The break room wasn't as messy as I thought, I wiped down the counter threw away three things and came back.
"Thank, Clara." Remina's voice flows through the hall, Clara must be the girl she left Wes for, Clara, my mind wanders.
"There wasn't much of a mess I'm done." I say as I come into view, then it hits me. This Clara was my Clara... Or was she.
"Clara?" I ask, I can sense her panic.
Clara releases Remina turning around to face me, I felt my heart drop,
"Zara." She says her voice is so shaky, I remember the time when she said the name with love, now, she's scared.
My jaw drops, she's changed so much, last time I seen her: she had short spikey red hair, a piercing, ripped jeans, plain tees and vests. Now, she's so different: a skirt, her natural brown hair, it's a lot longer, more makeup than she use to wear, a crop top and heels. She hated heels, she was all about high tops.
"You, look so different." I say
"You... Haven't changed much." She says glancing at me head to toe, "you dyed your hair green, it looks nice." She says
"Wait you two know each other?" Remina asks confused.
"We dated about two years back." I shrug
"For how long?" She asks
"Not long- Three and a half years." Clara and I say at the same time, Clara glares at me, I felt a pang in my chest, even if we're not together she still hurts me.
"Um, can we talk?" I ask
"Who?" Asks Wes
"Clara." I say looking at her dead in the eyes. She glances at Remina, Remina shrugs.
"I got to talk to Wes anyway." She says, I can see Wes's body emotion change. Clara reluctantly walked with me in the break room, we sat at a table face to face.
"This is awkward." She mumbles.
"Is Remina the one you left me for?" I ask
"No, actually there wasn't anyone at the moment I ran into Remina about a year later. " she says
"So you lied to me?" I ask heart broken
"Not entirely, I've been wanting to leave you for a while." She says
"After I wanted to propose to you for months! What did I do wrong?" I ask
"I... I just wanted a new lifestyle and move on." She says picking on her nails.
"You couldn't talk to me about it?" I ask her.
"I wanted to but when I found the ring I panicked." She says
"So you lied your way out of it!" I feel so insulted.
"Look, I didn't want to be with you anymore, I wanted a new life, I flushed the ring, simple as that there's nothing left to say." She shrugs, rising from the table.
"Simple as that! Simple. As. That! No it's not simple as that, you broke my heart and tossed me to the side like I was a fling! I loved you for three straight years, you where always in my mind, I picture a future with you, I bought a ring that costed a fortune for you! I nearly fell into a depression because of you, for fucks sake Clara you where the only thing I wanted!" I am on the brink of tears. I slam my hand on the table.
"You really haven't changed a bit, you still cry for everything, I saw a video of yours the other day, I hated it. I grew sick of you, if you didn't notice the videos you had me in show as time goes by I slowly lost interest in you. I thought you where exciting, fun, not so whiny and obnoxious." She scoffs
"Then why did you stay with me so long?" I ask, holding back tears is starting to be a challenge.
"You had a tongue like no other, I only liked that mouth of yours a third of the time." She says taking a cup of water.
"How could you!" I stomp my foot on the ground.
"Stop making this a big deal, Zara, because news flash it's not." She gets in my face. My hand rises to her face smacking her hard.
"It's not a big deal! I guess that wasn't a big deal either, bitch." I hiss at her.
"Zara, what the hell is wrong with you?" She asks insulted
"What's wrong with me?" I take a step arching a brow, anger slips from my mouth.
"I haven't seen you for a couple years, you left me heart broken with no explanation what so ever! Then when I see you, you act like its no big deal, it's not like I loved you or anything!" My sarcasm is strong.
"All I did was love you, and got you what you wanted, the reason you stayed with me is because I slept with you! You're such a bitch!" I cry
"I'm a bitch! Excuse me for being honest! Oh by the way I ran into your ex boyfriend he agreed with me, he said the exact same things as me." She says
"You saw Logan?" I ask
"Yes, he said you're a boring, stupid, whiny ass little bitch!" She says grabbing my hair.
I swing up my arms up shoving her face away. She punches me, I spit in her face, she shoves me to the ground her knees on my chest slamming my head to the ground. I flip us around punching her face several times, she yanks at my hair making me groan. She screams as I elbow her stomach. Footsteps rush into the room, she punches me again. I fall back, I rush forward trying to get back at her, someone grabs me holding me away.
"I've done nothing but love you!" I scream, blood splatters from my lips.
"Well I don't!" She screams back
"Fuck you!" I scream at her, Remina slides before Clara can attack me again. I look up noticing Wes was holding me.
"Get her away from me, please." I cry
"Like I said, a whiny bitch!" She shouts, I try breaking out of Wes's arms, it wasn't working.
