"I hate living without you
Dead wrong to ever doubt you
But my demons lay in waiting
Tempting me away
Oh how I adore you
Oh how I thirst for you
Oh how I need you
Comatose..
I'll never wake up without an overdose of you." - "Comatose" : Skillet.
Christian's POV
Her voice came like music to my ears.
"Christian?" She whispered.
I closed my eyes. Elena. Sweet Elena.
"I've missed you.." She confessed quietly.
I smiled. "Have you?" Here was me, playing the dick again.
I should have known something was up. I hadn't been able to get her out of my head.
I got out of bed and padded into the lounge. Mrs Jones had went to bed and the place was immaculate. I was grateful.
"Christian? Did you hear me?"
I cleared my throat, "Sorry?"
"I said...we should get together some time." She giggled. I smirked. God yes.
Ana didn't even cross my mind until I agreed and hung up.
-
I stared out the window. The view was different. Completely different.
"Okay..so how about this?" Kate emerged from her bedroom wearing a different styled and coloured dress. I turned and nodded.
She sighed and scowled at me.
"Kate, I don't care. You look great in every one of them." I mumbled, turning back to the window.
She growled, "I'll go ask Ana." She stomped away, leaving me rolling my eyes and agitated.
Ana came out of her room with Kate beside her. She didn't even look in my direction. Bitch. It's not like I did anything bad to her.
Kate slammed her bedroom door and Ana sat down at the breakfast bar in the kitchen.
I moved to join her. She picked at the black nail polish on her nails and sighed.
I smiled, "You okay?" I asked. She looked stressed, upset, angry.
She nodded, "Yeah..I'm just tired..of Kate." She told me, leaning back in the seat. I nodded. I knew how that felt.
"How's it going with you two?" She asked quietly.
I shrugged, "Good. My parents really liked her. My brother really liked her." I chuckled.
Her face fell. I think she was expecting something bad. Like, its going shit, my parents hate her and I can't stand her.
I looked down. We hadn't really spoken since she confessed her love for me and the tension between us was growing.
"I better get ready for work." She muttered, standing up. As she moved to go by me, I grabbed her hand.
She looked down at me. I smiled and looked into her eyes, "She's got nothing on you." I whispered, watching the slow blush form on her flawless fucking cheeks.
I forgot what she felt like.
I forgot what she tasted like.
I forgot how she kissed.
I forgot how she touched.
Touching her now made it all rush back. I looked up, watching her pink cheeks redden slightly as she rode faster ontop of me.
Her nails left little cresent shapes on my chest, she broke the skin slightly but it didn't bother me.
She was close. I was close. We came together. Relishing in the feeling of it.
She collapsed ontop of me, breathing heavily.
Elena. My sweet, sweet Elena.
"I missed you." She breathed, kissing my chest.
I knew. I really knew. I missed her too. I smiled and stroked her back softly, kissed her forehead, closed my eyes.
Dick. I was such a fucking dick.
-
"Kate is a lovely girl, Christian." My mother poured me coffee and sat opposite me in the kitchen.
I nodded and smiled, keeping up the pretense, "I know." I replied.
She took a sip of her lemon tea and smiled, "Do you love her?"
I almost choked. There was only one woman I loved. Only one.
"It's still a bit early to start throwing that word around, Mom." I muttered coldly.
She recognised the tone and said nothing more on the matter. She changed the subject to Mia and Elliot and how my dad was never around when needed.
I shrugged now and again. I couldn't give a shit. I had my own worries.
"It's heading for a divorce." She whispered sadly.
I sat my mug down. I didn't expect that. Not one fucking bit.
"Mom..." I started but she shook her head and smiled.
"It's fine. I just...I just don't know who he is anymore Christian." She shrugged sadly and took another sip of her tea.
I had been so wrapped up in my own little world with my own little problems, I had forgotten the people who mattered most.
I had neglected my duties as a brother and as a son.
Dick. Such a fucking dick.
"Maybe you should try counselling." I suggested. It was worth a try.
She made a face. My mother didn't like that idea, "I don't know if your father would go for that. You know what he's like."
I nodded and finished off my coffee. I did know what he was like. He was like me. Only older, more mature and a hell of a lot more loyal.
"Kate, I don't fucking care!" I couldn't do it anymore. I couldn't sit and listen to her babble about her family. About her work, about her friends. It was doing my head in.
Her eyes widened and tears started pooling. Dick. Such a fucking dick.
"I'm...I'm sorry." She whispered.
I sighed. Shook my head and sighed. I put my arm around her and brought her to my chest, "No. I'm sorry." I mumbled, "I shouldn't have snapped like that."I kissed the top of her head and closed my eyes. I wasn't sorry. I didn't give a shit. At least not about her.
She went to bed. She fell fast asleep.
I went to Ana.
I lay down beside her, watching her sleep. God, she was a fucking angel!
She took a deep breath and stretched, feeling me near. She turned over, her chest to my chest and opened her eyes. Her beautiful blue eyes.
"What are you doing?" She whispered sleepily. So fucking cute.
I smiled, traced her jawline softly and kissed her forehead, "I couldn't sleep. I didn't know you were sleeping otherwise I wouldn't have came in." I whispered back.
She shook her head and smiled. I could feel her blush under my hand.
I couldn't stop myself. My lips touched her delicate, soft ones. She pulled back as soon as we made contact.
"You're with Kate." She stated.
I smiled, "What if I told you I didn't want to be?" I asked quietly.
She bit her lip, came closer. Closer. Closer.
And her lips found mine.
Over breakfast, little conversation was made.
Ana kept her eyes on her Lucky Charms. Kate kept her eyes on her coffee and I kept my eyes on Ana.
We kissed last night. Not a major thing. But to her it was. To me it was.
I loved her. With every fibre of my being, I loved her. With every breath I took, I loved her. I was in too deep.
I should be emotionally cut off. I should be staying away. I should be doing what's right. But I wasn't.
Kate was in my head. Elena and Ana shared my heart.
Again, I'm a dick. A complete fucking dick. I deserved to be put down.
Kate went off to shower, leaving me and Ana. Alone.
I smiled and watched her place her bowl in the sink. She looked at me for the first time all morning.
"What happened last night..." She began, clearing her throat, "It..it shouldn't have happened."
I chuckled, "It's not like we slept together, Ana."
What I said took her by surprise. Her eyes clouded over and she nodded weakly.
I inwardly groaned. Stop being a dick, dick.
I stood up, walked over to her and took her hand in mine, "What happened last night should have happened last night." I whispered softly.
She looked up at me. She was about to speak but I silenced her with a gentle kiss.
