a/n Thanks so much for the reviews! I love that you all love this too! Usually I like longer chapters, but I feel like the next part deserves a chapter of it's own. I've taken on all your advice, thanks to V269, as they partly inspired this chapter. Thanks to everyone else who reviewed and wanted Elliot to man up and go after Liv. As I have had mixed advice of bringing in/back more Stabler's, I won't at this stage, except for maybe Eli just depends on how the story progresses. Also, please let me know if you want any of the squad brought in ect. Thanks for the reads, favourites, follows and reviews :)

Elliot hears the sound of the ignition and is already out the door, praying that she'll stay and hear him out, give him the chance he doesn't really deserve. It's too late and she's already reversed out the driveway and is halfway down the street. He looks around the empty street, goes back inside and slams the door, immediately a chair goes flying across the Queens apartment. He'd done it again, Elliot Stabled had not only allowed, but had basically given Olivia Benson no other option than to walk out of his life again. It may have been her who did the walking, but it was still Elliot that let her, again.

He starts pacing around the apartment, "you selfish, son of a bitch, Elliot," he screams out loud, feeling that one vein in his forehead throb like it always does when he's angry. Not only had he left her with no explanation, no goodbye, but after everything she went through the last year, he decides to disturb the life she has built for herself, the life she had to build and rebuild time and time again without him; all because he was lonely.

Granted, Olivia didn't have to drive out here, or even listen to him, but she did. She always did, time and time again. Elliot of all people was well aware that Olivia didn't forgive or forget easily, that her trust was hard to earn but easy to break. He also know that Olivia hid behind that tough exterior. Elliot knew this more than most, and was one of the few people who managed to break it down. There was a time where instead of being in front, he was behind those walls, and he was determined to get there again, even if it took him the rest of his life, Olivia Benson would forgive and trust him again.

Elliot knew that he has loved and been in love with Olivia Benson, he's known this for sixteen years, but it never stopped him from wondering if she deserved him, or if he deserved her. Was he worthy of the love that he knew Olivia could give him? He realized far too late that she had given that love for twelve years, and in his own way he gave it back, but not in the way Olivia needed or deserved. God, he wasn't even worthy of the love Kathy had given him for more than half of his life.

Olivia deserved someone who was stable, who never left and was never going to leave. Someone who was going to make her laugh and smile. Someone who knows and accepts things about her that even she can't. Olivia needed someone who would be a good father for Noah, even though she was capable of being both for him. Someone who compliments and brings out the best in her. Was that man Elliot Stabler?

He knew in his heart of hearts that Olivia Benson was the one for him. The one that brought out the best in him, that kept him stable, but did that mean that he really deserved her? Or that she deserved to be stick with someone like Elliot, who was always too pigheaded to realize what he had with Olivia, or Kathy for that matter.

You're the longest relationship I've ever had with a Man. The memory of that conversation is still fresh in his mind. Was that her way of saying she loved him? And was he too blinded by duty and faith to see it? It was so long ago, was he too late?

He stops pacing and rubs his hands over his head and he bends down and exhales. Everyone I've ever truly loved I've lost, again he was too blinded by himself, by his ego to realize what she said, what she meant.

Once again Elliot was out the door, and he started running. The difference is, this time it was to Olivia.