Hey guys, I hope everyone is happy with their lives...Its been almost a week since I last updated, that's too long a gap. Don't you think? Anyways thanks again for the reviews, favorites and follows, since they are the reasons which keep me writing. And for taking such a long time to update here's a comparatively long chapter. Hope you guys like it.
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I don't own Victorious or Spider man.
CHAPTER 7:
Even when Sikowitz is giving us a lecture about some acting method, I don't listen to him, instead I just start to wonder if Jade is okay. She didn't even come to class today. I look at Beck he's sitting and listening to Sikowitz like nothing even happened.
His girlfriends upset and he doesn't even go to make it up to her. What kind of a boyfriend is he?
I can't take it anymore so I excuse myself that I have to go to the bathroom and get out of class to look for Jade. The hallway is empty when I get out, I look in the janitors closet, still no sign of her, don't find her in the black box theater either.
Where could she be?
Then I know there's only one place left where she would go…
The roof of the asphalt cafe. Where most of our song competitions are held. There she is sitting at the edge, her legs are crossed and her head is ducked in the gap between them. She looks so vulnerable.
"Jade?" I know I startled her a bit as she suddenly looks behind to see who it is. But turns her head again as she speaks.
"What do you want Vega?"
"Nothing I was just checking up on you, to see why you didn't come to class." I know why she didn't but I don't want her to know that I know.
"It's because I didn't feel like going, you got a problem with that Vega?
"Yes I do have a problem with that Jade…I can tell that your upset?" She doesn't say anything so I just go sit next to her. Now I can see her face, and with my excellent vision, it seems like she got even more beautiful if that's possible. But my heart sinks when I see how wretched she is.
She doesn't say anything for a few seconds and shockingly she doesn't even tell me to go fuck off. Maybe she likes being around me. After a few seconds she does speak.
"Tori?"
"Yeah?" I say.
"Why don't you hate me?" she looks at me her eyes are glistening with unshed tears.
"How do you know that I don't hate you?" I say teasingly, to try to make her mood a little better.
"Well if you did hate me, you wouldn't be sitting by my side and instead you
would be in class" She has a point.
I want to tell her that of course I don't hate you, in fact I like you so much, that it's not even funny what I would do to make those tears go away from those azure eyes which captivate me every time I look into them.
"Yeah you're right I don't hate you"
"But why don't you? All I ever do is being mean to you" must she always question whatever I do.
"Yeah you're right, but I don't know why, I can't bring myself to hate you Jade." She smiles at that. "And I know you don't hate me either because if you did you wouldn't have held my hand in the bus" I wink at her.
"Never speak of it." She clenches her teeth but I know she's not angry.
"My lips are sealed" I assure her.
After a few moments of silent I think it's time that I ask her. "So are you gonna tell me why you were so upset?"
It take's a few more seconds for Jade to murmur. "Things between me and Beck aren't that great anymore." For how long I wanted to hear that, but seeing Jade so depressed. I didn't want it to be like this.
"So why are you with him?" I know I shouldn't have said that right now but I need to know what's going on in her mind, that why she's still with Beck even after he cheated on her…presuming twice.
"It's because" I can tell she's wavering a bit, so to assure her I drag my hand and keep it over hers, she looks at our hands and grins a little.
She lets out a long breath. "It's because I don't want to feel alone, Beck's like my shield, even if 99% of Hollywood arts hate me, I will know that I still have him to turn too. I know it sounds a little selfish but aside my awesome looks and personality, I'm still human."As she speaks there's only one thing on my mind.
How could Beck cheat on such an amazing person?
"Your not alone Jade, even if 99% of Hollywood arts hates you, which by the way it doesn't, you still have that 1% of people who care about you, including me" I can see the corners of her lips tugging into a smile and that's when I know that I have further fallen for Jade West.
"So if you ever need someone or feel lonely, you need to remember that you will always have me." My hold on her hand tightens a little.
"Thank you" she says, I know I've done my job because she's smiling again.
I feel like I'm seeing her for the first time for who she really is. Now I know that under her hard exterior she still is a girl who feels lonely sometimes, even when so many people surround her, I can relate to that.
I know she's studying my brown eyes the way I am studying her blue ones. I think for a moment we just loose our selves in each other and my gaze moves from her eyes to her luscious lips. Before we even know it we're slowly leaning in…
For a kiss, which doesn't happen because the bell rings and that's when reality hits me right in the gut.
Oh my freaking God!
That's what I could tell from her expression and I know she could tell the same from mine. We quickly scramble to our feet when we realize what the fuck was about to happen. She quickly moves a few steps away from me and her eyes are wide. I didn't think my mouth could form words at the moment but it did somehow.
"Maybe we should-"
"Forget that this happened" she quickly gets to the point before me.
"Yeah…that's what I was about to say" I swear I was, but a part of me wanted to never forget. The one who was selfish and didn't care about the consequences; about kissing my friends girlfriend, no matter how screwed up their relationship is.