"Wes, let me go!" I scream
"Zara,no." I hear Mari she crouches before me.
"I think we should go." Says Remina taking Clara with her.
"Oh and Wes." Remina stops in her tracks.
"I'm not done talking to you." She says, that was the last thing we heard before she left. I fall back in Wes's arms. He sits down holding me, I close my eyes leaning on him.
"Zara,Zara?" I hear Matt's worried tone.
"Sshh." I silence him
"Joven, get me that napkin." Mari says I hear footsteps and things being handed over. I feel so tired, Mari wipes my lips, most likely it's the blood on my lips.
"Can someone take her home?" Asks Mari
"Home?" Asks Matt
"I think she deserves to go home after all this." She says
"I get your point, but no one knows where she lives." He points out.
"I do." Joshua says
"Really?" Mari asks
"Yea," he says," I drove her home before.
"I'm going with." Wes says
"You are?" Asks Mari
"Yes." He says
"In that case me to." Mari says
"Alright, see you guys later." Says Matt, I felt Wes lift me, i watch Mari go get my stuff. Wes and Joshua sat in the front my head rested on Mari's lap in the car. They got me home, I walked this time with Wes just inches away from me. I fell onto my couch tired as hell. Mari sat across from me on the other chair, Joshua was sitting with her. Wes sat on the floor beside me.
"Wes, I'm not handicap." I remind him.
"I know, I just feel like it's my fault that this happened."he says looking down at his lap.
"It's not Wes, don't beat yourself up about it." I reach for him, he takes my hand.
"If it wasn't for Remina to show up at work, you would've never found Clara." He admits.
"Well, then I wouldn't gone on thinking she was cheating on me. But the truth is, she grew sick of me, apparently I was a waste of her time." I answer him, I was a waste of her time. That killed me inside, what could I have done wrong? I thought I did everything right.
"Umm, Zara, where's the bathroom?" Asks Joshua
"Down there." I point out to hall.
"Is it ok if I get something to snack on from the kitchen?" Asks Mari
"Knock yourself out." I shrug, they left me alone with Wes. I got off the couch joining him on the floor, he was watching some tv show, I kept staring at the drawer in front of me.
Tears streamed down my face, I grabbed every picture I had of us, I shoved the frames and loose images of us looking happy into a drawer in the living room. It pained me too much to destroy them.
"Hey, you ok?" Wes asks me
"Y-yea, I'm good." I cover my face making sure I wasn't crying.
"Wes! I need help!" Mari calls, he leaves the room. My body takes over my brain and I reach for the drawer, I pull hard, so hard it lands on the floor spilling the images. My hands run over the many images, I grab some staring, I stare at the old Clara who I thought was the one. I felt tears coming down my face, my body slumps against the glass table top, my fists start to hit the table, my hand starts hitting the table harder with each punch. Eventually, my fists break the glass shattering it, I let out a scream, not of physical pain, not a whining scream, a scream of anger, of emotional pain, she hurt me, she hurt me. She. Hurt. Me. I keep breaking the glass, my fingers are starting to hurt, I don't care, this pain is nothing compared to what Clara has caused.
"Zara!" Mari calls, someone's body comes into contact with mine. It's Wes, he holds me down, the glass still in my hands.
"Give me the glass." He says
"No." I cry
"Give. Me. The glass. " he growls, I don't, he fights me for it, he is on top of me fighting me to take the glass. I eventually give up, he wins our little fight. He gets off of me, he hands Mari the pieces of glass and Joshua helps me back up to my feet. I stare at my hands, I see the blood dripping onto the pictures.
"We where so happy." I whisper.
"What did I do wrong?" I look up at Mari and Wes.
"Zara, you did nothing wrong." Mari comes close to me hugging me.
"If anything, it's her fault for making you cry." Mari assures me.
"I can't believe she did this." My tears fall on Mari's back. She holds me tightly.
"Thank you guys for being there for my crazy ass, even if you don't really know me."
"Well, how else will we get to know you?" Asks Mari
"Good point." I give it to Mari. Eventually Joshua and Mari took a cab back to the studio to get their cars. Wes didn't leave me, he stayed at my house for the night.
"Here, you can have this blanket and pillow to sleep here." I hand him the sheets and pillow.
"Thanks." He says taking it from my hands.
"If you hear crying, don't come." I wipe my eyes with my scarred hands.
"Are you sure?" He asks concerned.
"Yea." I assure him
"Goodnight." He says
"Night." I nod going to bed. I lie there covering my face with a pillow, I let out my remaining tears. I eventually fall asleep. In the morning, my bed felt warmer than it normally does. I open my eyes catching sight of a certain someone lying beside me.
