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It's hard to love someone when you know you can't
Life just gets too complicated that way.
Even if your lives are two twisted strands,
You know that someday, It'll be cut down.
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Maya…
Our lips sealed and he opened my mouth, kissing me gently. Heaving a sigh, I had clung to his body tighter, never wanting to let go. I know I never kissed anyone before. I never thought that I'd be this close to him…its just too unbelievable; I wouldn't want to pull away from this kiss for air—I could die kissing him. Ridiculous, I know. The kiss was gentle and wonderful but it was just short. Impatiently, I reached out for him again but he kept away and said,
"Don't"
"But..." I whined. He took my hand and held it tight.
"We'll have plenty of time to do this again, Maya-chan. I just don't want us to get carried away."
"Fine, we'll do it some other time and by then, maybe I would know how to kiss." I said; he smirked.
"I could always teach you." I blushed. "But not now." He really knows how to press my buttons. I nodded but I didn't want to agree. In about a minute or so, the doorbell rang. "That must be your brother." He said and he stood up to open the door while I wiped my lips dry and took my bag then headed for the door and when going there, I almost stepped on fresh poop. Now I understand why he needed someone to clean his place.
The dog was lying under the table making whiny noises, barking at me when I look. It made me nervous because it was so big that I think that it could bite a chunk of me but Mitsuomi said that 'Nami' is the best dog he ever had. I believe him but the dog really scares me because of the size.
From the door, I could hear my brother saying,
"I saw him on the way here and it turned out that we were both going the same way so we went together."
Then I heard Mitsuomi-kun say, "Maya-chan's fixing her stuff there. Come in."
Then I went towards them and saw that we had another company besides my brother.
"Brother!" I said, "You're late."
"You didn't tell me what number the door is." then he faced Mitsuomi and said, "I appreciate what you're doing for Maya. Thanks for tutoring her."
Mitsuomi smiled, "She's very...uh…hardworking—"
"No, don't say that! She doesn't need to hear a praise from you; we all know her IQ sucks."
Mitsuomi chuckled while I gave my brother a threatening gaze. How dare he tell me in front of Mitsuomi-kun that my IQ sucks?! That's not even true!
"Shut up, you're such a loser." I snapped.
"Maya-chan, have you met my brother?" Mitsuomi-kun asked when he turned to me.
"I looked at the other guy and I was certain that I haven't seen him before so I shrugged and faced the russet haired guy. He had a fair complexion and he looked really nice too. "Hi, I'm Natsume Maya." I said.
"I'm Takayanagi Masataka. Nice to meet you" he replied. Then my brother said,
"Well, we should go now Mitsuomi-kun."
"Okay, bye." Mitsuomi-kun and Masataka-kun said.
I waved at them for goodbye then my brother and I went out. I wonder why Mitsuomi-kun's brother was there. I know he lives alone.
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AFTER A FEW MONTHS…TODOU…
He waited for her outside the classroom before the dismissal bell because he didn't want to miss talking to her so he skipped his last class. Souichiro knew that she was always in a hurry to leave because he sees her from his classroom on the other side of the building, fumbling and just stuffing her books in the locker carelessly. But he never knew why she was like this since three months ago. The blonde admits that he does spy on her during lunch break but he never had the courage to go near her and ask her out again. They talk a few times but that just wasn't enough.
"Maya-san!" Souichiro called when he saw her go out of the classroom. She turned around to face him and he walked forward. Then his words started rolling back in his throat instead of coming out of his mouth; and what he could say was, "I...I just wanted say hi"
"Uhhhh…Hi, Souichiro-kun…I really apologize but I have to go now. I'm so sorry."
"I understand…I just wanted to—" he was cut off when Mitsuomi appeared from a corner and said,
"Can we leave now?" Maya turned around to face the teacher because his question was addressed to her. Then Mitsuomi noticed that she was talking to Souichiro before he came. "Oh, I'm sorry…I didn't see you were talking with someone."
Then she replied, "Its okay, Mitsuomi-sensei. I was about to look for you anyway." Then she turned back to Souichiro and asked, "What was it you wanted?"
The first year student summoned up all his courage and said, "I was just wondering if you would like to go out with me this Saturday. I was planning to take you to…Disneyland…if it's okay…"
Maya smiled and said, "Oh, I would love to go with you! Thank you, Souichiro-kun. But I'm still going to ask my brother if he'll let me. He might want me to do something this Saturday. I'll just let you know tomorrow." She said. The last thing she said was a lie and the first one was true. She does want to go with Souichiro but she made up an excuse not to go with him because she already has a boyfriend. She was afraid that Mitsuomi would get jealous or mad at her if she ever said yes.
