James felt so special wrapped in kendalls arms. That's all he wanted well other things too but let's just keep that a secret until knedall was ready. But he was also thinking now that he has kendall and he knows that kendall over him no matter what he doesn't need to be a girl anymore. The only reason he did it was so he can get kendall because he thought he was straight. There is no need to be a girl anymore. He didn't want to think about this situation now though. All he wanted to focus on is how kendall is so close to him and the sweet smell of him lingering in james nose. God did this boy smell good everything about kendall is perfection. He couldn't find one thing wrong with him. the way he flips his hair when its blowing in the wind his skin so silky smooth like a babies his body how it's not fat and not too skinny like a twig it's the right size for me and its muscular and his eyes god blessed him with the most gorgeous emerald green eyes that shined brighter than the sun they are just addicting I catch myself staring into his eyes a lot. Thinking of him didn't help me at all because now I have to leave this beautiful boy to go take a cold shower before he wakes up because something is poking him. James got up nice and slow and out of kendall grasp and rolled off the bed. James regretted leaving kendall's side feeling cold without his warmth radiating on to him. He literally had goose bumps from the slight breeze that flowed through room. James took one more glance at the sleeping beauty grabbed a pair of sweat pants and a fitted shirt to show off my body as a girl. He left the room and entered the bathroom that was connected to the room to his master bedroom. James decided not to take a hour shower because he wanted to get back to kendall. He turned the handles of the shower until it was the right temperature which was hot but not steaming hot. He liked how the water felt flowing down his body. James knew this was supposed to be a cold shower but he would just have to take of his problem with jo-hanna. He laughed a little because he was thinking about who decided to say to replace yo hand with jo-hanna. Maybe when he needed to release he didn't like the sound of telling people he used is hand so he said jo-hanna. James was suddenly interrupted by a hand touching the back of his neck and sliding down his back. James knew who it was but it still startled him. He wasn't expecting to see kendall in the shower with him. He didn't even hear him open the door or get undressed. He had no complaints though. Kendall pushed james against the shower wall pinning james hands above his head and started kissing his neck. James couldn't help but to moan a quiet moan. Kendall was not pleased with how low the moan was so he bit down on james neck and got the moan he wanted. He let go smiling because he knew that was going to leave a nice dark hickey for everyone to see who james belonged to. Kendall felt james hard on rub against his leg and it only made if stiff as a brick. He let go of james hand and grabbed on james member and gave it a light squeeze teasing james. Ahhh kendall harder james moaned. Kendall wasn't done teasing so he squeezed it again and said you like that baby. James begged him now and kendall thought it was so hot so he gave in and started stroking james hard and fast. James practically melted from kendall touch and screamed his name ever so often. Kendall couldn't take it anymore he let go of james other hand and started touching himself in the same speed as james. It no time they both came all over kendall hand both panting and needing air that escaped them during their orgasm. When they finally managed to catch their breaths they cleaned each other so they were cleaned for the day. Kendall turned the water off and just thought of their little moment they just had a few minutes ago. When they were all dressed they went back into james room and laid down face towards the ceiling just enjoying each other's company. James broke the silence and told kendall that he had to admit something to him. Kendall turned his head said ok and waited for james to speak. James was a bit nervous because maybe Kendall liked him because he looked like a girl but took his chances any way. I was thinking that I wanted to be a boy again. It was kind of fun being a girl but now that I have you I don't have to be a girl anymore if that was okay with you. I hope you don't mind being with me as a boy. Kendall turned his head to james and reached his hand over and made james look at him which james did with no problem because that meant he got to see his eyes that made him smile whenever he seen them. I will love you no matter what you are I told you that. Kendall then looked back at the ceiling said plus I was wondering when he was going to change his mind to be a boy again. James quirked his head and couldn't believe what kendall just said. So if I wanted to stay a girl you wouldn't like me as much if I was a boy james half screamed. Kendall flinched at the sudden change of mood. No that's not what I meant why are you making me look like a bad guy I was only trying to I think. James really got upset that kendall thought he was making him look like a bad guy kendall was doing great with that all by himself. You know what kendall just get out I can't believe I actually thought you loved me. I believe all that stupid bullshit you told me how stupid was I to think you could love me. Kendall had no idea where this outburst came from he was only trying to tell james that he loved him originally that he didn't need to change for him but james gave him no chance to explain. Kendall needed to leave before he lost it. James just admitted that he thought kendall didn't like him which was a totally not true kendall more than liked james he loved him. Kendall huffed and walked out of james apartment and stomped all the way to his. When he reached it he opened door and slammed it shut then entered his room and slammed that one shut as well. Kendall was so made and hurt by what james said that he had tears rolling down his cheeks. Kendall planned on staying in his room and not be bothered only coming out for dinner but of course that wasn't going to happen because logan came to the door and asked if he was all right. Kendall didn't feel like talking so he just told him that he was not for talking and he will talk to him later though. Logan nodded his head in understanding shut the door back and went to the living room to wait until his friend was ready to talk. Kendall sat there thinking maybe he was a little harsh to james but james wasn't giving him a chance to explain himself. That didn't stop kendall from feeling bad for him he had to go apologize before he lost his best friend and lover and try to explain himself. He got out of the bed and ran out of his apartment headed for james door.
James apartment
It had been two whole long agonizing hours since kendall left and james had been crying the whole time. He didn't want to believe that kendall was like that and thought kendall would only be with him If he was a boy. He thought back that he really didn't give him a chance to speak he yelled and then told him to leave. He had to go try and make it up to kendall and find out what he meant by his statement earlier. He got out of bed and ran out the door. When james and kendall realized that they both were in the hall standing opposite each other they were both surprised at how the other looked. Kendall noticed james eyes were blood shot red from crying the whole time hair going in every direction. James noticed kendall had been crying also because kendall eyes were puffy and his cheeks had tear stains on them. They just stood there silent and looked at each other right in one another's eyes trying to find out what the other was thinking.
