This is My Despair

When Honoka got home, she found it empty. She founf a note on her bed that said

'Honoka,

Mom and me went to the store to buy food. So dont worry if we come late.

Your sister, Yuukiho

Honoka was happy her family wasn't home. She felt her phone ring. She saw that it was Kotori. She hung up in the second ring/vibrate. She felt her phone vibrate again. It was Umi. She declined the phone call. She decided to turn off her phone, and decided to take a bath.

Honoka was still thinking about the kiss Umi and Kotori were sharing. She kept replaying that scene over and over, and started to cry.

Honoka thought of every flaw Umi has; she is skinny, she is smart, beautiful flowing hair, and a cute face.

Honoka felt because she didnt have any of those flaws, she should hurt herself.

She started to look around the house. She ran to her room to try to find at least something sharp

Nothing

Then she checked her sisters room.

Again, nothing.

She checked the bathroom, she checked behind the mirror.

Bingo

Pills. This can punish her for having no flaws.

Honoka smiled of her achievement. Nothing will stop her now. Not Nico, or Eli, Hanayo, Rin, Maki, Umi, Nozomi, not even Kotori.

She didnt care about the consequences at all and took 4 pills at the same time. She felt a little tired. She read the bottle at said that side effects would make her feel tired.

She didnt read the rest of it. She went to her room and layed down in her bed

She felt empty.

Why was that?

Honoka felt something hot falling down her cheek.

Tears

She was crying. Again. Why? 'Why does it hurt so much?! She loves Umi, not me. I should be happy like i was with Maki. It was so easy with Maki. But why is it so hard with Kotori?!"

Honoka covered her mouth with her hand to not let any noises come out of her mouth. Even though no one was home, Honoka still felt she should do it.

Honoka turned on her phone on. She saw 15 missed calls. Mostly were from Nozomi and Kotori.

Kotori

'Why would she want to talk to me. She should be with Umi.' Honoka thought bitterly

She saw that also Maki and Nico called her. Actually everyone from μ's even Umi

Honoka felt bitter. Anger. Betrayal. Lonely. Despair.

Honoka felt like this was all a nightmare. And she wanted it to end.

But it wasnt a nightmare. It was real. Everything that was happening, Kotori and Umi kissing, Kotori being with Umi, her feeling hopeless, everything! Was real. Nothing that happened today was a nightmare.

Honoka got up from her bed and took a bath. When she got out of the shower, she felt void, hollow. She took a handful of pills. She felt better a little bit.

But it wasnt enough to lift her spirits.

Tomorrow there was school. She would have to swallow her pride and face both Kotori and Umi. She wasnt going to back down.

Honoka put the pills in her backpack and went to bed.

Tomorrow was another day. Hopefully it would be better than today.

By the way things are going in this story, I dont think Honoka is going to be paired with anyone. It was supposed to be a Kotori x Honoka.