Souichiro felt hopeless but he managed to answer a smile and a nod. But deep inside, he knew that Maya wouldn't come with him tomorrow because she gave him the same answer when he asked her out a few months ago.
"Well, Bye." Then she waved at him and went away with Mitsuomi.
When there was no one looking, Mitsuomi took Maya's hand on the way to his car. They've been like this for three months now and their relationship has got deeper. Later, when they were in the car, Maya said, "Mitsuomi-kun, was rejecting Souichiro-kun bad? I lied to him…"
He started the car and went off the car park as he answered,
"Do you feel bad? You know you could go out with him—"
"I feel guilty, obviously. I promised to go out with him a long time ago but now that I have you…well, I'm not really sure what to tell him."
"Would you want to have that date with him?" he asked, curiously.
"I…I honestly do but I just like him as a friend…I wanted to go with him but I just couldn't—"
"If you wanted to go then you should have said yes." He said, cutting her off.
"Hey, you're not mad are you?"
"No. Why would I get mad? I was just saying that if you wanted to go with him then you should have said yes. I'll let you go with him if you wanted." Maya looked at him thoughtfully and asked,
"w-won't that make you…jealous?"
Mitsuomi chuckled, "whatever makes you happy will make me happy too and if you want to go with Nagi-kun then that's ok because I know you love me. I suppose I won't get jealous." Then he smiled at her.
"Oh." She said. "But if I do that, won't I be called a two-timer or something?"
"No, silly. I'm allowing you to go out with him."
Then she was silent for a while. Thinking what to say next and when she thought about it she said, "I changed my mind. I don't want to go with Souichiro-kun tomorrow anymore. I have you."
Her companion smiled but he disapproved on what she decided. "Don't take the fun away in your life just because of me. I want you to go there and enjoy yourself." He said.
"I'm not taking the fun out—"
"Don't contradict me. You'll enjoy your Saturday, I promise. End of conversation."
"Alright, fine. I'll go."
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And as he promised, she did enjoy most of that Saturday. But she had that day planned out differently.
In the morning, after taking out his dog for a walk, Mitsuomi went to buy some food then he went back home just before lunch. He parked his sedan, took the paper bag which contained the food, and Nami's leash then he went up to his flat thinking nothing but what could she be doing right now.
Although he didn't tell her, he was worried that Maya might like Souichiro and that likeness might develop into love. Yes, he was worried because Souichiro has been very close to her—he noticed how often they talk and how many hi's and hello's they say everyday even if they don't really say too much to each other at all. He knew all of this and he was just afraid that he'd lose her. That morning too, he planned to follow them after lunch but he realized that if they really are going to recognize how much they like each other, he didn't want to see it because he knows he'll just get hurt; and he also thought that it would be better because Maya won't need to hide her relationship unlike now because he's her teacher.
Slowly, before the dog and he reached their floor, he took the key from his pocket then the elevator doors slid open. He went out and Nami impatiently wagged her tail, taking her master to the hallway where their flat was.
Then suddenly, with no warning at all, she was there.
"Maya-chan?!" he said, surprised when he saw her. She was wearing a plum colored shirt with little pink figures and jeans. Apparently, she didn't hear him call her because her ears were listening to the earphones of her i-pod. He approached her and she saw him then she said,
"Oh, I was about to leave. I thought you went away, thank god you showed up."
"What are you doing here? Where's Nagi?"
She looked down and mumbled with guilt, "I bailed out on him."
"But why?" He asked.
"I'd rather spend the day with you." then she looked at him and turned her i-pod off.
"But what about Nagi-kun?"
"I already told him that I couldn't come, don't worry." She said. He sighed and Maya took the dog's leash from his hand. "Don't get mad, I just wanted to be with you."
"I'm not mad." Then with his free hand, he wrapped an arm around her shoulders. "You…surprised me."
Then he led her to his room and once they were there, he instantly headed for the counter and placed the food he bought in the microwave for lunch. It was already noon.
He went back to Maya and asked, "Are you hungry…thirsty? Do you want anything?"
"No, I'm fine. I just ate." Maya replied as she took Nami's leash off. The dog and she already had a good companionship. She wasn't afraid of it anymore then the dog ran in circles around the couch. "Are you mad at me?" she asked before turning on his TV.
