Thx so much for the reviews again, I really love them! And I love the fact that you all were kind of loathing Averic and you felt sorry for Elphaba ^.^ Thx again!
Oh yeah and first of all, I don't know all the lines in English of Wicked, sorry! I do know them in Dutch cause that's my native language haha So forgive me if it isn't the way they say it in English, I'm trying my hardest ;)
Grief. What and how do you try to express or impress that feeling? The feeling of missing someone..? After all I didn't go to class today. Galinda taught the teachers I wasn't feeling well and had to stay in bed. She also forced Boq to take notes for me. That girl really is a diva. Anyway, because I wasn't feeling "well" and didn't go to class I had time to sleep, think and read. And after I slept for some other hours I sat down in the windowsill and thought about that question. My mom died when I was three and I never really had a period of grief, I think. I was so young and I had to take care of my little sister, and now with all the things that happened I finally found myself sometime to think about everything. Still feeling ashamed of what happened the night before but with my focus on the future, ready to forget about the past. And the first thing on the list of forgetting about the past was my moms lost and the way my dad treated me. There was no need anymore to think about that. I had to look forward if I wanted to meet the Wizard and if I wanted to work for him. So grief. No I never had time for that, and I would never have the time. There will always be that one empty space in my heart where my mom was. No matter what. Then, my dad. He had been awful to me, as Galinda said when I told her about my circumstances. But I was the one that caused him all the trouble. Nessa's crippled, my moms death, all my fault. So his way of treating me was right, after all. Next point. The bullying. Well I was green so they had a reason to bully me, and that was it. It didn't bother. And then as last you had him. Fiyero. Did I love him? No of course you don't! Was the first thought that crossed my mind but what if I did love him? He certainly didn't love me back, how could he!? Nobody could love me! I was done with thinking for so far and got up. Changed into normal clothes and went to class, staying home was nothing for me. I was just in time for History, with my favourite teacher Doctor Dillamond, and Galinda wasn't there yet. Fiyero looked surprised when I walked in, 'I thought you were staying in your room today?' He whispered when I searched for my notes in my bag. 'I was done with staying there, so here I am.' The teacher came in, with his bags? He said something about the fact that Animals weren't aloud anymore to teach and I was like "what!?" but it didn't matter and it didn't really come through what happened. The next moment Doctor Dillamond was dragged away and I almost screamed to Morrible. The new teacher came in and told us about animals and Animals being caught in caches. I was worried about the Lion Cub that was caught and I felt my powers fluttering through my body. 'What are we gonna do?!' I screamed at Fiyero while I stood up to watch the other students from a distance. They were all looking fascinated by the professor and the Lion Cub. 'We?' Fiyero asked insecure. 'Somebody has to do something!' I screamed and I lost the control of my powers. 'What's happening?!' The other classmates, except from me and Fiyero, and the professor where shaking. They lost control of their body. 'I don't know! I got mad and..' I started but it only got worst. 'Don't move. And don't get mad of me!' Fiyero said and he grabbed the cache with the Lion Cub. 'Are you coming!?' He started running and I followed. Leaving our classmates and the teacher behind.
We ran to the forest behind the campus. 'Don't shake him!' I screamed after Fiyero totally out of breath. 'I'm not.' We both stopped running. 'And we can't let him lose anywhere, you know? we have to get him some place safe.' 'I know. You think I'm really stupid, don't you?' He asked and I have him a surprised look. 'Well, not really stupid.' I took over the cache with the Lion Cub. 'Why is it every time I see you you cause some kind of commotion?' He wanted to know. I let out a deep sigh. 'I don't cause commotion. I am one.' 'I'm sure about that.' 'Oh so you think I should have my mouth shut? That I don't know how much easier my life would be!? That I wanted to be this way!?...' 'Hey! Do you ever let anyone else talk?' I stared at my feet. 'No sorry...' 'Thank you.' '.. But can I say one more thing?' I raised my hand with one finger pointing up. 'You could have walked away back there.' He looked at me like I was going insane. 'So?' 'So, no matter how shallow and self absorbed you pretend to be..' 'Hey I happen to be genuinely self absorbed and deep shallow.' I shook my head. 'No you're not. Or you wouldn't be so unhappy.' I could smash my head to a wall or something right now. He looked at me with a hurt look but within seconds that changed. 'Listen, fine. If you don't want my help..' He started walking away. 'No wait, I do.' I grabbed his wrist and just like the first time this weird and totally not understandable feeling came with our touch. We faced each other and I turned away to go over to the Lion Cub. 'His heart is pounding. I didn't mean to frighting him.' Fiyero sat down next to me and I looked up. 'But what did you mean to do then?' 'You're bleeding.' 'I am?' 'He must have scratch you.' Slowly I raised my hand to touch his cheek. 'Yeah or it scratch me, or something.' He looked in my eyes and for one moment there was more than this crazy and weird friendship. 'I.. I have to go. No uh I have to get the Lion Cub safe.' He reached around me and took the cache, and he ran off. I was paralysed for a moment but just for a few seconds, after that I stood up. Wait he had to go the other way..!? 'Uh I have to go that way.' Fiyero came back with red flushed cheeks and he ran past my. I pointed out the direction with my hand before I ran after him, 'Fiyero wait!' But he was gone. And there I was, alone. I sat down underneath a tree with my bag in my lap and my head back to the tree. What did just happen? Why does this happen? Especially after last night. Oz Elphaba you shouldn't be thinking of the past anymore. Not anymore. I stood up and made my way back to campus. Swing my bag around my shoulders and looking at my fingers. Pulling sheets from my long green fingers and not watching the way I was walking. 'Miss Elphaba! Miss Elphaba!' I heard someone scream and I searched for the voice. Madame Morrible was running towards me, well running.. As far as she could run with that dress of hers. 'Madame Morrible?' It slowly started raining on my way back to the campus but I didn't really care about, the main point why I say this is cause she was dragging an umbrella with her and forced me to help it up. 'I have sensational news! I wrote to the Wizard and dearie, he wants to meet you!' 'He asked for me? Personally!?' All the other students were gapping at us. 'I know how devastated you were after what happened to Doctor Dillamond. But so you see, one door closes and another on opens!' She took an envelope out of her dress and I almost did an awful lot liking Galinda squeal. 'Oh Madame I can't thank you enough!' I let down the umbrella and hugged her. 'Be careful dearie, you mustn't get wet.' She took my arm and brought it up so the umbrella was above us again. She touched my cheek and went back to her building. This day was really.. Yeah really what? Remarkable?
So we all know what happens next, don't we ;) I also found a way to use the English lines yay haha Hope you enjoyed :) And don't worry, Elphaba her past will follow her anywhere mwhihi
Ps. This didn't really came out the way I wanted it.. Sigh.
