Hello! I loved your reviews people! Loreena, catskid100, kittyscorponok, rainbow cupcake, pyrokinetic Axel, DorkFace and Tangerine342! Love to you!

but today i've been in a mood cause my friends went to the gay pride festival without even mentioning to me that they were going and then they just tell me about how great it was.

Some friends, ne? but yeah the end of this kinda shows my hate...you might not like it...

This is chapter 7, The 4 letter word.


He wasn't going to come.

Roxas kinda knew it inside...but part of him was hoping. He knew hoping was ridiculous but still...

The time was quarter to ten. He snuggled deeper in his covers, he though once again back to what namine had said about this new sleeping habit. The thought of actually wanting Axel to hug him was just as stupid as hoping.

He hated Axel.

So why did he accept his date?

Well, he was pretty sure just one date would prevent anymore embarrassing love confessions in the middle of the night. And to tell the truth, after serenading someone, drunk or not, he thought everyone deserved at least one date.

Axel wasn't coming, it was 5 past 10.
he knew it. He knew better then to trust in him. But even after telling himself every minute, every second, that Axel wasn't going to turn up, Roxas still cried.

He told himself he wasn't going to but his nose tingled and his eyesight blurred. It was unreasonable, crying over someone he hated. Someone who forcibly took kisses from him, played with his mind, made him cry. Someone who did these things didn't deserve him he knew it. Axel should just give up right now.

But truthfully he nearly liked someone chasing after him, sure it was a little annoying all the clinging and gropes, but it had still felt good.

Too much thinking was making his stomach ache.

"Aw...Roxy, you're not crying are you? I'm here, no need to cry..."

He shot up, pushing the boy off of his bed and wiping his tears away swiftly. !I wasn't crying!" he shouted, "What are you doing here?!"

"I'm taking you out on a date, right? I had to do my hair, so I'm late, I'm sorry..."

"I thought you would have forgotten." Roxas hid under the covers.

"But I didn't, so here I am."

Roxas stared for seconds before faltering, "Just go down s-stairs I'll be there in a few minutes, I need to get ready..."

"Aw, can't I wait here?" Axel whined.

"Be grateful, I'm even going out with you."

"Okay, okay, I'm going." Axel stepped form the room.

Sighing, Roxas kicked off his covers. Who in their right mind would let Axel in his room?

Ah, right Cloud...he definitely wasn't in his right mind. Grumbling Roxas readied himself for the day ahead. He stole a look at the mirror in the hall. His blonde locks were getting boring; maybe he should dye it or something. Red or something. That was for another day, he figured, stepping into the kitchen.

Leon was near the kettle making two cups of coffee, Cloud was nearing the end his recent book, sometimes smirking and glancing at his friend making the drink. Axel sat up straight beaming at

"Finally ready, my little chibi-fied lover?"

Cloud raised his eye brow from across the table. Roxas stared.

"I'm going back to bed."

"Aw, Roxy, come on, I didn't mean it."

"Yes, you did, just because I'm short doesn't mean you have to rub it in my face."

Axel blanked, "I thought you were mad 'cause I called you my lover." Roxas blushed beet red with realization.

"I-I was, but you said chibi first so-so I...lets just go already."

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"I didn't expect this." The two sat on the hill Roxas had his argument with Hayner two years ago.

"Expect what?" Axel looked up from where he lay on the grass.

"Just...this in general. Being here, not somewhere more...Axel-ly." Roxas sat back on his elbows.

Axel chuckled looking up at the sky, "I'm full of surprises I guess..." silence filled the air once again.

Roxas had to admit just sitting staring out onto the town was a nice way to send time, be it with Axel or anyone. Leaning back slowly he saw the bright blue sky. Nothing had changed from when he was last here. Well, he had changed loads. Flashes of memories skidded across his mind till he thought of one in particular.

"Axel, do you remember Hayner? My friend when I was younger?"

"The pissed blonde kid? Yeah a little. Why?"

"What he said, when we fought...when you were there too...made me think..." Axel turned to stare at the confusion on the boy's face.

"What about?" Axel feared the worst he remembered the venom of that boy's words. He knew Roxas remembered them just as well, maybe better than himself. It made him feel bad that Roxas might be worried by them.

"I'm paying him back for something."

"With your body?! Like a common whore?"

"Maybe I am wrong for doing this..."

"You're not, Roxas...what you do is your decision"

"You would say that, Axel." He laughed before going quiet.

"But it's true, you're not wrong." Axel defended him, "All of the kisses I took from you, you never wanted. Or like an I.O.U. sort of thing, but you're most definitely not wrong, it's like sexual abuse...but not as bad." Axel added quickly.

Roxas smiled with a pained look in his eyes. "But what if I liked it, Axel? What then?"

"You can't help who you like Roxas..."

"But I hate you...so much..." Roxas whispered.

"You keep telling yourself that, kid..."

Roxas eyes filled with tears.

"Are you crying?" Axel sighed stroking his cheek.

"Of course not, idiot..." Roxas resisted the temptation to wipe the tears away. Axel smiled again and pressed his lips softly to the corner of Roxas mouth. "...Did you just kiss me?"

"Of course not, idiot." Axel was glancing between the blonde's big blue eyes and his pink lips. What he didn't compute was Roxas' hand moving around the back of his neck to tug him back down.

"I hate you," Roxas muttered, connecting his lips with Axel's once more, Axel hungrily returned the kiss he had been denied so many times before.

"I hate...you..." Roxas gasped for air before crushing their mouths together once more.

He really did.

--

"Say ah..." Axel waved the spoon in front of Roxas' tightly closed lips. "Oh, come on, Roxas; just let me feed you this once."

"No, Axel, I'm not a child, its ice cream, I'm not retarded, I can feed myself." Roxas' grip tightened on Axel's wrist. Axel grimaced trying to steady the spoon for Roxas to take the slowly melting ice cream.

"One spoonful Roxas. That or I'll think of another punishment for you." Axel figured the threat would work.

"Try it, I'll kill you..." Roxas leaned back; Axel growled, his grip tightening on the freezing metal spoon.

"Eat this for me." His words were forced through gritted teeth.

Roxas slammed his hands on the table, his eyes furious and brow furrowed. Heads turned to the sudden noise.

"I won't."

Axel dropped the offending cutlery and stormed out leaving Roxas staring after him. It took a few seconds for Roxas to catch up.

"Axe-"

"I've had enough!" Axel cut him off, "I've tried to get closer to you, but no matter what I do, I can't stay close. You let me in for a split moment, and I think 'I've done it, maybe he could really appreciate me!' but soon after, you push me out again. WHAT THE HELL AM I MEANT TO DO?!"

He didn't care if people were staring; this was the time Roxas was actually listening to him.

"Axel?"

"No! Don't give me that blank look! I've seen too much of it from you. You, you little ray of, fucking, sunshine. Surely you've seen the way I look at you. I don't know if you notice, Roxas, but that is a look of lusting and want and-"

"I don't just want lust or want from you!" Roxas took his chance to say his part. "I never opened up to you because for the last few years, you were always trying to get in my pants! It's not what I want in a relationship."

Now they were opening up to each other.

"I have more then just feelings of lust and want for you!" Axel stepped closer.

"Then what is it? That's all I ever saw." Roxas was staring fearlessly into raging emerald eyes.

"You idiot, Sunshine!" Axel scoffed. "I hate you!"


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