He shrugged. "Why would I be mad?" then he sat down beside her on the love seat again. "You told me you wanted to spend the day with me. There's nothing wrong with that, is there?"
Then she stayed silent for a while and for ten more minutes they ostentatiously watched TV. Ostentatious because neither one of them likes the show and both of them just wanted to stare at each other instead of the boob tube. And then finally, Mitsuomi took advantage of this silence and spoke. "Don't tell me you went here just to watch TV."
So Maya took the remote and turned the TV off. "I wanted to eat lunch with you." then she slouched on the couch and mumbled, "But when I came here, you were away and I got hungry so I bought myself some lunch and went back here but you were still away so I waited…and just when I was about to leave, you showed up."
"How long have you been waiting anyway?"
"Two hours…I don't really know." Then she looked at his face which to her, looked lovely as ever and said, "Hey, didn't you buy food? Have you ate—" but before she could finish her sentence, Mitsuomi took her hand and pulled her up.
"Join me." he said.
"I already ate, Mi-kun. I'm fine." She explained but he pulled her to the kitchen anyway.
"Why didn't you tell me that you were already waiting for two hours? I'm sorry; if only I knew—"
"But it's just ok, Mi-kun. I understand." Then she sat down on the table while Mitsuomi took the plates. "Don't give me any; I'm not hungry."
"Are you sure?" he asked
She nodded so he just took the chopsticks and ate while Maya watched him. After eating, they went back to the living room and watched the lunchtime premiere on HBO. After the movie, they got so bored with slouching on the couch that Maya started making out with him.
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He thrust his middle finger in her and the look on her face changed. This was new to her, for sure.
"How do you feel?" he asked.
She smirked then shrugged. Then he took his finger away. The girl moaned and asked him to take it back. Maya's voice was soft and there was still a little bit of fear in that tone but the rest if it was just pure curiosity.
So Mitsuomi did what she asked him to do and with his two other fingers, he parted her lips and moved the one inside up and down , feeling the unbroken barrier in her.
When he took a glimpse of what her face looked like, he saw what he expected and he was glad she liked this. "So this is…a blow job?" she asked.
He just mumbled a sound that said yes then he took another finger in her and felt her body act with mild surprise.
"It feels like…well, I never really felt anything like it…" she said.
"They call this sexual contentment but I think this should be called pleasure." He whispered as he took her weak legs with his free hand and pushed it to make her straddle wider.
"c-can I look?" Maya asked, wanting to sit so that she would see what he was doing.
He smiled at her—this never failed to make her sigh in a quiet way. He moved aside to let her see. So she sat up but found it hard to bend her pelvis in order to sit because her muscles tightened and fought for space since Mitsuomi's fingers were in her.
She found him and reached out to kiss him but when she did, she discovered that each movement of her thighs became weaker in a pleasing way. He kissed her back and she felt that hunger he had for her; she was familiar with it because she knew that it was just like the hunger she felt for him.
Her cheeks began to get a rosier complexion when she saw Mitsuomi's thing again. If his fingers cause her pain every time she moves, then how painfully pleasing will it be to have him in her?
He pulled his fingers out and grabbed her face with his wet hand to resume kissing her. Their lips locked and Mitsuomi took dominance over both mouths. After pulling back Maya asked, "Mi-kun, what's oral sex?"
Then he mumbled, "I don't think you'd like that idea yet."
"I've heard a bit of it from my classmates but I don't really know what it means. How do you do it?" She was curious.
"It's not really something that you should get into yet becau—"
"Just tell me what it is so that we could do it and—"
"No" he said. "You won't like the oral."
But she was persistent and he ended up doing it. "I want to do it, Mi-kun. Please?" Mitsuomi pulled away and stood up from his bed. "Hey, what's going on? Where are you going?" she asked.
He didn't answer but she heard him opening the drawer and then taking out something. The windows were closed and not a light was seen through the thick window blinds. The only luminosity came from the lamp shade which was still dim so she didn't see what he did.
He came back with something around his private and she surmised that it was a condom.
"A-are we…are we going to do it now?" her question along with her nervous tone made the atmosphere more mind ticking—the excitement and the right feelings were coming right down at them.
"Strawberry." He mumbled; unfortunately because of her innocence, she didn't understand.
"What?"
"Strawberry."
"What strawberry?"
"Flavor."
"Strawberry flavor?"
"Yes."
"What?"
"Condom."
"Huh?"
"The condom Maya, Its strawberry flavored."
