After hours I woke up lying on an old camp bed I blinked now and then trying to focus to the light a few minutes later I realized I was in a closed room I jumped up panicking a hand pushed me back.

DEAN: '' No need to panic you're safe'' he said almost whispering his face was sad.

I tried to swallow while I was regaining my breath. Silence filled the room. He was staring at me now and again trying to read my face I was nothing more than afraid and worried. Worried for his condition he was broken.

ME: '' How are you?'' I asked even though I knew the answer I didn't want to ask for Sammy right away. It took him a while to respond.

DEAN: '' I'm an asshole.'' He replied looking at me while tears start falling from his eyes.

I shook my head trying to find any word to say but I was empty he came closer.

DEAN: '' Don't try to justify me, I shouldn't talk to you like that for any reason and especially after what he did.'' He continued.

ME: '' What happened with Sam?'' I asked placing my hand on his shoulder, he lowered his head.

DEAN: '' I doubt it's Sam. He's losing Selene'' he answered

ME: '' He's losing what?'' I said my voice was breaking.

DEAN:'' The fight inside him. The fight between good and evil. He's falling''

He replied finally looking at me. I was almost welling up.

I placed my hand softly on his and caress his hair he looked deeply in my eyes and I felt like I would faint again.

His lips touched mine, softly he pushed me back and I could feel his breath in my mouth.

DEAN: ''I'm sorry I was mean to you. Please forgive me'' he whispered licking my ear at the same time.

ME: ''There's nothing to forgive. Please don't stop'' I begged him as I was ripping his shirt off.

Things really heated off and before I knew clothes had been ripped off. He was kissing every naked flesh he could find and I let him take control of my body.

Later that day Castiel appeared. Dean placed his body before me trying to protect me. Cass was confused.

ME: '' What's wrong Cass?'' I asked he stepped forward

CASTIEL: ''I'm not going to hurt her Dean'' he reassured him he still wouldn't leave my side.

DEAN: '' You know from my experience Angels are not that solvent'' he replied. I stepped forward anyway.

CASTIEL: '' Where is Sam, Dean?'' he asked then

Dean was frozen for a moment lowering his head sadly.

DEAN: '' What makes you think I know?'' he said grabbing a beer from the fridge.

CASTIEL: '' I don't know. The fact that he's your brother perhaps..?'' he answered

ME: '' Cass, give him sometime he's hurted'' I said.

DEAN: '' I'm not hurted, I just don't give a damn to where he is'' he yelled

Me and Cass looked each other worried. He was hurting me the way he acted.

CASTIEL: '' We don't have much time Dean, there's a bigger picture here you have to tell me where Sam is..'' he insisted, Dean looked at me there was pain in his eyes.

DEAN: '' A few hours ago I found him at a motel here in Dakota'' he informed Cass.

CASTIEL: ''What happened there?'' he asked.

DEAN: '' We, we fought and I told him not to come back again and I let him go'' he answered I noticed a tiny tear making its appearance but he heed it well.

CASTIEL: ''What? Why did you let him go Dean…?'' he yelled at him

Just then he disappeared taking me with him. We were back at the mole.

ME: '' Why the hell did you take me?'' I screamed.

CASTIEL: '' He will go after Sam'' he said calmly.

ME: ''So?'' I replied angrily.

CASTIEL: '' So if you stayed you would want to follow him and you shouldn't''

ME: '' Yes FYI I still am. See ya'' I said turning to leave but he stopped me.

ME:'' What the hell do you want from me Cass?'' I yelled.

CASTIEL: '' I want you to be responsible. You have a life growing inside of you, you don't want him to get hurt right?'' he replied.

ME: '' You're right. I'm sorry'' I said leaning at the handrail.

ME: '' Can I ask you something?'' I said then breaking the silence.

CASTIEL: '' What?''

ME: ''Why do you care?'' I asked, he was confused of my question.

CASTIEL:'' What do you mean, why do you care?''

ME: '' Why do you care about my babe? A few hours ago you wanted to kill me. What changed?'' I continued he thought it before answering.

