You Can't Love Someone You Don't Trust

Chapter 6

Clare's POV:

I didn't understand how these people could mistake me for their child. I mean come on its not even possible for me to look anything like this Clare. I think that's what they said her name is. I don't know, all I know is that I'm in a hospital bed with a head injury, with people confusing me with their daughter, while my parents are no where to be found, and I can't go to Eli's because of the fight that we had. I didn't know what I was going to do. Where am I supposed to go? Among the mists of my thoughts Doctor Johnson came into my room to talk to me.

Doctor Johnson-"Hi, how are you feeling?"

Me-"I'm ok, just a little confused."

Doctor Johnson-"That is perfectly normal, what are you confused about?" I didn't really want to tell him all my problems but I figured he might be able to help me.

Me-"Just about what I'm going to go when you release me from here. I can't go to Eli's because of our fight, and I can't just go home with those people out there who think I'm their daughter."

Doctor Johnson-"Well, actually you will go home with them."

Me-"Whoa, hold on a second. You expect me to go home with complete strangers just because they claim that I'm their kid? You can't be serious."

Doctor Johnson-"Well, it's not just that they think you're their kid, it's because you are."

Me-"What do you mean I am? How do you know?"

Doctor Johnson-"Because they showed me a picture of their daughter."

Me-"And, your point is?"

Doctor Johnson-"My point is that you look just like her."

Me-"What do you mean I look just like her?" When I asked him that he got up from the chair that he was sitting in a walked out of the room. He came back a few minutes later with what looked like a mirror. He walked over to me and stood there for a second before continuing.

Doctor Johnson-"This might come as a shock." I didn't understand what he meant. He just stood there for a moment before slowly turning the mirror to where I could see my reflection. When I saw the person staring back at me I was in shock. This wasn't me, how could it be? This didn't look anything like me. In the place where my long black hair used to be was short curly autumn hair that wasn't mine. My dead colorless face was replaced with flawless skin and red flushed cheeks. My thin lips where replaced with full baby pink ones. And finally my eyeliner smudged brown eyes where gone. In their place there were makeup free big blue eyes. I didn't understand. Why didn't I look like myself? This wasn't me. How could it be? Then ever so slowly Doctor Johnson pulled what looked like a picture out of his pocket.

Doctor Johnson-"This is the picture of Clare."

When he showed it to me my heart stopped. I looked exactly like Clare. Everything was identical. I couldn't believe it. This was impossible. I was speechless. Who was this Clare girl? Why was every one talking about her? And why did Eli call me by her name earlier? I hadn't picked up on it earlier, but now I did. Did he know this Clare girl? He must if he called me by her name. How did he know her? Why, was a better question.

Me-"I want to speak to Eli."

Doctor Johnson-"Okay, let me just go and get him."

Then the doctor left the room. He was gone for an awfully long time. I was getting really impatient. I laid my head back against my pillow and before I knew it I drifted off to sleep.

Eli's POV:

I woke up lying in a hospital bed. I guess the doctors decided to put me in there since I had passed out. I walked out into the waiting room to find Adam gone. He probably went to the cafeteria to get something to eat. My stomach growled at the thought of food, I figured I needed to eat something, seeing as how I hadn't ate anything all day long. It was about 1:45 in the morning, there wasn't anyone in the waiting room, and most of the staff was sitting around talking or playing card games, while the rest of them came and went with something to do. It was a little chilly so I grabbed my jacket and slid it on. I walked in the direction of the cafeteria, seeing I knew where it was really well because this was the hospital where they brought Julia when she died. Even though I didn't want to eat then, my mother had forced me to, by saying that I needed the food to survive. Oh her and her convincing ways. So I fumbled through the halls half asleep and half awake. When I reached the cafeteria there weren't that many people in there. And few here and there, most of them reading the newspaper, or deep in thought while drinking what looked like coffee, or tea. I scanned the area then I found Adam. He was sitting at a table by himself. I walked through the line to get my food. There were so many choices I couldn't decide. I ended up getting a hamburger, some fries, some fresh fruit and a coke. I paid and went over to where Adam was sitting. It was kind of weird between us ever since I saw him kiss Clare and saw her straddling him on her bedroom floor. It was especially weird when I thought for a second that my best friend would even do that to me. By thinking that, I had doubted his trust, and that had hurt his feelings.

Me-'Hey, do you mind if I sit with you?"

Adam-"No, not at all. I don't see why you even needed to ask." I sat down and looked at him sheepishly.

Me-"Well, ever since I doubted your trust by thinking that you would hurt me because you wanted to be with Clare, things have been a little weird. And I doubted you when I walked in on Clare straddling you, and you told me that you two were just wrestling. I should have believed you and I'm sorry."

Adam-"Eli, you have nothing to be sorry for. I understand completely what you were thinking. I mean you did see us kissing and then you saw her straddling me. Anyone would of thought the same thing. Not just you. And besides you've already had one person that you loved taken away from you, I understand that you would be defensive, and paranoid."