"What? I don't understand—why would the condom have a flavor?"
They were silent for a while—the atmosphere was so serious.
Then suddenly, Mitsuomi started laughing.
"Hey, what's so funny?!" she asked. Then he laughed some more.
"Sorry, I forgot—sorry, Maya-chan. The condom, love, its strawberry." He tried to kill the laughter out of him because he was starting to piss her off a bit. She's a virgin, how would she know about the flavors?
"Explain this to me!" she complained, but somehow in a playful manner. Maya's cheeks were red and it was either she was just so embarrassed or annoyed. He apologized and said,
"Now listen, you're the one who wanted this so…the flavor is for…" he trailed off for a while as he searched for the right words to explain everything to her. "In oral sex, you have to suck…"
"Suck?!" she asked. He nodded and she looked at his…thing…"you mean, right now?"
He lied down. "You have to hold me."
"What? But…I…I'm afraid!" she confessed.
He chuckled, "We don't have to do this if you're not ready for it yet." Then he sat down again and added, "I told you, you wouldn't find this groin sucking nice. Why do you think it was called oral sex?"
"I…uhhhh…but—"
"I knew we shouldn't do this." then he got off the bed again, probably to throw the condom because they weren't going to have sex anyway. They were just touching each other.
But Maya stopped him by grabbing his arm. "I want to do this!" she insisted.
"You're not ready yet"
"Please? I promise I won't back out. I want this."
"Alright, if you say so" he mumbled. So he sat back on the bed with her. "Give me your hands." She did what he told her and he touched her cold hands. Clearly, she was nervous. "Don't be afraid, Maya-chan." Then he placed her hands on his cheeks. "You know we can stop any time."
He slid her hands to his neck and looked at her in the eyes. He saw that she was really anxious of what would happen next. "We don't have to do this, Maya-chan. If you're too nervous—"
"I can do this. I was just asking for your help…"
"Alright." He mumbled, convinced that she really wanted this. He slid her stone-cold hands to his shoulders now, sliding them down to his chest. Every time he got lower, he would look at her face and see that she was looking at his private. Her cheeks were so red—she was blushing too much. Finally, they went below the belt, an inch before his curls. "Just pick it up," he gently whispered in a way she couldn't refuse. He let her hands go and he leaned on the bed, half sitting, and half lying.
"Okay…" she mumbled weakly.
So her hands found his curls and touched his starting point where the condom ended. A finger of hers touched the thin condom and she thought that his penis rose up a few centimeters. Maya looked at him and found his smug look comforting.
"It's fine, Maya-chan. You can hold me."
"You mean, I have to pick it up…and…put it in my mouth?"
"or you could lick me first…it's your choice." He teased.
She gulped and carefully wrapped her hands around his long, hot groin. It felt like a warm, unsliced sausage. Then she felt it rise again. Another erection.
"How are you doing?" he asked. She nodded as if to say that she was okay then she held him a bit more firmly and bent down; her mouth opened a slit and her soft pinkish tongue slid out. Then he felt it. Her tongue was like a small hot iron—burning him to a fiery furnace of pleasure whenever it hit his sides.
The condom didn't taste bad—it tasted like what flavor it was, which was, strawberry. And since it tasted okay, she opened her mouth a bit wider to kiss the sides and lick with her tongue. She did this until she reached his tip and since it was the end, she decided to insert it in her mouth. Treating the whole thing like a candy—but much more gently of course—she started to suck effortlessly. The flavor did help a lot. She wasn't going to do this if there wasn't a condom. She'll be too afraid.
The oral sex ended when Mitsuomi had to release the seeds. It wasn't long before that happened because he felt really aroused while she was sucking him. Her long soft hair that rested on his thighs tickled him to the deaths of gratification, her position, her tongue…the teeth that tickled him…her mouth…that sweet damp hole—oh, he knew he had to give in. He couldn't hold himself any longer.
After that, he maneuvered himself on top of her and they kissed again. The couple never got this far before. True, they've spent hours touching each other but they never got to the point where they took off all their clothes.
Their kiss got more and more ecstatic then they pulled away for air. It was almost perfect because their teeth didn't even clash once.
"We should stop now." Mitsuomi whispered, knowing that they've been too careless again.
"No" she groaned. Her longing was still not satisfied and he knew that she wanted so much more.
"We've been on bed for a long time. We're not even aware what time it is."