"Ahh!" I rolled off my bed hitting the back of my head. He didn't budge, I didn't mind, that was actually really embarrassing, I didn't want him to see it. I managed to get up and I grabbed an fresh set of clothes to change in the bathroom. I undressed myself, I stared at my hands for a second then my face, I had a black eyes that had numbed out and a busted lip. I threw on a new shirt by then, at last I changed my pants. I came out to see Wes still sleeping. Rolling my eyes, I snatch the pillow he had underneath him, nothing, I whip the pillow hitting him in the face. He moved a little, I smacked him harder on the chest, his eyes slightly open. I begin pelting at him with the pillow, playfully and rapidly.
"Oww!" He rolls over on the bed trying to avoid me. I jump onto the bed propping my knees onto the mattress continuing to hit him.
"Gahhhh!" He rolls over again a loud Thud lets me know he fell off the bed, I fall onto the bed laughing
"Are..." I gasp, "are you- oh my god." I laugh, "are you ok?" I ask smiling. I get no reply.
"Wes?" I ask again crawling to the other end of the bed.
"Rahhh!" He screams leaping back onto the bed, I try crawling back away from him, he grabs my arms lifting me back up flipping me on my back.
"Got you." He says triumphantly
"Not for long." I fight with him, I press myself up against him, he hangs off the bed with me over him.
"Aren't you getting lightheaded?" I ask
"No," he lies, I arch a brow at him not believing him, "ok a little, are you?"
"Nah." I say.
"This hurts." He says, "I'm good." I shrug
"Oh ok." He lifts his leg that my body was on, "Wes what are you doing?" I ask.
I get no reply, he flips me over his leg, I try slowing down the fall by doing a back bend, I managed to get my feet on the ground but I end up lying on the floor. Wes is on his feet from what I can see.
"Hey, asshole help me up." I demand
"Fine." He says pulling me upward.
"Dude, we got work." I say catching the time on the clock, 7:56 am.
"You're right." He says
"Leggo!" I grab his wrist dragging him out the door.
"We didn't eat!" He says
"We'll eat along the way." I wave it off walking with him.
"Alright." He says
"Let's go." I hiss at him slowly walking down the stairs, I'm already in my car.
"WESLEY!" I say angrily
"I haven't had coffee yet." He whines taking shot gun.
"When you do I'm throwing it in your face to wake you up."
"Wow, you are really cranky before breakfast aren't you?" He asks
"I want foooooooodddd!" I exaggerate my words slamming my hands on the wheel.
"Shhh." He silences me, I whip out my arm whacking his hand off my head.
"Ok, ok, I get it." He says clinging on to his arm. I wanted to laugh but I figured it was inappropriate. At last we got food, I immediately felt better once I ate, we ate in a matter of seconds.
"Never in my life have I met someone that can eat as much as I can." Wes says wiping his face.
"Nor have I." I giggle making a turn.
My phone buzzed with a tweet, I glance down at the stop. " GreenhairZara: Zara have you heard #DragMeDown by OneDirection yet? "
"What!" I nearly screamed, my fingers fumbled on my way to spotify searching for the song. Finding it, I connect to my cars Stereo, I hit the little thing on the screen to repeat the song. Suddenly the voice of Harry Styles fills my car.
"I got a fire for a heart I'm not scared of the dark you never seen it look so easy I got a river for a soul baby you're the gold baby you're my only reason." I nearly screamed when I heard Louis.
"Baby without you there'd be nothing left a shell of a man at best if I didn't have you I wouldn't see the sun you taught me how to be someone yea!" I was smiling like an idiot. Then Liam came up.
"All my life you stood by me when no one else was behind me all these lights they can't blind me." Squealing like a six year old, I began hitting the wheel. "With your love no body can drag me down." I began having a jam session in the car. I take my hands off the wheel waving my hands in the air dancing.
"Hey, hey Hands. On wheel!" Wes takes my arms forcing them back on the wheel.
"ALL MY LIFE YOU STOOD BY ME WHEN NO ONE ELSE WAS BEHIND ME!" I sing I keep playing the song until we get to work. Getting out the car I hear Wes mumbling it.
"Aha! You're singing it!" I jump at him.
"Only cuz that's the only song you played today." He bites back, I pull out answering to the fan.
" Zara: GreenhairZara how have I not?" I have the song stuck in my head the entire day.
"Hey Zara, guess what, you're going to be officially initiated into Smosh Games." Says Matt excitedly
"And, you'll be going through different things for the week." Says Joshua.
"Oh no, that doesn't sound good, especially coming from you." I cringe
"This is going to be great." Giggles Mari.
