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I'm blind from the tears that fall like rain

So lost ever since you went away

Sometimes our lives forever change

My heart's never gonna be the same

Cause you came

And you gave me, a place

Place to live, where to play

Why you take it away?

You never know what you got till it's gone


Chapter 7

You never know what you got till it's gone

He hesitated."I'm ...I'm Doctor Smith...and I know how to bring your brother back."

Sam's heart was beating so fast that he thought it could jump from his chest. he had a horrible idea that maybe his brother had gone for good. immediately he washed the idea from his brain and promised himself that he was going to save dean, period. first thing first,he had to make sure,the thing which possessed his brother's body was even Dr smith's spirit otherwise they'll be in lot of trouble than they were right now.

Slowly,he backed away from the thing that was wearing his brother's body and stood in front of it."If you are the one that you're saying you are,then what was the last thing that you said to me?"

The thing raised dean's eyebrows."what?...now it's not the best time for twenty questions games...we don't have much time...we have to get the hell of here before someone comeback and see your brother's dead body talking and walking."

"We're getting out of here as soon as you answer me."It's time to talk turkey and quit messing around.

The thing sighed."I can't recall the exact words,but it was about dean's last surgery and our big mistake during it...you were so angry and wanted him to be discharge right away."it smiled."then I used my mojo spell on you and finally you agreed to keep him for the overnight...now did I passed the test?"

"Not quietly."sam brought a flask from his pocket and gave it to it."Drink it."

The thing grinned."thanks,but I think I'm fine...well actually I'm far from being fine with all dead thing going on..."

Sam clenched his jaw."just drink it,I have to make sure you're not demon either."

It snored."demon?...I still can't believe how cool you take the whole ghostly situation and now you're talking about the demons?"when sam didn't answer it and continued to stare blankly on him, it gave it up and drink some of the holly water."Satisfied?"

"For now."Sam take back the flask and put it back in its place."so tell me how can you save dean?"

He rolled his eyes."I thought we were done with the whole twenty questions games...Sam, the more times you're wasting, the better a chance he'll not recover from all of this."

He frowned."he's still in there?"he said with hope."dean's alive?"say yes,say yes,say yes...

"Barely."he shakes his head."the poison had been given to him,It doesn't kill its victim straightaway...It just slow the heart beat and breathing in a way that even medical monitoring devices can't detect that...I haven't seen something like this before so I Think, it was made by her and she should has a antidote."

sam raised his eyebrow."You think?!"

He gave him a sad smile."well,I hope...I mean, she's not an idiot...she knows well that she has to make herself an insurance when the shit hits the fan."

Sam nodded."Alright,let's just hope she's not a complete idiot."he hesitated for a sec then he asked."how long do we have before...um..before.."

"His heart stop?... not long that means we have to go now."

"Okay...but you're going to tell me everything on the way Dr smith."

He smiled."fine by me...and please call me jack."


The trip to the Dr ford's house was not a silent trip. sam was like a dog with a bone,always asking question and demanding for answer and luckily Dr smith's spirit was patience enough to answer every one of them.

"So you and her were in love?"sam was driving while staring on the road and in the meantime there was Dr smith's spirit with his brother body that was siting in the passenger seat of the impala. sam couldn't bring himself to look at dean's face,It was like everytime that he looked at him,a fire will put in his heart.

he sighed."I was before she killed me."

Sam frowned."Why did she kill you?"

He flew off the handle."cause I was an idiot..I trused him and she betrayed me."he tried to control his anger and sighed."I was in my office and was checking your brother's test result when I came to the strange thing..some of numbers weren't right...it was like someone was giving him a wrong medicine. like I said before,sometimes she handled some of my prescriptions so I thought she had a reason for this...I paged her to my office and I think that was the stupidest thing that I've ever done in my life...

Three days ago- Dr smith's office

Dr ford opened the room."what is it jack?I have less than fifteen minuses before the surgery,so you better make it quick."

Jack didn't say anything, just raised from his seat and gave her test result which she got the papers reluctantly."what is it?you need a console or something?"