"But Mitsuomi-kun!" she reached for him but he held her back saying,
"We shouldn't lose our control." But it was obvious with his tone that he was going to give in to her wants. He restricted himself by arching back and grabbing his shirt beside him. He started dressing then Maya groaned again in disappointment as if asking, "what are you doing?!"
Mitsuomi just mumbled, "I'm stopping myself to give in, and stopping you from seducing me." So Maya just pouted and began to look for her clothes too amidst the dim light uttering,
"I can't believe nothing happened."
After dressing, Maya was still whining—very child like of her—Mitsuomi just did his best to ignore her by sitting on the couch and turning on the TV but when she sat down beside him and lied her head on his lap, he couldn't ignore her for doing that. "C'mon, Mi-kun…please?" she asked.
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BY 5:30 PM…
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A silver sedan rolled on the Natsume driveway. When the driver stepped on the brakes, the girl on the passenger's seat lunged at him for a kiss. And he did kiss back as passionately as he could. Then after a while, the couple pulled away for air. "Another one" Maya moaned, so Mitsuomi took her again and kissed.
BUT suddenly, someone tapped the window from outside, interrupting their romantic moment. They both looked up then Mitsuomi's door which was unlocked, was opened. This was followed by angry cusswords from the person who opened the door. He took Mitsuomi from the collar and dragged him out.
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MAYA…
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His lips still burned on mine that I was so unaware of what was happening at this moment. I was kissing him…then we stopped because someone tapped the glass and we both looked up to see who it was. It certainly wasn't police, no. It was even worse—and all I could do from that moment was to disagree with fate.
Mitsuomi-kun was dragged outside.
"Brother…" I mumbled, realizing that he was that loon who pulled my boyfriend out of the car. "Brother, stop! You're hurting him." I said again when he started to punch Mitsuomi-kun. He was cursing out loud and yelling,
"You traitor! You said you wouldn't harm her. Stay away from my sister, bastard!" Mitsuomi-kun was bigger but being older, my brother was stronger—he fought a lot of people before and the result was that Mitsuomi-kun didn't have a dent against him.
I was angry at him. Why was he doing this to us? We were just loving each other. Who was he to stop us?!
"Stop it!" I yelled when I had the strength to get out of the car then I pulled them apart. But brother just pushed me away and I fell on the asphalt, unharmed.
Shin was shouting at Mitsuomi-kun whose lips were beginning to bleed. Brother seemed to have a black eye too—but I was so afraid to look at him that I didn't want to know. "Don't ruin her life, Mitsuomi." He said "Don't fuck with us. I know you. Don't touch my sister. Go away, no body wants you here." He turned to me and grabbed my hand then he started dragging me inside the gate.
"Stop it, brother! You're hurting me." I cried. He let go and pulled me up then he dragged me again, "You stupid, ungrateful girl!" he said.
"Shut up, let me go!" I screamed. Mitsuomi approached us but brother just told him to go away. I couldn't do anything…he couldn't do anything…we couldn't do anything. Mitsuomi-kun respects my brother and I know that he wouldn't dare to make my brother have such a temper. He said it himself before; Shin was a brother he never had.
And me? I was in big trouble. More than I could ever imagine. And this…this was just the start of it. All of it.
Brother continued dragging me inside then he locked the gate and yelled, "Didn't I tell you not to do these things? I didn't do—I didn't love you to be a slut. I didn't raise you for the past eight years just to become a slut—"
"I am not a slut!" I shouted, furiously. "Let me go!"
"No. From now on, you can't see Mitsuomi again except in school. You can't talk to him anymore, Maya. Do you understand that?"
"I'll talk to him if I want to. You can't—"
"He's your teacher, Maya! You should have known better. How could you do this?!"
"So what if he's my teacher? He's just a year older. Why do you have to act like this? You punched him!"
"Since when were you keeping this from me?" he asked, enraged. I didn't tell him. I just kept on struggling to get away from him. "answer me, slut." He said. I tried to slap him for calling me a slut but he was too strong for me. My tears were continuously falling down my face but I hadn't notice that. I was so mad at my brother that I didn't answer him. I had no choice but to shut up and cry.
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So, how was this chapter? So yeah, there was the first lemon scene…I'm not really sure if its lemon…but anyway, tell me what you think. Please review and thanks for reading. So far, how do you like the story? Please tell me that its better than "I Will Love Him Until The End, Past, and Present" fic. Whew, that fic was a real disaster. But I'm glad I get good reviews from that story even if in my opinion, I think it sucked one-third of the whole plot. HAHA. Please review!
