This chapter focus more on Penny and her past Thanks for reading and reviewing! I hope you enjoy this chapter. Not a lot of Calzona in this chapter, but that will be made up for in the other chapters!


PAST

Penny stared up at the picture next to her beloved as tears streamed down her face. Silently crying, silently pleading for Calliope to return to her. Penelope and Calliope, they really were perfect for one another in the beginning. And Penny was so excited to start working with Calliope until she found out who her friends were. Their relationship was doomed from the moment Penny set eyes on Meredith at that dinner party. They'd pretended that they could make it work, they could try to love one another. But Calliope left for the pretty blonde girl, who Penny could never compete with. She picked up the framed photograph, and let out a sob before hurling it to the other side of the room in a rage. Things were supposed to be different this time – that's what her psychiatrist told her. She was better, she wasn't going to act like she did when Eve left. Sweet precious loving Eve. Penny's first love. They began dating in college, going through some incredibly rocky times like coming out to their families and friends. They were bullied, but it didn't matter as they had each other. Like Calliope, Eve was the strong independent one who had no problem giving those who gave her a hard time a piece of her mind. Penny was mouse-like, too scared to say boo to a goose. But that didn't matter, she had Eve to protect her. Right up until the day that Eve had had enough.

Eve was always adventurous, she didn't understand Penny's workload, she didn't need to understand as she wasn't an intern. The journalism profession didn't clock nearly as many hours as what surgeons did. So where Eve wanted to party, Penny wanted to sleep. They drifted apart, slowly becoming strangers to one another, even though they lived in the same house. Being an intern was taking its toll, Penny feared she was beginning to head towards a mental breakdown. Whenever she wasn't sleeping or working, she was crying, silently as if this would ease her problems, make her life a lot better.

Quit – Eve told her time and time again. It wasn't too late; she was only an intern. She could use that medical degree on something that wasn't nearly as demanding. Eve told Penny she could become a paediatrician, working a normal 9-5 job. Penny almost laughed at her, she hated kids, Eve knew that already. Or at least, Penny thought she did. She dropped a lot of hints, constantly looking for an excuse to ask where their relationship was next going when all Penny could think about was her day at work. She had no time for a baby of her own, why didn't Eve understand that? Why was this becoming such an issue in their daily lives?

"I could imagine us, with a bunch of cute kids" Eve would tell Penny on an almost daily basis. Penny sighed almost always. It never went any further. Any further would lead to an argument and Penny hated arguments. The way her darling Eve would cry, so painfully as if she was the worst woman in the world. She wanted to take her hands and kiss them, begging her not to leave. Not that it ever worked. Penny clenched her fists, thinking of that particular day and the events that followed.

It was their five-year anniversary. Penny had nearly completed her first year as an intern. She was still unbelievably stressed. That morning she woke up to strands of her own hair on her pillow. She cried a lot that day, she was only 23, it wasn't supposed to be this way at 23. Penny vowed that day to get help for her stress levels before she had a heart attack, and to become a better girlfriend to Eve. She brought a ring. She would surprise Eve that night. Penny thought it would be nice, her precious Eve had changed. No longer the bubbly bright person she once was, she was withdrawn. They'd stopped being intimate with each other. They had completely different schedules. Penny was surprised that they had this night together. She had the day off. She cleaned the whole house from top to bottom, bringing out the bag of gifts for Eve. Penny scattered their bed with rose petals, and set the table, complete with candles and a rose in the middle. She cooked their favourite dinner to have that night. And she kept the ring by her side all day. She couldn't stop looking at it, it was so pretty. So shiny, it was the exact engagement ring Eve would pick out if Penny had taken her to the shop herself.

At 6, Eve came through the door. Eve began to cry at the sight in front of her. Penny took her coat and led her to the table as the timer went off for the oven. She dished out their lasagne and began to chat to Eve about her day. Eve was not herself, even tonight. Penny felt a bit deflated that most of her efforts had been ignored. She pulled out the ring, she couldn't contain herself any longer. But the look on Eve's face wasn't the one she had expected at all. The pure horror in her eyes could not be hidden.

"Oh, Penny" Eve whispered. "Penny, it's too late"

"What?" Penny was gobsmacked, closing the ring box immediately. She felt the tears sting her eyes. She was beyond humiliated.

"I met someone. At work. I was coming to tell you tonight that we were over"

"You cheated on me?" Penny was disgusted. "You bitch" she spat the words out.

"I'm sorry. I've already rented a new place. You can stay here"

"It's our anniversary" Penny spoke slowly. "I made lasagne"

"Lasagne and an engagement ring won't make up for our failing relationship" Eve spoke. Penny couldn't look at her.

"I love Charlotte, we're on the same page. We're not in college anymore Pen, we can't kid ourselves that we were meant to last forever"

"Well that's what you said to me. You said it would be me and you until the end"

"You were my first love. I thought I meant it" Eve dried her eyes. Penny noticed the glint in her eyes. She always loved the drama, she was actually enjoying making Penny feel so horrible about herself. Eve stood up. "Good bye Penny"

Penny could not understand this feeling of rage that overcame her. She stood up, her hands shook as she picked up her plate of pasta and lobbed it in Eve's direction, narrowly missing her head as it went flying by and hit the door. Lasagne dripped down the door, the plate smashed into pieces. Penny was sobbing. Eve didn't once look back as she left, disappearing from Penny's life altogether.


