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DISCLAIMER: Bleach and its characters is none of mine, they belonged to Kubo Tite

SUMMARY: Still the same story but this chapter is Gin's PoV including some piece of his past which revealed why he followed Aizen.

Chapter 7-extra 2: Tadaima, Okaa-san...

I didn't have to ask to recognized him.

On one of the sunny afternoon in Seireitei, he came. The new promoted captain for the Tenth Division, the place where Rangiku served as a Vice Captain.

Rumor has it, it was said that Rangiku herself picked the young grumpy white haired kid to be her captain. Despite that, the kid obviously had the criteria for the captaincy.

And I really-really didn't have to ask to recognized him...

He is my son...

All this time I wondered about him, the kid I never visited. But suddenly he appeared before my eyes, gave his dislike aura and piercing gaze towards me. I didn't know he already knew or something else about me bothered him.

I didn't blame him tough, my appearance was enough to be the reason why he hated me, plus my suspicious behaviour nagged his senses. No wonder he was so aware of me.

Beside the relieved feeling that he was okay, it gave me another feeling 'concern'. When he appeared in this Seireitei, he crumbled my solitude, and the reason why I handed him to the old lady became so useless.

I didn't want him to get involved and hurt...

But I knew it was too late. He has became the member of Gotei 13 and I couldn't cancel my plan with Aizen-Taichou because of this. He didn't threat me or anything, he was just repeating all his plan that included my dream and of course his magic words.

"Those feeling are unneeded..."


Being his subordinate means that I have to followed everything he said or told me to do. When he told me to hurt both of my precious, I complied but deep inside my heart, the little man asked me with his playful mocking voice-I recognized as mine-asked, could you really hurt them?

He really knows ho to manipulated people...

Aah...I'm tangled...

"I believe you didn't forget anything you want, it depends on the successful of my plan..."

"O' course I didn't forget..."

"It is hurt, but after all the hurt you'll find your happiness, their happiness...I hope you'll be a good boy and be patient...," He said in his sweet voice but something told me, actually he spat his poison.

And when I realized all his plan was total destruction including all that I loved...

I couldn't come back...

The thread already a mess...

I couldn't undo it...

Despite he was a threat to my unrevealed family, I didn't even try to betray him, even my senses told me to. My loyalty to him beat all my rationale, I didn't know what happened to me...I didn't remember how I becoming Gin they know...not Gin from his past from Rukongai. He already died a long time ago.


"What's your dream?," Aizen-Taichou asked me in one of the sunny day after I killed another person that raped Rangiku.

"I...," I stared at my feet, "I just wanna live happily ever after wit' the person tha' I lov'd...," He smiled when he heard me said such a crappy line.

"I didn't know you're such a fairytale kid..."

"'S that wrong?"

"No...not at all...it's just...I mean...too simple, I expected something bigger, by the way...I'll fulfill your dream if you want to follow me..."

"'S tha' so? 'f ya say so, I'll follow ya forever even it means death"

But after all the years served under him, I learned something about his plan and my dreams scattered. There was no way anyone could save their self and there was no way Rangiku wanted to joined the army of villain, and there was my child-our child, who held the righteous like he held his own head.

All I have to do was followed the game...

And hoped that my dearest wouldn't fall and die...

I often wondered lately, stared at the Hueco Mundo dark sky from my balcony, 'Was my dream to have a happily ever after life with the person I love is a hard thing to accomplish?'

And after all the times I knew the answer...

The answer was 'YES'...


I cough hard and the blood spilled more from my mouth, dyed my white robe in stark of red. The color majority didn't come from my mouth but from the stab Aizen made with his Zanpakutou. In the end I still believed him even it means he must punished me with my life for my selfish disobedience.

I looked at the woman that held me close, I laid on her lap and respiring anything I could from the woman I love so much, her look, her scent, I want to made a good memories of her but the sudden shadow that came above me-blocked my view to the grey sky-made me diverted my eyes.

"Hitsuga...ya-kun?," I muttered his name.

He just gave me that look, the look that want more explanation of what I did. I just smiled at him and his frown went deeper. "What are you smiling at?," He scolded me.

"I've...I've been such a bad...daddy to ya, ne?"

"Stop that, I haven't confirmed you as my dad!," He looked to other side and looked so irritated.

"Haven't? ...'sn't tha' means...ya didn't close the vacancy?," I snickered but the blood kept rushing to my throat and I spat.

"Stop talking, you only shorten your live!!"

"I'll die, Ran-chan, 'coz tha's what he want'd...," In the end I still held my loyalty to the man who stabbed and intended to kill me.

"Stop that...you wont die...," She started to cry again.

"Now...now...ya such a big baby...don't cry...," I erased the trail of her tears with my tremble blood covered hand.

"But...but..."

"Ssh...," I calmed her. "Now...I'm coming home to ya...an' ya know how I hate the sad stories...don't cry please..."

When I felt her calmed down I stared her blue crystal eyes, her eyes became crystallized more because she held her tears. I stared those beauty with my half lidded open eyes and I smiled, tried to pull my teaser to her.

"Tadaima...Okaa-san...," I played my cheer playful tone. Her eyes grew wider and she couldn't hold her tears again-but at least she smiled.

As my vision grow blurred and everything began to colored in grey, I tried to say those words I couldn't tell her all this times. The words that's so hard to slipped through my lips.

"Ran-chan...I..."

To be continued~


Note:

Tadaima: it means I'm home or I'm back

Okaa-san: Literary means mother but Okaa-san alsoused by the husband to call his dear wife. And Gin's sentence belongs to the later.


A/N: Hyaa~h it's the end of the extra and I'm sorry for the mess I made, and I like the loyalty Gin has to Aizen, didn't think he would betray him in this story and Gin's death in his hand is the only thing that popping out in my head. But personally I hope he would betray Aizen in the real story.

It's kinda tiring to made the death scene 'coz I dunno it good enough or not, but I hope ya all will like it and btw, Gin couldn't say those words to her...again *sob*...(why this couple must have the tragic ending??)

please R&R!!!!! ^.^