Chapter Seven – Clouds
Clouds. They litter the sky. I watch as they move along the sky slowly, leisurely. They seem so peaceful, yet the worst storms originate from this simple beauty.
A light touch to my hand sends my spirits soaring to cloud nine. I smile at the irony of my thoughts.
I look down at the hand that has slipped into my own. I look up the body before looking at Kyla's beautiful face. My smile widens.
'Whatcha smilin' for?' she asks lazily, eyelids drooping. She hasn't been sleeping. I frown.
'Whoa, sorry to burst your bubble, I'll be quiet then.' She smirks before returning her attention to the clouds.
I apologise and say I was smiling because I was happy.
It's true, sort of. When I'm with Kyla, I feel the most alive. I just go through the motions normally, but with Kyla I triple my effort. I have to be normal for her, to make her happy.
I'm never truly happy. There's always a hint of depression in everything. All my thoughts. I've been suicidal frequently lately. But Kyla's always brought me back from the edge.
Mum, I know you're up there. I often imagine you looking down on me, making sure I don't screw things up.
Mum, why did you go? I know your personality has been filtered into my everything, but could you not be here, too?
I see everything, Mum. It's all so clear. Everywhere I turn. There's always something new.
Something wrong.
It's like my eyes have been opened to the horrors of the world. The destruction everywhere.
Trees falling for paper, animals being slaughtered for food and material products. People killing others, all in the names of justice, democracy and better life.
What's the point? There will always be war, always famine, always ignorance. Why destroy things in pitiful attempts to make it seem better.
Why do we go on?
Why do we struggle and suffer?
What's the point.
Why…?
Mum, life sucks.
Why won't it just end already?
A.N. ~ I agree, Seth, why do we go on?
Lena: BECAUSE LIFE IS WORTH LIVING, DAMMIT!
Plz R & R,
I have nothing more to say, other than ... OH SHI-
Lena: Get back here! I'm gonna KILL you! how dare you let Seth get unhappy?
damn, he got away.
Until next time!
Lena xoxo
AND JERRI xoxo
