A/N: Hey everyone. Sorry it took so long and that it's short. Having a bit of trouble with how I want to approach things. Hope you enjoy!
Chapter 7
Pet Titan
Many different thoughts came to mind as I sat on my knees, chained up to a metal pool in front of many terrified eyes. I couldn't deny the fact that I was pissed off that they still saw me as a threat after plugging up the damn hole. It wasn't as if I knew why or how I could change into a Titan. I had never asked for this fucked up thing to happen to me. I now had only two options before me. For them to see me as a threat or a useful tool that can help them in winning the war against the titans. I could die for being the monster they see before them, or be a useful monster that they can exploit for their own benefit. I was leaning more towards the later for the mere fact that I didn't see myself as the threat. I was still very motivated on wiping all the titans from existence.
It was difficult in the sense that at first I had no control over my titan form. I had been lost in a dream where my parents were still alive and Makasu was there with my mother with a smile on each of their faces. It had been a happy time in my own mind, where the peace existed. But if it wasn't for Armin I would have let everyone down. He had reached me and raised me up from the lie I had been stuck in and was able to get me to fill the hole with the help of everyone who protected me as I moved the builder over. It hadn't been an easy task.
It was then that I had realized that no matter how much I missed the days before the monsters broke through, I still had to continue to fight. It was meeting him for the first time, I realized that he saw my usefulness. Captain Levi from the Scout Regime was everything I had expected, though I didn't think he would have went that far to prove a point to the terrified people gathered around me. No matter what I had said to them, they still were afraid of me. I should have remained quiet but I just let it all out. I had just finished telling them to let me shoulder it all but they had been ready to fire on me. That was when the first kick to my face was felt. I was pretty sure I had lost a tooth. But that didn't matter as my whole body began to feel new kinds of pain as Captain Levi kept on kicking me. My vision and my mind wavered in and out as he kept at it. I could barely register what was being said. Was no one going to stop him from beating on a girl so mercilessly? But I guess this what I asked for.
For so long I had wanted others to see me as an equal and not just a weak girl who couldn't defend herself and had to hide being her adoptive brother. And today, I got my wish. No one saw me as a girl on this day. All they could see was the thing I had somehow become. My gender or sex didn't matter in the slightest. I had lost the prejudice of being a weak girl to gaining the prejudice of being a monster in disguise. I didn't know which one a prefered more but the pain coursing through my body told me that I wanted to be seen as a girl again. Why had this happened to me.
I suppressed as many of my screams as I could as he kept on beating on me. I could taste the blood in my mouth as my body shivered. Was this my new reality now? To be dissected and beaten down?
I'm not human.
Not in there eyes.
Not anymore.
My mind began to drift even further. Would I ever have the chance to fulfill my wish, my mission of destroy every fucking titan? Did that mean me?
I'm not human anymore.
I'm a monster.
But what did that mean? Had I become the thing I sworn to hate?
I heard the echoes of the voices around me as my body was numb from all the pain. I had to stop thinking this way. I had to remember what I had said to Captain Levi.
That's right.
I had to remember that I had told him that I wanted to slaughter every single titan and the way he responded. He knew what he was doing. This pain wasn't for nothing and I could take a hit.
I'm not a monster.
I will kill the monsters.
And now I have a means to do it.
Captain Levi was just ensuring that they would see that he had things under control. He had me under control. If necessary he could kill me. But it wouldn't come to that. There was no way I would turn into one of those things that eat people. No way in hell. I had faith that everything would turn out alright. And I was right. For the time being at least.
I hadn't planned on being someone's pet titan, but what else could I do?
