Jacob John Black was a sixteen year old boy who smelled of earth and was definitely one of the most muscular people in our class. He wasn't an athlete and didn't even went to gym, but from what I've heard from Alice, he was definitely a fast runner. She said that he would get up every morning to jog for hours and when he'd get back, he wouldn't even look tired. He was tan and a bit mysterious, like Edward ... well, except for the whole 'cold and cruel to humans' thing. He was actually quite nice and warms up to people he doesn't even know, but unfortunately, Edward wasn't a fan of him like I was.
I smiled unvoluntarily as my cellphone's screen lit up again. Jacob and I had been texting for the last fifteen minutes about our essay. We were gonna do it in a few minutes, though I doubt if Edward would come. He was currently sitting at the edge of my bed while I sat beside my study table, studying. After that incident that happened between us, he became ... distant. He wouldn't open up to me, and when I asked him something, he would usually answer with a 'yes' or 'no'.
"Are you sure you're not coming?"I turned to see his expression. It was blank and unreadable.
"I think I'll pass."He answered curtly. I nodded and sat up and headed for the bathroom to change.
I dressed in a v-neck white shirt, blue jeans and my black sneakers. I powdered my face before looking at the mirror one more time. When I was presentable enough, I went out to see Edward playing with the car keys with his thumb, still wearing that blank expression he had earlier.
"I'll drive you there."He said. I complied and went downstairs.
Sooo... Have you guys seen BD part II? If no, then you better! It was really awesome ... Except for the part were Emmett dies:(
I'm kidding by the way.
He opened the car door for me and went to his seat. The car purred to life as he started the engine and drove silently to the school. The trees were such a blurr that they looked like abstracts from an oil painting. There was nothing but the smooth sound of the engine that I could hear. Edward gripped the steering wheel so hard that I thought it might break. I could tell that he wanted to tell me something, but bit his lower lip instead. I too, wanted to speak to him. I opened my mouth, but shut it reluctantly. I tried again and again but couldn't force the words out. Finally, after about five minutes of doing this, I finally found the courage to speak.
"It's a ... great weather we're having today, huh?"I spoke like an idiot. I wanted to facepalm myself so bad right now.
He didn't respond, but kept his eyes on the road. I blushed in embarrassment.
Oh God, why?
I didn't say another word after that, afraid that he'd ignore me again. Instead, I tried to focus my attention on the blurring trees. I tried to count all of them, but we were going too fast that I couldn't actually 'see' any tree. All I saw were green and brown abstracts. After a few minutes of looking like a child leaning on the window while counting trees, I heard Edward clearing his throat. He sighed deeply before speaking up.
"...Look, Bella—"He said, while still keeping his eyes on the road."I know things have been ... difficult for us lately, I know that I should learn to respect you and all, because you literally own me ... but I can't help it. This is who I am. You can't expect me to change who I've been for more than a hundred years in mere seconds... I can act, but not when I'm angry. Look, what I'm trying to say is ... that, I ... you can't ..."He stammered and sighed in frustration. He pinched the bridge of his nose with his right hand and closed his eyes for a minute.
I stayed silent, hoping to give him some time to continue what he said. I was a bit stunned at what he had said to me. He was only acting nice? I was such a fool to actually think that he's changed. For me. Just when I thought that someone actually cared ...
"You don't ... care about me?"I whispered lowly and unvoluntarily. He looked at me with a surprised expression on his face, but didn't say anything else for seconds.
"I do ... but ... I think it's only because of the fact that you're my master."
Ouch.
His words hurt like a thousand knives piercing my skin. I didn't move or breathe. I could hear low sobs from my own chest. I averted my eyes away from him and stared outside. I felt tears running down my cheeks and realized that I have been crying. I covered my mouth with my hand, hoping to stop my sobs and that he wouldn't hear any of it.
I stayed like that for what felt like hours, but I knew that it was just a few minutes. Time seemed to stop and the tension grew even wider. I shielded my eyes with my hands, hoping he wouldn't see. I hated to cry infront of people. I felt weak and helpless. My nose was red and tears continued to fall down. I wanted to stop. So badly, but it felt like my body wasn't responding to my commands.
I dared to remove my hand from my face and look at his expression, but when I did, his back was turned to me and his head hung hopelessly. He sighed, defeated, and faced me.
"Look... I didn't...I—"He closed his eyes and ran a hand through his hair before continuing"...I just think that what we have is just a mere master and slave relationship. Nothing more. I care only because my whole being lies in your hands. I... I hate pretending Bells, but its the truth. I can't bring myself to care about a ... human."He spoke softly, but the way he said human just now, it was as if it was the plague.
I didn't move a muscle, but kept looking at him. I couldn't read his face, nor could I determine what mine looked like. He didn't say another word and kept his eyes on the road. I didn't know what suddenly got into me but I broke the silence.
"Is this about Jacob?"
He spun his head and looked at me like he was being accused of murder.
"Excuse me?"
"Is this about Jacob? Are you mad because of him?"His face tensed and I heard a low bluff.
"Seriously Bella? You think I'm jealous?"Mockery was written all over his face and I his eyes were filled with humor. I didn't like it one bit because he reminded me of James.
"Why would I even be jealous of that mutt? He's nothing."He said coldly.
"He's a nobody Bella, no wonder no one wants hi—"
"Don't you dare say that about Jacob!"I sneered.
I shut my mouth up. I didn't know why but I felt protective of Jacob. Edward has no right to talk about him like this, he was a thousand times better than him.
"It's true."He said simply."That low life's nothing special Bells."
"And you are?"I eyed him.
"I didn't say that I was."
His voice still sounded cold as he parked near the building Jake and I were supposed to meet, but I wasn't about to give up on the fight. There was something about Jacob that Edward hated, I didn't know what, but I'm definitely gonna find out.
