I don't know if it was the alcohol, the weed, or the fact that my best friend had just been making out with the guy of my dreams right in front of me but I turned around and crashed my lips on Harry. He was shocked at first but it didn't take him long until he responded back. He kissed me back with so much passion and I'm not gonna lie it turned me on.

I knew that Zayn was watching because I could clearly feel the glare that he was giving me. When we finally pulled away Harry gave me a smirk and I smiled at him. I heard someone clear their throat and I turned to both Alexis and Zayn. Alexis had a huge grin on her face while Zayn was frowning.

" So are you guys, like together?" Alexis said breaking to silence.

" Yeah, since Tuesday." Harry stated.

" Oh my god. That's brilliant!" She exclaimed. " We can go on double dates now! Isn't this great babe?" She asked Zayn who just nodded. Just hearing her call him babe made me sick and I haven't even finished my first beer.

" Look I think I'm gonna go use the loo. I'll be back in a minute." I said turning on my heel and walking towards the bathroom.

" I'll go with you!" Alexis shouted after me causing me to roll my eyes and stop to wait for her.

" So you and Harry?" She giggled.

" Yup." I answered as we approached the bathroom.

" This is going to be so much fun. Maybe we could all go out to dinner together! Omg this is great. I just can't believe it..." She continued talking but I tried my best to tune her out. I stared into space waiting for the line to move and nodded my head every now.

"... Oh and what if we got pregnant at the same time like in the movie Bride Wars. I mean Zayn and I, well we already did it. " She blushed and I immediately snapped out of my trance.

" What do you mean did it? Like you shagged him?" I asked and my heart sunk to the ground when she nodded her head.

" It was on our three month anniversary. " She explained.

" Alexis, you've only been going out with him for three months! You should have waited longer!" I shouted at her and she frowned. She seemed a little taken aback at me yelling at her, but soon became angry.

" You shouldn't even be talking. You're the one who hooked up with Michael after two weeks!" She raised her voice at me and her words stung. She knew how I felt about him, she knew everything that had happened with and she brought him up? The person who was in the bathroom came out and I shook my head at Alexis.

" That's really low, even for you Alexis." I said before slamming the door in her face. I couldn't hold it any longer the tears began to pour and once that they started I couldn't stop.

I wasn't crying because of the fact that my best friend was going out with the one guy I can't get out of my head, or the fact that my best friend just called me a whore. It was more of the fact that all of this had happened to me in less than a week.

Why can't it be me who calls Zayn " Babe."? Or the one who holds his hand when we go out? Or the one I call mine? I went to church every Sunday, I never hurt anyone, so then why did this happen to me? Out of all the people in the world it happened to me.

Once all the water works finished I wiped the tears away and stared at the mirror. I wasn't going to let this ruin my day. I've done enough moping around and I need to get my shit straight. I re-applied my make up, took one last glance at myself in the mirror and opened the door to see Alexis standing there.

" Amy, I'm so sorry. I didn't mean anything." She began but I didn't even look at her.

" Save it Alexis. You know you meant it." I brushed past her and walked back into the living room, where I found Harry and Zayn chatting. They looked up at me and stopped talking.

" Amy have you been crying?" Harry asked worried. I shook my head but I knew he didn't believe me.

" Could I talk to Zayn really quickly?" I said and both of them giving me a puzzled look.

They both looked at each other and then shrugged. Zayn got up and we made our way past all the people on the dance floor. We went outside and sat down at a table by the pool.

" What's on your mind?" Zayn asked for the first time without being rude or obnoxious

" Zayn I don't want to-" I started.

" Don't say it. " He whispered.

" Zayn I can't keep doing this. We're not even together and I still have to lie to Harry and Alexis. "

" Why?" He spoke quietly and looked at me frowning. And a tear streamed down his face, causing the tears to reappear in my eyes.

" Why? Maybe because you happen to be going out with my best friend!" I said not looking at him, I just knew that I saw him crying I would do something stupid.

" I'll break up with her and you can break up with Harry and we can finally be together." I smiled at how naïve he was being.

" It's not that easy and you know it." I replied.

" Yes it is! You're just making it seem so difficult!" He began to raise his voice and I sighed.

" I'm not making it difficult, it is difficult. Which is why I don't ever want to speak with you or see you ever again. "

" Amy don't do this." Zayn said sternly.

" I have to or else, you will never give Alexis the chance she deserves and I will never be able to be fully happy with Harry. I've never seen her this happy." I shook my head and looked down at my hands.

" Amy, please. I can't lose you. " He begged which only caused my tears to well up in my eyes.

" You can't lose, what you never had." I knew my words were harsh, but if I didn't act like this he would never leave me even if we never were together. He sighed in frustration, slammed his fist against the table we were sitting at before getting up and leaving me there by myself in my own thoughts.

I got up, blinked the tears away and made my way back inside. When I got back to the living room Zayn and Alexis weren't there anymore. It was just Harry and Niall.

" What happened? Zayn came back inside and was furious. " Harry said looking up at me.

" Nothing I gave him the talk about him and Alexis being together and he got mad or something. " I lied and he nodded.

" Enough of this. Let's go dance." I said grabbing his hand and lead him onto the dance floor. I placed his hands in my hips and we began to sway to the beat of the music. Tonight I wanted to forget everything and that was exactly what I was gonna do.