All That Matters

Spoilers: All Episodes, 3x13 Thanks for the Memories, 4x09 William, 4x10 The Trouble with the Troubles, 4x11 Shot in the Dark preview

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Nathan paced the room they sat in as Audrey flipped through the books in front of her. He was still reeling about the news they'd received two hours before and she just let him brood while she went through the books for information. While the news had been full of smiles for her and a happy thought of the future, Nathan had only replied in silence the entire time.

Stopping on a page Audrey pulled her head from where it rested in her hand. "Nathan look at this." He didn't stop pacing, "Nathan…it's about me I think."

"Of course it's about you Audrey," he stopped pacing and put his hands on the table. "We're in the middle of a war with a psychopath hell-bent on destroying Haven and instead of simple answers we have a…a baby on the way."

Rolling her eyes Audrey reached up and pulled his chin so he was looking at the book. "I think it's about me."

They saw a carving of a girl surrounded by waves and a Barn-like structure in the background. Nathan sat down and turned the book to read the passage underneath the carving. "The Woman of Darkness trapped inside a housing of wood for eternity to protect the Mi'kmaq from her mate who desired only her eternal darkness."

"Wait here." Audrey moved down to paragraph that correlated with the image of the carving. "She shall be eternally trapped till her pure heart forgets the darkness inside her. Only when her heart is filled with light shall she be set free to walk the world again. Filled with light she shall be anew as the Woman of Light, lifting the curses and defeating the mate of Darkness with rejection."

Nathan leaned back and shook his head, "you've rejected him so it has to be wrong."


Audrey sighed and leaned back, letting her hand fall on her belly. Narrowing her eyes she looked down at her hand, "maybe rejecting him is about rejecting the darkness, rejecting every other identity except this one. I have to embrace Audrey solely without accepting any other life…" turning she looked at Nathan and shook her head. "That includes Sarah, Lexie and Lucy…I have to reject those lives and part of me doesn't want to. I've been so eager to know who I am, who I started out as that I haven't fully accepted myself as Audrey Parker."

"That can't be everything."

"It's a start and he's locked up, we can always come back if we need to." Audrey collected the book and headed to the copy machine to copy the page. "We have some answers and we've gone through the rest of the books here." She turned as the page scanned and printed out. "This maybe all we get in answers, it's more than we had before."

He walked over as she removed the book from the copy machine, "I'm not ready for one page to be all the answers we get. There's more at stake now and that's what makes this so important to figure everything out before we attempt anything." Taking the book from her hands he held one of her hands in his and squeezed, "I don't want this child ending up like James."

"They won't I promise." Audrey smiled at him, "this baby is our second chance, the one we didn't get before. We loved our son and The Troubles, my connection to them took him from us. This time we aren't going to lose the life we deserve and that makes returning to Haven a priority. If this rejection doesn't work we'll figure something else out but we will end this before our son or daughter arrive."

Nathan grinned for a moment, "wouldn't mind a little girl like her mom, all spirit and gentle nature. If James was anything to go by we know she'll be beautiful."


The words that spilled out of Nathan's mouth made her smile because it was the first he'd said anything regarding the baby itself. He's mentioned the danger related to having a baby and the fact they were at war but the fact Nathan Wuornos liked the idea of a daughter just gave her a pulse of happiness. He had that goofy look on his face that he got when he was utterly happy. "Thought you'd be more of the boy type, taking him fishing and play cops and robbers. Think you'd be up to all the softball and ballet, all the girl crises ahead that involve make up, clothes and boys?"

Nathan shrugged at that, "Jennifer and Duke can have a son and she can date him, that way I can legally scare the crap out of him and his parents won't care."

"Uh huh, you approving the idea of your daughter dating Duke's son…obviously the world has ended."

"What's that supposed to mean?"

Audrey shook her head as she placed the pieces of paper they'd copies with the others and put the books in a stack. "Nothing, just that the world has to be ending for you to agree to let your kid date Duke's kid."

"You say that like we're enemies."

"Only on your bad days," she smirked at him and his face dropped, "you're just best friends now."


Jennifer and Duke were in the bar of The Grey Gull when they heard the distinct sound of Nathan's truck. Waiting a few moments they looked up to see the two enter the place and head over to the bar where their friends sat. Audrey smiled and looked at them, "how'd the Daniels' Trouble go while we were gone?"

"You were gone three days not weeks." Duke put water bottles out for both of them, "anyways Jennifer managed to convince her that her fear of her Trouble was causing it so she introduced her to the concept of accepting who you are. It was quite scary for a moment because we thought she'd reanimate the rest of the morgue and we'd have the zombie apocalypse on our hands."

Jennifer bounced in her seat, "congrats by the way…Dr. Basten forgot to shut the door and we heard. I offer my services as a babysitter anytime you need one."

"Thanks." Audrey smiled and folded her arms at the bar, "Nathan has already made the decision that it's a girl and that the only guy she's allowed to date is the son you guys have one day."

Duke put up a finger, "oh no because see here, if by chance Jennifer and I do get married and do have a kid, it'll be a girl like her mom. We've had enough Crocker men to last a lifetime, we need girls like their mom."

"Now that you mention that," Nathan moved his head back and forth, "yeah my daughter is never dating your son."

"And my daughter is never dating your son." Duke bumped his beer against Nathan's water bottle.

Audrey shook her head, "only you two could agree on something like that."

"You know what that means right?" Jennifer looked at Audrey, "it'll be a forbidden romance and Haven will have a Romeo and Juliet drama instead of Troubles to deal with."

"NO!" Both men shook their heads before launching into their reasons 'why' loudly and at the same time despite the differences. Jennifer and Audrey looked at each other before they started laughing.


Audrey held up her hand, "anyways, Nathan and I found some information that might help."

"Oh we did too!" Jennifer smiled and put up her hands, "I can read the mind of Troubled people when I want to and before you go getting hyped up I have bigger news…"

Duke smirked, "she read William's thoughts…we got your original identity and where you came from." He pointed at Audrey, "we also figure out that the connection is broken now because no connection is stronger than that between mother and child."

Nathan shook his head, "hold on, you got answers out of him without him actually talking?" They stared at him, "besides his usual rambles? Who was Audrey before everything began?"

"Virginia Dare of the Lost Roanoke Colony." Jennifer spoke but it wasn't in her perky voice. "William and you were the only ones to survive whatever happened there before you were kidnapped by the Eno Indians. He didn't really say, I mean think much but I got the distinct impression that he made the darkness in you because of his own anger and you had a pure heart he could corrupt. You were 2 or 3 when it happened and he was 9 or 10."

"Virginia Dare?" Both Nathan and Audrey questioned at the same time.

Duke took a sip of beer, "well at least we know how old you are because your date of birth was actually recorded…you're 425 years old but you look great."

"He did say you were a lost legend that the world wondered about." Nathan shook his head, "but now knowing who you were when you two were…whatever you were doing, it means you can reject that identity with ease."

Audrey nodded, "yeah it does and tomorrow I'm going to go face him but first I'm going to go relax upstairs in my apartment."


A/N: Audrey's original identity as been found...Virginia Dare. If you actually look up the children that were recorded as being in the Lost Colony, one of them is named William so...yeah I played it. www. /namelist .html (copy and paste)

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