You will never understand the pain
Chapter seven: Our past part.2
Second part of their past…And if we're lucky I may update the other chapter with some Bakura POV. And then you'll get some yaoi! :) Finally xD
It was now ten minutes left until Ryou was going on stage. He signed deeply and the vision of the sick and hurt Bakura after the incident with his mother popped up in his mind…
Past time:
It was three months ago since Ryou's mother got killed. The boy couldn't make himself forgive, or trust the man in those past months. Now, he thought that it was up to him to make things work again…After all, he still loved him.
The white door to Bakura's room in the hospital opened, and a thin human with long, white hair was ripping apart flowers from a plant. He stared at a empty spot beside him and seemed to be talking quietly to someone.
"'Ku-Kura?" Ryou stepped closer carefully. Dark brown eyes catched his huge orbs, Bakura was stunned.
"Oh…Ryou. Hello…" A slight bit of happiness showed in Bakura's face before he looked down again. Mumbling something.
After a long and embarrasing silence…Bakura finally spoke:
"I didn't kill her…I didn't do it." The his gaze met with Ryou's again.
It took just a simple stare like that, to make Ryou trust Bakura. So he just nodded simply and sat down beside the older male.
"How…are you doing?" he asked carefully. Bakura chuckled and replied:
"Fine..as you can see. They fucking treat me like a psycho…And I can't do a shit, they won't let me talk, or listen to music…I can't even go out by myself. I wanna be free again Ry…"
Bakura's eyes showed desire, and loneliness…Ryou couldn't do anything else except hugging him softly, whispering 'I'm sorry' again and again.
The man closed his eyes, and mumbled in Ryou's chest:
"I've missed you baby…"
"I know…I missed you too…so much. Let's go home now. " Ryou sniffed lovely and rubbed his tearfilled eyes gently.
Bakura raised a brow: "How? They will never let me go in this condition…Ryou.." He grabbed the boy's cheek gently. "Don't you understand? I'm sick, I've schitzofrenia…I've at least two different personalities…and the doc's said that I may get worse and starting to imagine things…I may hurt you, Ryou! I can't be with you anymore."
Ryou just stared at Bakura.
"But you could at least try to cure it…For me?" He begged.
Bakura was quiet for a time, and then he nodded slowly.
After half a year, he was fit enough to leave the hospital, they moved to a new city and started a new life together. And as long as Bakura took his medicines, his sickness didn't harmed anyone anymore.
One day…everything changed. It was quite a time now since they slept together. And Ryou started to get worry. He stroked Bakura's neck softly before licking it, moaning the male's name at the same time…Ryou knew that this aroused Bakura.
But the older one responsed differently… He pushed Ryou away gently, and gave him a sorry look. Ryou was confused by this situation, so he just waited with patience, for the anwser.
"I..I've started with this new medicine." Ryou nodded, waiting for him to continue.
"Well…It makes me…it…irrisistates me against….sexual..things…I mean…" Ryou's kitten-like eyes stared at Bakura, widely.
"You mean, that this new medication makes you…impotence?"
Bakura nodded. And the boy just didn't wanted to believe this.
After that, Ryou stopped trying to make closer moves to Bakura. It was hurting them both so badly, that they couldn't prove their love to each other in a physical way. So Bakura started to li to Ryou. He said to him, that he was getting better, so he didn't needed that new medicine anymore.
And as naïve as Ryou was, he believed him.
So everything went great, until the other Bakura made entrance in their perfect life.
Ryou noticed that his boyfrined started to act more and more aggressive, it leaded to arguments, fights and then, the hittings began.
Ryou wasn't stupid, he knew by that time that Bakura wasn't fit, he was still sick. But no matter how hard he tried to make the man take medication again, it didn't work.
So day after day, he was beated by his own boyfriend.
Until the day he escaped the endless nightmare.
End of the past.
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