My heartbeat beats me senselessly
Why's everything got to be so intense with me?
I'm trying to handle all this unpredictability
In all probability
It's a long shot, but I say why not?
If I say forget, I know that I'll regret it
It's a long shot just to beat these odds
The chance is we won't make it
But I know if I don't take it, there's no chance
'Cause you're the best I got
So take a long shot
Long Shot by Kelly Clarkson
Disclaimer: I don't own The Vampire Diaries, I just like playing with the characters :]
A/N: Okay, so I thought the song was kinda fitting since Elena would be taking a long shot on Damon xP And, Kill Or Be Killed, SO much went on! My mind was blown when Mason and Katherine made out, did not see that one coming AT ALL! Getting back to the story…after all your wonderful comments, I started working on this chapter right away, so I hope you guys like it :] xoxo, Avril
Chapter Seven: Hold Me Tight
Elena felt watched the entire time she was at the dinner table. Every time she'd look up to see if those ice blue eyes she felt burning into her were looking at her, he was always looking in another direction. And whenever she looked away, she felt those eyes on her again. Other than that, it was a fun dinner, Mason was telling Alaric all these old stories about Jenna back in high school, Caroline was eating as if she was going to get sent to death row, and Elena was surprised by Jeremy and Damon actually talking and laughing.
"Elena, why so quiet?" Caroline asked and took a sip of her drink and Elena felt Damon's eyes on her again
"I don't know" Elena said "Just…nothing to talk about I guess"
"Okay…" Caroline sighed and saw Damon starring at Elena and when Elena looked up, Damon looked away "God, you two are so-"
"Caroline" Elena said and glared at her
"Okay, okay, keeping mouth shut" Caroline sighed and started eating again
Elena was in the kitchen, throwing away the rest of her food that was on her plate and putting it in the sink, when she turned around again, Damon was standing right behind her.
"What Damon?" Elena asked, trying not to sound harsh, but in the end she sounded pissed off
"What has you so…angry?" Damon asked and put his plate in the sink once Elena moved out of the way
"Nothing, sorry" Elena sighed
"I just thought you were hiding out in here from a drunken Jenna and Guitar Hero" Damon said
"Now that I know that, I think I am hiding" Elena said
"Wise choice" Damon sighed
"So your not gonna go get Jenna even more drunk?" Elena asked
"I want her to like me, not puke on me" Damon sighed
"Good point" Elena said "…Why did you keep looking at me while we were eating?" Elena asked
"I have no idea what you're talking about" Damon said
"Damon" Elena said "I know you were looking"
"So, what if I was?" Damon asked
"Why were you?" Elena asked
"…I told you…you look beautiful today" Damon said
"…Thanks…again" Elena said
Damon gave a small nod in acknowledgment and started to walk out of the kitchen, deciding he'd rather see a drunken Jenna than deal with an awkward moment with Elena.
"Damon" Elena said, not looking at him but hoping he would turn around, he did
"Yeah?" Damon asked facing her and noticing she wasn't looking back
"That kiss…yesterday night" Elena sighed and tried to think of what to say "…I know it was a mistake" Elena said and looked at Damon and visibly saw his heart breaking in his eyes "But," She said and she saw hope spark up in his eyes again "…to me, it meant something"
"…Like what?" Damon asked
"…I still haven't figured that out yet" Elena sighed and Damon walked towards her now "All I know is…" Elena was starting to trip over her own words now and her mind couldn't process any words to say how she felt
"Hey, Elena!" Jeremy's voice rang through the kitchen
Elena turned to face him and she felt herself blushing again, she was really getting tired of blushing every time she was with Damon making it obvious to everyone about how she felt about him.
"Yeah?" She asked
"You gonna play Guitar Hero? You at least have to watch Jenna, it's hilarious" Jeremy said with a smile plastered on his face "Unless I'm…interrupting something here?"
"No, you're fine" Elena said too quickly "I'll just watch"
"Okay" Jeremy said and walked out of the kitchen
Elena started walking away from Damon who was left standing there wishing that Jeremy never walked in so Elena would say what she wanted to say. In a moment of brief confidence, Elena stopped and turned around to face Damon, she finally knew what she wanted to say.
"Damon, All I know from that kiss is, that it felt…right" Elena said "Like…I know this sounds incredibly stupid…but like I was supposed to kiss you. Like I…belonged there" Elena said and as soon as she said that, turned away and walked into the living room, trying to distract herself by watching a drunken Jenna play Guitar Hero.
Elena walked over to Caroline, knowing that the distraction wasn't working, and she really needed to talk to Stefan about their relationship after last night and what she just said to Damon who was back in the room now. Knowing Damon would hear her, and not wanting to really give him the wrong idea, Elena took out her cell phone and texted it to Caroline instead. She wanted to see if Caroline would go with her to the Boarding House so she could talk to Stefan. She didn't want to go alone and she wanted a friend there with her.