CASTIEL: ''Because I thought of what you said to me earlier and I realized you didn't do anything wrong, you were right, we shouldn't punish that little creature and then I thought I only should be taking God's order's and he is not God.'' He replied.

ME: '' He?'' I asked frustrated.

CASTIEL: '' Uriel'' he said, somehow I was sure it was him behind all of this.

ME:'' Well, I guess I should be happy that at least one of us is a bit open-minded. Thank you Castiel'' I answered he shook his head almost smiling.

Silence returned but not for long.

CASTIEL: '' You love him don't you?'' he asked.

ME: ''Excuse me?'' I said pretending I didn't know what he was talking about.

CASTIEL: ''Dean. I see the way you're looking at him.''

I lowered my head smiling awkwardly.

ME: '' Of course I love him. He's the father of my child'' I answered.

CASTIEL: '' Why haven't you told him yet..?'' he asked then. It took me a while to respond.

ME:'' 'Cause I'm scared'' I finally replied.

CASTIEL:'' Of what?'' he asked.

I rose my shoulders not willing to answer that.

CASTIEL: '' He's not the same anymore Selene. He changed and even more after you got in his life. He loves you'' he answered I was staring at him with jaws opened in shock.

I couldn't help but smile.

ME: ''How can you be sure of that?''

CASTIEL: '' Because I've seen him. His face softens every time he's looking at you'' he replied

I never thought that the man who tried to kill me once just made me the happiest person alive.

ME: '' Come on'' I said.

CASTIEL: '' Where are you going?'' he asked.

ME: '' To help them. We have to stop Sam'' I explained.

CASTIEL: '' No, it's not safe for you Selene and we can't stop him. We can't stop fate'' he replied.

ME: '' Yes, we can and we will. Come on we don't have much time they're probably at the convent.'' I said placing my hand on his forehead.

It was quite at the convent night's stillness was terrifying me.

We started sauntering but fast enough. Castiel was beside me the whole time.

ME: '' Dean?'' I yelled but Cass stopped me.

CASTIEL: ''Sss'' he said covering my mouth with his hand.

We kept walking when I decided it would be better if we separated he disagreed but we would find them faster this way so he let it go.

Suddenly I felt a hand on my shoulder and started yelling.

DEAN: ''Sss, babe it's me, it's just me'' he said hugging me.

ME: '' Are you alright?'' I asked caressing his cheek

DEAN: '' Now I am. Come on we don't have much time'' he said taking me by my hand

ME: ''Wait, Cass''

DEAN: '' He's here?'' he asked, I shook my head.

DEAN: '' He'll find his way out. The man is a superhero'' he said and we started running.

Once we reached the place we saw Ruby and Sam was already killing Lilith. She closed the door before we could make it inside.

DEAN: '' Son of a bitch'' he yelled angrily.

We stood there in agony.

DEAN:'' Can you somehow open this freaking door?'' he asked me.

ME: It's too heavy but I'll try'' I said. I stepped back and closed my eyes. Nothing. Dean was waiting impatiently.

ME: ''I'm sorry I can't'' he kept fisting walls and cursing under his breath. I was afraid, suddenly we heard a crack and we assumed the door opened and we were right Dean run inside holding the knife in his hands walking towards them.

RUBY: ''You're too late'' she said.

DEAN: '' I don't care'' he replied stabbing her with her own knife while Sam was holding her arms. I was just standing there in shock.

SAM: '' I'm sorry'' he apologized to his brother just then the floor-start trembling and then opened in two.

Sam had grabbed Dean's shirt and Dean was holding Sam from his arms. None of them looked at me the whole time.

SAM:'' He's coming'' he said his voice was shaking. I run to them placing my hand on their forehead taking them away from there.

'That night it started, Lucifer was free the world is literally at the end of everything and I, all I do is keep looking for a tomorrow. Tomorrow, it sounds so funny there's no hope for us we're doomed. All seems lost and I'm just waiting for death to knock on my door. That's all I can do and that's all I do at least I hope for a painless one.'