Penny didn't sleep much for the weeks after, her mind was too consumed with Eve to even consider attempting a normal life. She felt like she had lost her voice, the little friends she had were Eve's friends. Eve was the sociable one. Eve could make friends, something Penny had struggled with her whole life. Horrible thoughts began to consume her mind. She dreamt about wrapped her arms around Eve's neck and choking her. Penny woke up in cold sweats, these homicidal thoughts were consuming her. She daydreamed about killing them both together, driving off a bridge, shooting them both. All she thought about was a way to end Eve. As the months slipped by, these thoughts hadn't began to disappear, yet Penny would find herself in her spare time obsessing over Eve. Trying to find out where she lived, what she was doing, and as much as she could about the bitch who took Eve away from her. Eventually Penny had a breakthrough when an old friend let slip. The friend looked horrified. As if Penny was going to do anything bad.

Penny lost so much weight, her clothes were hanging off her and she never wanted to eat anymore. She was so close to being fired from being an intern. Their chief wasn't happy with her. Her performance at work had suffered drastically and Penny was receiving less and less time in the OR. No one wanted her there anyway. In her half-asleep state during one of the chief's rants, she could just about hear "liability" and "not fit to be a doctor".

One night her homicidal thoughts were stronger than ever. Penny could almost feel the life leaving Eve as she wrapped her hands around her neck. She rejoiced that Eve took her last breath, looking utterly terrified at her. It was beginning to make her feel powerful, something she didn't know she had been craving. That night she drove to Eve's apartment.

Eve wasn't expecting Penny's hands around her neck when she opened the door. Penny pinned her to the ground, the way she had in all her fantasies, laughing as Eve struggled for air. Then finally things went black.


PRESENT

Arizona had finished a long day at work, with her final patient being April. April was blooming now with not long to go and the baby was still healthy, much to everyone's relief. Arizona couldn't stop thinking of how happy Jackson and April were in that room, as they watched their baby move around on the ultrasound. They cuddled up close, they laughed. Things between them were better than ever.

Arizona was in a great mood when she got home, twirling Sofia around in the air on her arrival. Callie was in the kitchen preparing dinner. Arizona felt so blessed to have the life that she did now. She wrapped her arms around Callie's waist, turning her around to face Arizona. She grinned, leaning into her girlfriend for a kiss.

"Well you're in a good mood" Callie grinned.

"Mmm" Arizona nestled into her chest. "I had a very good day"

"I can see that" Callie laughed.

"Jackson and April had another scan and everything's good"

"Do they know what they're having yet?"

"Cal, they can tell just as much as I can. They're having a girl" Arizona beamed.

"Another little girl to add to the babies of Grey Sloan group!" Callie told her. "Tuck and Bailey are outnumbered"

"About that" Arizona cleared her throat. "I've been thinking"

"About?" Callie was confused. She set the plates out for dinner and told Sofia it was nearly ready.

"Looking at Jackson and April makes me think, life is too short. I love you, we're in such a good place now and all I want is a big huge family that we can love and raise together"

"Are you telling me that you want a baby?" Callie questioned, her expression slowly turning into a smile. "Are you serious?"

"I have never been so sure about anything in my life Calliope"

"Let's do it then" Callie laughed, squeezing Arizona tightly. "Let's have a baby!"


PAST

When Penny woke up, she was in a hospital. Her head hurt until she began to remember the events of last night. Eve, she killed Eve. Penny's hand flew to her mouth as she remembered actually choking her girlfriend after thinking about it for months. But then why was she hurt? Penny was confused. She remembered everything going black, maybe she didn't kill Eve after all.

The police were hovering at Penny's door and a nurse came in to check her vitals.

"They're gonna wanna talk to you" the nurse shook her head, before signalling to the police that they could come in.

"We need to ask you some questions about Eve Beaumont" the police officer began taking out a notebook.

Penny couldn't think of how to speak, it was like the power of speech had been taken away from her. She began to howl.

"I didn't mean to kill her"

"Miss Beaumont is alive and well Miss Blake"

"Please help me" Penny sobbed. "Please I didn't mean it" she howled harder and louder until she felt like her heart was going to burst. "I have to see her, I have to see Eve" she wailed, attempting to leave the hospital bed. The police forced her back into bed.

"I'm afraid that's not possible" said the Policeman.

"I need help" Penny came to the realisation of the homicidal thoughts. The police officer called a nurse.

"I need to question her some more, but by the looks of things she needs to be sectioned rather than jailed" he motioned to Penny who was still wailing, rocking backwards and forwards in her bed crying for Eve. The nurse nodded.

"I'll page someone from psych to come. You can still interview her in psych"

Penny wasn't even fully aware when the people from psych came to take her away. She cried Eve's name for hours, days even as she attempted to come to grips with what she had done. Eve didn't press charges, she just wanted a restraining order and to never see Penny ever again. Penny was forced though therapy and counselling to try and become a person who didn't have homicidal and suicidal thoughts. It was a slow recovery process, but Penny got there in the end. She moved away and started a new internship at Dillard. She was a couple of years older than the new residents but she didn't care. The new interns were nice and for the first time in her life Penny felt as though she had friends and a life and a job that wasn't making her want to have a heart attack. She barely thought about Eve, she'd be lying if she said she never thought about Eve, but she was glad that there were no homicidal thoughts associated about thinking about Eve. She truly thought that was all behind her.


PRESENT

She really did think it was all behind her. She was a completely different person to the one she was back then. But now as she looked at the smashed picture of her and Calliope, Penny felt the old thoughts creep back into her head. She shook her head, trying to get rid of them. It felt like a disease was beginning to take over her body. She cried out as If she was in pain.

Penny had to get her revenge. She didn't know how to or why she had to, all she knew that these thoughts were consuming her once again. She couldn't help but listen. It was like committing an act of revenge would actually make her better.

A new thought entered Penny's mind, her thin lips twisted into an evil smile. She knew what to do after all.