The next morning, well, let's say it came quickly. After putting Lila to bed, Carlisle and Esme left, claiming Carlisle had an early day at work. Emmett, Jasper, Alice and Rose hung around til about ten and then headed out. Emmett said something about seeing me tomorrow. After they left, all I could do was tread off to my bed and collapse onto my covers.
I was awoken by small hands touching me cheek. I opened my eyes and saw Lila, in her Little Mermaid pajamas, standing on the side of my bed touching me face to wake me up. She smiled when my eyes opened. She looked excited.
"I saw you in my dreams!" She told me.
"How nice for you." I muttered. It was mean, I know, she was just a little kid. But it was seven in the friggin morning! I never got up before eleven, unless I was catching a plane.
"Did you see me in your dreams?" She asked, struggling to pull herself up on my bed. I finally gave in and lifted her up so she was sitting next to me on my comforter.
I honestly couldn't recall anything from my dreams. I beleive I was in too deep a sleep to have dreams last night.
"I didn't have any dreams." I sighed, rubbing the sleep from my eyes.
"That's not true." She shook her small head. "I heard you. You were sleep talking. Mommy does it all the time. You said 'Bella, Bella, Lila.' See, I was in your dreams! And mommy too!"
I said that? I didn't take Lila for a liar, so I simply shook it off and got up to take a shower. When I was dressed and in my kitchen, I found Lila sitting at the counter, holding a book. She jumped up when she saw me.
"I almost forgot!" She cried. "Mommy said to give this to you when I got here. She said it would explain everything."
I nodded, eager now, and took the small black book. I told Lila to go watch TV and I sat at my table and opened the book. There, inside the cover was a small peice of paper. I read it, schocked to see what was on that page.
Dear Edward,
I know that you honestly had no idea you had a daughter. I didn't know until my fourth month when I started to blow up like a freakin balloon. I'm sorry I just left her with you, but I seriously had no other choice. Jack was in a car accident and is in Emergency Care in Tenessee. The hospital doesn't want kids under ten hanging around, and I had no where else to turn. My mom is with Jack and I, Dino couldn't care less about her (Not that I would ever leave Lila with that idiot) and I haven't got a clue where my dad is. I know you were never great with kids, but I have a good feeling you'll be great with Lila. She's always wanted to meet you.
You may not really know Lila, but you will. And you'll love her. I trust you, Edward. No matter how conceited you are, you've always been good about taking care of the people you love. This book is a diary I kept while I was pregnant with Lila. It has my innner most personal thoughts. I think you might enjoy what you read.
Remember, Edward. Take good care of my baby. I love her. And beleive it or not, I love you too.
Love,
Bella
Ps: Say hi to Alice for me. Oh, and Lila, being the mini me that she is, hates shopping. So, don't have Alice dragging her all around the mall.
Pss: She doesnt like to be alone. She's just like you, in that way.
Oh, right! In Lila's suitcase there are eight videos. There all about Lila. Watch them if you'd like.
I couldn't fathom it. She loved me. She really, truly loved me. It couldn't be true. She had said unspeakable things to me that night. Horrid, nasty insults that I frankly never beleived Bella had in her. I mean, she could be a good a bitch as any, but she was sweet underneath it all.
I flipped to the first page in the book.
June 6
Oh my god. No, seriously. God, why do you hate me? Why? I was a good girl. I admit, I never really went to church regularly, but I went on Easter! That has to count for something! You know I'm all alone. Why, oh why, are you doing this?
I can't be pregnant. I just can't.
Mom is going to kill me. I mean, I'm only seventeen. I can't raise a child! I can't provide a stable enviorment for a little kid! I don't have enough money for an apartment, all my money went to college. I guess I could move in with Jack...but would he want a baby crawling around? I can't stay home. Not with Dino on his drunken rages and mom always at work. I don't have freinds. Well, besides Alice. But she's Edward's sister! This is too frustrating!
Damn. This means Yale is DEFINATELY out of the picture.
I had to chuckle at Bella's first entry. I could see her now, getting all flustered. Her nose scrunching, her breathing picking up into small frustrated huffs. She was so cute when she was angry. I snorted as I thought this. If I thought she was cute when she was angry, I must have been hyptonized by her beauty the day after I got her pregnant. She was beyond furious
