Steven was completely and inadvertently unaware of Brendan's relationship with his mother and grandmother though he was determined to find out as he sat back besides his despairing husband.

"I know you won't hurt me again Brendan; don't speak like that otherwise you end up believing it" Steven almost broke into tears himself though he could easily fight them of, he didn't want to show self-pity.

"I'm exactly like my dad Steven; you know if it wasn't for Anne" Brendan paused, as he shivered.

Thinking back to a couple of weeks ago where he almost tried to seduce Kevin Foster though luckily Anne made him see sense. He wasn't exactly in the right mind-frame when that happened and would likely of regrettably slept with Kevin.

"We wouldn't be sitting here right now" Brendan breathed, as Steven was confused though he was slowly joining up the dots.

"What do you mean?" Steven asked, not liking where this was going.

If he finds out about this almost incident then he would feel so betrayed that he even would think about finding comfort in another man's arms. Though he wasn't like Seamus in any way, Steven could mention that.

"I was thinking about seducing another man but I never went through with it, Anne reminded me how lucky I am to have you, you know and I don't know what I would have done if she hasn't been there Steven; tells you a lot about me doesn't it" Brendan breathed as he couldn't believe himself that he just told Steven something like that out of the blue.

"No, you wouldn't have done it" Steven croaked, he did feel very uneasy now.

Brendan nodded, he likely would have stopped once they got to the bedroom. Though just the thought of him even thinking about seducing someone else just upset Steven as he wished that Brendan never mentioned this now.

"I slept with the enemy as well though I think he hated it just as much as I hated it" Brendan replied, as he was almost trying to see if Steven would still want him generally even after all these confessions.

"No" Steven weakly spoke, as his tears were finally released.

He knew exactly what Brendan meant, he slept with Walker and that hurt him greatly. It makes him question what else Brendan hasn't told him.

"You asked me what my relationship with my nana and mam was like, well I took the life out of my nana" Brendan replied, Steven shook his head as he moved slightly away from him. He was shocked as he looked at him with fresh tears.

"I killed a man called Michael Cornish; Joel's step-father, he use to beat Joel as a kid you know; so we hung over the light-house; we didn't mean to kill him, just to scare him; but he fell; slipped out of our hands" Brendan paused.

Steven looked horrified.

"We removed the body, me Walker and Joel; put him in the boot and he stayed there as well even when Cheryl, my Nana and Theresa were in the car" Brendan was cut of.

"I don't want to know anymore" Steven cried, he felt so devastated at all these revelations. He had no ideal about any of them.

"Then run away" Brendan spoke, as he watched Steven just stay in the same posture, he looked frozen in shock.

"Have you always loved me?" Steven asked, wiping away tears though they kept falling down his cheek.

"Yes" Brendan replied firmly.

Of cause he has, sleeping with all those other men were just a way of blocking out his love for Steven who was 'happily' engaged to Doug at the time. Those other men meant nothing, sleeping with Walker was just for the hope of getting full control. Meant nothing more than that.

"Would you put yourself out again if I left? Would you lower yourself down again?" Steven asked, that is how he seen that. Brendan sleeping with loads of men was a way of Brendan losing some of his respect almost.

"I don't know" Brendan honestly replied, even after his father's sexual abuse, he may still find it tolerable to be touched no matter how unpleasing it might be.

Steven breathed nervously, he was worried for Brendan's safety. Might sound a bit foolish to think someone like Brendan needs protecting though after everything he has been through. He might sleep with anyone and Steven can't let that happen.

"I'm staying with you" Steven told him, as he found it in his heart to hold back onto Brendan's hand.

Brendan just looked down at Steven's hand, as it was holding onto his. He doesn't think he deserves Steven, he admitted to him of thinking about seducing another man, killing his own grandmother, sleeping with countless men (Including Walker) and killing another person. Yet Steven is still here, holding on.

"Don't do that to yourself again Brendan; even if something happens, don't let any man take you for a ride" Steven wiped away the last tear, he didn't know if he could ever trust Brendan completely again now.

...

Seamus was on the look-out for staff, as he put up a 'need staff' poster. Many of the university students were jumping at the chance. Though Sienna was the first to ask him and he told her no, insisting that he is aware of her game.

"Can I have the job?" the new student Jade asked with a small smile.

Seamus looked at her, she was pretty and seemed quirky. He nodded, he didn't need much persuading. Jade seemed nice enough and she wasn't exactly one of those students who would steal a wine bottle so he accepted.

"Yes" Seamus spoke after a few moments. Jade grinned.

She couldn't wait to tell Tilly Evans and Esther Bloom about this new job. Besides she really needs to start to impress them in hope of racy sexual favours.

"Okay; so when do I start?" Jade was very enthusiastic about the job.

"Tomorrow" Seamus told her.

...

Leanne and Doug were not exactly pleased about having to share with the whole Savage family, minus Mark. As they watched them slowly start to disrespect the fact that this house is not owned by them.

"Liberty has taken my pillow" Leanne spoke to Doug, as they were both sat in Doug's bedroom, both having a little rant about life in general.

"Well I walked into the deli today and guess what; I'm still on my own" Doug was understandably annoyed at Steven's lack of punctuality lately.

"Yeah well Ste and Brendan need to get use to married life" Leanne insisted, looking around his bedroom, avoiding his gaze now.

"Me and Ste got use to married life in work" Doug crossed his arms, he was honestly jealous and everyone around him was fully aware of this so-called hidden feeling of his.

"Oh yeah sorry" Leanne bit her top lip, though she has got to be honest. Doug does sound a bit too desperate now though she wouldn't tell him face to face.

Doug shrugged.

"Its alright just wish Ste would come back to work" Doug admitted to her, her eyes widened.

Leanne knew that Steven would never loved Doug the way he would want him to. She always known this, told Doug himself while he was still currently with Ste so she was no stranger to telling Doug the truth in the Brendan and Steven subject area.

"Ste loves Brendan though Doug; why do you keep putting yourself through this; You deserve better" Leanne tried to say, she was using the being cruel to be kind tactic.

"I don't know Leanne" Doug replied, not knowing what else to say to her surprisingly tough reply.

...

"Don't pity me Steven" Brendan spoke, as he felt Steven snuggling up to him. They were still sat on the couch.

"I love you Brendan and I want to stay with you; I'm not here out of pity" Steven replied truthfully, he wouldn't lie about something like that.

Brendan held onto him tighter, he refused to let go of him now. Steven has plenty of opportunities and reasons to leave him, yet here he stays. Though he looked less content then before.

"I don't deserve you, not really" Brendan spoke as he slid his fingers through Steven's fair hair.

"Bren, I can't sleep in the same bed as you tonight; I sleep on the couch and you can have the bed" Steven told him, still putting Brendan's needs before his own.

"I go back to mine" Brendan replied, as he untangled himself from Steven.

...