Me-"I know but still. I never should have doubted you. I should of trusted you when you told me the truth." I'm really sorry."

Adam-"Dude I forgave you the second after you doubted me. We are best friends and nothing is going to change that. Oh and just because you're over protective and worried about Clare all the time, that doesn't mean that you have to let your appearance go, I mean come one man you're hurting my eyes." He was joking and punched my arm. I was glad to know that we were cool. I don't know what I would do without Adam.

Me-"Thanks, but there is something I have to tell you."

Adam-"What is it?"

Me-"It's about Clare."

Adam-"What! Is she ok?"

Me-"Whoa calm down, she's fine. She's just not herself."

Adam-"Gosh Eli, give me a heart attack why don't you, and besides I'm sure she'll be fine. I mean you wouldn't be your self if you were in her position."

Me-"Adam, No that's not what I mean, you don't understand." She isn't herself."

Adam-"What do you mean isn't herself?"

Me-"Well, when Clare's parents went in her room to see how she was doing. She told them that they weren't her parents. She also told them that she wasn't Clare."

Adam-"Oh no. But I mean she'll just snap out of it right?"

Me-"Well, that's not all. She thinks she's someone else."

Adam-" Someone else?"

Me-"Yeah, she thinks she's Julia."

Adam-"OMG What? How can she think that she's Julia? She never even met her before."

Me-'I know, I don't get it and neither do the doctors."

Adam-"What did they say?"

Me-"Well, I talked to Doctor Johnson, he told me that this was a very serious case, and that it was really rare. They've never seen anything like it. He doesn't understand how she can think She's someone that she never even met."

Adam-"OMG, What are they going to do?"

Me-"There is nothing that they can really do except wait."

Adam-"How long will that take?"

Me-"They have no idea. Doctor Johnson told me that this could go on forever, or it could only last a few weeks, it just depends how bad the condition is. And the bad thing is that they can't continue with the surgery until the swelling in her head goes down."

Adam-"How long will it take for that to happen?"

Me-"A few weeks, but only them can they go in and see how much damage is done."

Adam-"That's terrible."

Me-'Yeah, I just hope she snaps out of it quickly, I miss Clare."

Adam-"Me to. So have you talked to her?"

Me-"No, not since she had me thrown out of her room. And as far as she's concerned she never wants to see me again."

Adam-"Don't say that, Clare loves you."

Me-"Yeah I know, but that's not Clare in that room, its Julia."

Adam-"Oh, then why is she mad at you?"

Me-"Well, do you remember how I told you Julia died?"

Adam-"yeah."

Me-"Well, she got hit by the car because we had gotten in a fight, that's the reason she got upset and rode off in the night on her bike."

Adam-"yeah I remember."

Me-"Well, with what has happened, her thinking that she's Julia and all, I'm guessing that she thinks that after we had our fight instead of her dying, she thinks that she just woke up in the hospital hurt. They only thing that I can't figure out is that Clare never met Julia so how is it possible for her to think that she's Julia?"

Adam-"I have no idea. All I know is that this isn't right and I want Clare back to her old normal self."

Me-"Yeah, you have no idea how much I want her back. I feel so bad for what I did and now she isn't herself so I can't even apologize. Hell, I can't even go anywhere near her, because if I do she freaks out and has me removed from her presence. So I don't know what to do. If I could just have one chance to talk to her about all this without her freaking out."

Adam-"I know. I really feel for you. Maybe you should give her time to calm down and come to her senses."

Me-"Yeah, I think that's for the best."

Adam-"Sorry man, but that may be your only shot. Number one, she is really pissed off at you. Number two, we have no idea how long this whole "I'm not Clare, I'm Julia" is going to last. And finally number three, you don't want her to permanently hate you."

Me-"Yeah, your so right."

After that we pretty much ate in silence. I ate my entire hamburger and almost all my fries. I drunk my coke, and I only ate my apple because I love apples. After that we got up and walked back up to the waiting room to wait some more. There was no way I was going to leave her here all by herself. I just couldn't bring myself to leave. After all, this was my entire fault and I loved her more than life itself. And nothing in the world was going to stop me from being here, and always being there for her. Nothing. So when we got back to the waiting room Doctor Johnson walked over to me.

Doctor Johnson-"Mr. Goldsworthy, how are you feeling?"

Me-"I'm feeling much better now that I ate something."

Doctor Johnson-"Well, when you where passed out Clare, or Julia, asked to speak with you but when I came to your room you were still asleep and when I went back to her room to tell her that you were sleeping she was asleep. And I really didn't want to wake you or her. You both looked so tired and so peaceful. But anyways she is awake now and she wants to talk to you."

Me-"Oh really? Okay then."

I got up and followed him into the room where Clare/Julia was.