Jack pointed a finger at the papers."just look at it,Tara.."

Tara grinned widely and touched right side of his face."oh my handsome man...this isn't about a test result,isn't it?...somebody needs a hug.."she closed her face to him and whispered."or a kiss.."?."

She was about to kiss him when jack backed away which put a sad face on her face."what is it, jack?...don't you want me anymore?"

Jack held his hands to stop him from talking more."stop...stop playing around...I trusted you to take control of everything and now this is how you give to me ?with giving patient the wrong medicine which could be leads to the horrible consequences."

She looked surprised and offended."you are impossible.."she raised his eyebrows and pointed her finger at herself."you think I can do something horrible to someone...that I am a killer.."she shakes her head and tears started to gather in her eyes."I can't believe you're saying this to me.."

Jack felt bad for her, he wasn't hundred percent sure that she did this but he couldn't help himself to not get angry so he turned away from her and looked at the ground."Tara..I.."he shakes his head."I want to be honest with me...I..."he couldn't bring himself to say another word.

"I know what you're thinking."Tara whispered as she was taking a step toward him."that maybe...just maybe...I have a cold heart in my chest...but you have to know it's a shame...when you're pointing your finger on someone else."

"What?"jack was about to turn around when he felt something like pinch in his neck and her whispering in his ear."The blame is on you too."and then everything went black."

Present

Jack sighed."I don't know how she manged to move my body or where she put it...I just know I wake up out of my body and some angle chick wanted to send me to lala-land."

"Reapers."sam corrected."so you didn't go with it because you had some unfinished bushiness...like saving dean."that was a statement.

"She said their blood on my hands too...I couldn't let her to kill anybody else and I couldn't stop her from killing dean either."

"Dean is not dead."sam cut him out.

Jack smiled."you guys were pretty close, isn't it?

Sam thought about a near time when they actually were pretty close with each other and couldn't recall it. what a shame...ever since dean had brought back from hell,all they did was hurting each other or all he did was hurting his brother,his mentor,the one had gone to hell for him,the one that sacrificed his life for him."we were...but I let him down."

Jack looked at him."hey,the blame is not on you..you couldn't guess she could do something like this to your brother...If anybody should take a blame on itself is me."

Sam shakes his head."no,you don't understand,you don't know our lives...this is not the first time that I let him down."he sighed."a while ago something hurt him pretty bad..were ripped to the shreds by the hell hounds..I didn't think that I could see him again and when I did...I never thought that I was so going to cut up with my revenge that I'm going to forget about him.."he swallowed the bile in his throat."well,I guess you never know what you got..."

"Till It's gone."he completed it for him."yeah,I know the feeling...but sam, dean hasn't gone yet...he's hanging in there for you...and you should do the same thing."

Sam gave him a sad smile and after a sec raised his eyebrow."What kind of doctor you are,again?"

Jack chuckled."a dead one,I guess."he frowned when he saw where he was."Sam,we're here."

Sam parked the impala in the back yard of Dr ford's house and then killed the engine."Are you ready for this?"

He nodded."I was ready since I died."

Less than two minute,they were in the house with gun blazing, determined to find her but in the end they found none. sam felt like his blood could boil any seconds,he angrily put his gun on the desk and shakes his head."that bitch..she knew,we will come after her here."

Jack sighed."I'm sorry sam..like I said before, she's not an idiot..that was a fair chance that we find her in her house.." he put a hand on sam's shoulder."but don't worry,I know another place that she has..hopefully she will be in there."

Sam nodded and put his gun in his pocket."alright,let's go now."she better be there tonight or I'm going to burn the world only to find her..

"Not so fast, gentleman..."They just had enough time to turn around to see her holding a gun pointed at them.

"Tara.."jack whispered.

Her eyes were hateful and so far away."No one can take my money from me."she screamed."Dean Winchester has to die."

and then she fired.


Sorry guys..I can't help myself...coming up more hurt dean at the next chapter...