Caroline looked up at her and nodded and got up off the couch and walked into the kitchen with Elena to grab her car keys. Without a word as they passed by Damon and everyone else in the living room, they head for the front door.
"Where are you two going?" Alaric piped up and Caroline and Elena froze at the front door with all eyes on them except for Jenna who was still playing
"To…" Caroline said trying to come up with something
"To go for a walk, Caroline needs some fresh air" Elena said
"Right" Caroline agreed
"Okay, be careful, it'll be getting dark soon" Alaric said
"We'll be right back" Elena said and walked out the door and to Caroline's car
"We should really think of excuses before we do stuff like that" Caroline sighed
"Probably" Elena said and got into the passenger side of Caroline's car
Elena and Caroline walked into the Boarding House together. Elena noticed that Caroline looked timid and scared, as if she knew something was in the house that would hurt her.
"Stefan?" Elena said
"In here" Stefan said
Once Caroline heard that, she visibly relaxed. Elena walked into the living room where he was drinking a glass of blood.
"Is that human blood Stefan?" Elena asked
"Yes" Stefan sighed
"Stefan, you know what that stuff does to you" Elena said worriedly
"I know, and I really don't care right now Elena" Stefan sighed and looked up at her
"…Stefan…if you're going to keep drinking that…I can't be with you anymore" Elena said
"Fine. I already knew you were going to dump me anyway when I saw you and Damon together last night" Stefan said
"Stefan, your being an ass. That's the blood talking" Elena said
"Just…can we deal with this later Elena?" Stefan asked "I've had to deal with Katherine all day" Stefan sighed
"Katherine?" Elena asked "…Fine, I'll talk to you at the grill later" Elena sighed
"Fine" Stefan said
"Come on Caroline" Elena sighed and dragged Caroline out of there
Caroline felt bad for Elena that Stefan was back on the human blood, Caroline heard stories about how Stefan acted on human blood from Elena, and from what she could tell just now, he was a real ass when on human blood.
"Well…that sucked" Caroline sighed as she got back into her car with Elena
"Your telling me" Elena sighed
"So, why was this whole thing a secret from Damon again?" Caroline asked
"Because if I told him I was going to go see Stefan, he would think something completely different" Elena said
"Ha! You care about Damon!" Caroline said happily, finally getting Elena to admit some feelings for Damon, even if she didn't directly say it
"…Maybe I do" Elena sighed "But, I don't…know what to do"
"What do you mean?" Caroline asked
"I mean, I know me and Stefan are breaking up, or are broken up already…I don't really know from that conversation" Elena sighed "But…I don't want to just…go straight into a relationship with Damon, if that makes sense"
"…It does" Caroline said thinking about it "So, if you don't want that…then what do you want with Damon that is making you break up with Stefan?"
"…I don't know, that's the problem" Elena said
"Well, I hope you do know right now' Caroline said
"Why?" Elena asked
"Because he's walking up to the car right now" Caroline said and Damon appeared right out Elena's window
Caroline rolled down the window for Damon and she could see Elena's shocked expression.
"Fresh air, huh?" Damon asked
"Damon" Elena said and opened the car door and got out of the car to talk to Damon
"Look I get it, the kiss meant something but you still love Stefan, I've heard it before, I'm used to it" Damon said
Elena didn't say a word, she just hugged Damon, even though he didn't hug back. She finally looked up at him and saw hurt in his eyes, and she needed to say something.
"…I came here to break up with Stefan" Elena said
"…What?" Damon asked shocked
"…I can't be Katherine…I won't be Katherine" Elena sighed
"You're not Katherine" Damon said and finally hugged Elena back "You're far from Katherine"
"Not really, I mean-"
"Katherine never had the decency to break up with one of us" Damon sighed
Elena didn't say a thing and just kept hugging Damon and he held her tightly to him. Caroline couldn't help but get a little teary eyed in her car and smile at the sweetness of the moment. After a minute, Damon and Elena finally let go of each other.
"I'll see you tomorrow" Elena said and opened the car door again
"Okay" Damon said
Elena got in the car and Damon shut the door for her once she was inside. Caroline rolled up the window and started backing out of the parking lot and noticed how Elena kept looking at Damon who was standing in the driveway looking right back at Elena.
"You guys are way too cute" Caroline squeaked, unable to hold it in anymore
"Caroline" Elena sighed
"Yeah, whatever, you're not together yet, blah, blah, blah" Caroline sighed "So, where to?"
"The grill I guess, I have to talk to Stefan still, remember?" Elena asked
"The Mystic Grill it is" Caroline said and started driving towards the Mystic Grill
