to hide all my emotions. I locked my locker and walked down to Andy's locker, tapping his shoulder.
"hey" Andy smiled at me.
"Hey" I smiled back
"I'm hanging out with Darren, is that okay?" my smile instantly disappeared.
"yeah, fine" I lied.
"I love you" He said, luckily no one's around.
"I love you too baby" I bit my lip, Andy leaned in, we kissed softly before quickly breaking away.
"Bradie needs someone else to chill with anyway"
"I know" I said, Andy bit his lip then kissed my cheek, walking away. I sighed and walked the opposite way, looking around for Bradie. After looking for half of the lunch I decided to give up and just hang with Andy. He'd protect me from Darren if anything happened. I walked toward the back of the school where they hanged, I turned the corner to see a half filled bottle of vodka in Andy's hand, talking to a group of girls. I sighed and turned around to find Darren standing there. Great.
"hey beautiful" he laughed, stroking my cheek, I slapped him away and backed off, feeling grossed out by the fact he was touching me.
"aw, don't fight me off...let's give Andrew a show" he pulled me closer, I tried to pull away but he held my wrists tight, Darren smashed his lips to mine, I tried to take my lips off but it seemed to only make the kiss deeper. His lips were wet and disgusting.
"FUCKING CUNT" I heard Andy's voice, and a smash, I opened my eyes to find Andy bashing the shit out of Darren and a broken bottle of vodka on the floor, Andy pushed Darren's face into the smashed glass and punched him repetitively. I started shaking; I couldn't bare to see this. I ran away to the bathroom, hiding in a stall and sat on the floor. I felt violated and like shit. This is my entirely fault.
I went to class nervous, and sat down. An announcement went over the speaker "Shaun Diviney, to the front office immediately" I sighed, everyone's eyes fixed on me, I smiled to the teacher and stormed out, going to the front office where Andy was, he had a cut on his forehead and a bruise on his arm.
"Andy, you okay?"
"I don't know" he said, slightly slurred. I hugged him, he hugged me back.
"Shaun, I'm so sorry I made the decision to hang out with him...I'm sorry that he kissed you" I just stared into space, Andy played with my hair. "I love you so much" he whispered, I bit my lip. I saw Andy's mum walk up quickly, she looked furious. I broke away from Andy.
"Andrew, you are in so much trouble!" His mum began
"I-" I tried to speak
"Shaun, can you just leave for a moment of two." She said. I nodded and walked around the corner, eaves dropping on the conversation.
"Andy, do you realize what you are doing to your reputation. What are you doing, getting drunk and hanging out with druggos at school. I trusted you Andy, I thought you were a good person. I am so disappointed in you"
"honestly, I couldn't give a flying shit mum"
"you nearly bashed the poor boy to death!"
"He kissed Shaun!"
"You know what, I'm over this 'Shaun this' and 'Shaun that' crap. I'm over it. You've been drunk three times this week. You're a disgrace to the family Andy"
"whatever mum"
"we'll talk about this at home, alright? Now come"
"ow!" Andy said, I peaked around the corner to see them walking off. Andy's mum actually hates me. Wow.
I got home feeling like shit, an hour talk with the coordinator is not what I needed. I seriously hope Andy's okay. I pulled out my phone and texted Andy 'are you okay? Please tell me you are x'. I sighed and collapsed on my bed. I hate Darren more than anything right now, even my own life. My phone went off 'I'll be over in 5. I need to tell you something. . .' fucking great. Great. I bet you it's bad news, I bet you I'll be bashed by Darren when he gets back to school, I bet you Andy's dumping me. I fucking bet you. I felt my eyes start to sting as they glazed with tears from all the bad things I was thinking. I heard a knock at the door, I ran and opened it. Andy looked like a mess, he looked like he had cried for hours, his hair was messed up, he was holding onto the edge of his sleeves, he just didn't look...Andy.
"Andy?" I said worriedly
Andy just bursted into tears, I felt my heart ache the slightest, I wrapped my arms around him, holding him close to me.
"sh baby, what happened?"I whispered
"c-can we go to your room?" Andy asked, I nodded and smiled slightly, pulling him through to my room. Andy sat on my bed.
"Andy, what happened."
"I-I uh" Andy began, holding back his tears "I-I had a huge fight with mum a-and she's making me move with dad to Melbourne and I-I have to do a tafe course there. Mum doesn't want me anymore."
"w-what?" I said, trying not to cry. "w-what about us? What about the band? Andy, I can't...I can't lose you"
"I have no choice! I don't know anymore! I fucking lost it Shaun. I lost it" Andy pulled his sleeve up, his arm was sliced. There were at least twenty cuts or more covering his arm. I finally let the tears run, my heart full of pain was screaming on the inside.
"A-Andy...I love you too much to let you go"
"no, baby" Andy got up and placed his hand on my cheek. "d-don't let go of me" he sniffed. "I-I will never let go of you, ever."
"I can't live without you, you're the reason I breathe Andy. This isn't fair"
"w-we can call each other every day and text each other all day. We'll never be apart"
"but I won't be able to hold you, be held by you, kiss you, see you. I'll just be on the phone to you and make my heart ache more" I sobbed, we were both breaking down, Andy hugged me tight.
"I-I love you so much Shaun. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry"
"m-my whole life is gone now...n-no band, no beautiful boyfriend...I-I'm done"
"no Shaun...please, please don't begin to even say that. T-This isn't the end, it isn't"
"T-Then how will this work? You can't beg your mum to let you stay" I sniffed, crying softly into Andy's shoulder.
"nothing might work...but I won't give up on you...just please, please don't give up on me"
"It's not like I have a choice Andy, I might be dead by next month"
"Shaun, don't talk like that, please. I beg of you"
I looked into Andy's sad blue eyes. "You were the one thing keeping me alive, how can I stand to lose that?"
"we will be together again...I-I'm eighteen next year. I'll save money and be right back here to be with you, I could never let you go"
"I-I love you so much Andy" I held back my sobs, And kissed me softly, I clenched my eyes tight, letting the last tears fall as I kissed him back slowly.
"we'll make this work, I promise..." Andy whispered, holding me close. I don't know what to do with myself without him.