Both of us then just come down from the roof and part our ways for the next class, which are different.
The next classes just pass by and I don't even pay attention. I can't after what happened. If the bell hadn't rung, I think we would have…
No that can't be the case because apart from my feelings I know Jade doesn't feel that way about me.
But if she doesn't then why did she lean in for the kiss?
Oh my God,Tori stop obsessing over something so lame, it was just in the moment thing, psht, happens all the time.
Okay I know it doesn't, but what can I do about it.
First I thought that if I keep my feelings bottled up inside of me, maybe they would just go away. But after what happened today, I don't think I can live like this. I have always been an expressive person when it comes to how I feel. But with Jade, and her being with Beck, makes it hard to be open about them. So it would be best if I just keep my distance from her.
From now on I Tori Vega will only look at Jade West as a friend.
When we are in the asphalt cafe for lunch and I see Beck and Jade together again, my heart sinks. Why would she get back together with Beck? He cheated on her…maybe she's just confused. But still after what happened today.
*sigh* so much for seeing Jade only as a friend.
Thank God it's a weekend, which means we won't be seeing each other for a few days. I hope that kills the awkwardness between Jade and I. I mean seriously even right now as we're having lunch, I know she's looking at me when I'm talking to someone else. And I do the same when she isn't looking. But we don't speak to each other the whole day after that.
I go home to see that my parents and Trina are going out of town for the weekend for Trina's audition.
"Tori baby are you sure you're going to be okay? Why don't you come with us?" My mother says as she removes a strand of hair from my face, when were standing at the door as they give me their goodbyes. Their acting like they will be leaving for a year or something, my mother can be a little dramatic at times.
"She'll be okay, it's not like were leaving forever" Trina says checking herself in the front window of the house.
"I'll be fine mom" I hug her and then dad.
"Make sure to lock all the doors and don't leave the house too late at night." He kisses my temple.
"I'm not gonna leave the house too late dad"
"Oh come on you guy's its Tori, like she will go out late and party or something, and anyways she doesn't even have a license, so she can't drive anyways." why must Trina always remind me that I don't have a license.
"Shut up Trina and I'll be fine you guys don't need to worry about me" I say as they all sit in the car and dad starts the car.
"Bye honey and wish your sister good luck" my mom says.
"Bye and good luck Trina" I say rolling my eyes, she just shrugs.
And with that they leave.
Now I'm alone in this house. I sit on the sofa and switch the TV on and flip through channels; maybe some good movie will distract me. But no such luck. I turn it off and just sit there, my mind on Jade and the events that took place earlier. She's back with that cheating Jerk. Oh come on Tori Beck's your friend…
But what he did was a complete douche bag move, what's even worse is that Jade got back with him. Is she back with him because she loves him or just because the thought of having him makes her feel safe?
God my minds gonna over load on all these thoughts about Jade, this is so depressing. If only someone was here to distract me.
I try calling my friends, maybe they could come over.
Well Andre had plans with his new girlfriend, Cat had to take care of her brother's turtle and Robbie is…I don't know it's Robbie, he will take a completely different meaning and turn it into a date and Beck and Jade are completely out of the question right now.
So now what? I check the time its 9 only but it is time for some dinner. I'm sure there must be some left over's. So I go to the fridge and take out some of Yesterday's pasta, my eyes glance at the partially drunk bottle of Jack in the fridge.
No Tori, there are other ways to distract your mind from Jade. You can't become like those drunken people who love some one that they shouldn't.
But that's exactly what I'm going through, so maybe being a little tipsy is just what I need? Or not.
"What the heck" I say as I mix only a little of Jack in a glass half filled with coke and begin drinking it, first tiny sips and then large gulps, the alcohol burns my throat a little but not too much.
An hour passes and I'm not gonna lie but the alcohol has affected me a little but not in the way I wanted it too. This shit is too overrated, but I did only mix just a little alcohol.
Okay so now I'm alone and just a tiny bit drunk and I've got nothing to stop me from going back to obsessing over Jade, maybe I should just go to sleep.
So I go to my cupboard to change into my pajamas first, but then I see the black suit I wore yesterday, balled up in the cupboard drawer. I take it out and lay it on the bed. Thinking of what should I do with it? Should I just throw it away?
No, what if I need it sometime…for emergency situations?
Then I get an idea of how I should distract myself…OOOOH!..If I will wear this suit in the future than why not amend it a little?
I think for a few minutes of how I should make this a little more edgy. Something which really represents what I am. I take out a notepad and a pencil from my bag and start to draw. My drawing's not that bad. After drawing like what 10 different designs, I finally come up with the one that I'm sure would look trendy and modish.
Okay first I'm gonna need to make some foam latex, which is a very light weight type of foam and is used for making costumes. I will have to make from scratch; I have all the things I need for it. I've done this a number of times for making costumes and masks so it only takes an hour or 45 minutes to make it.
When I'm done with that I dye the foam latex a bright red color. Now for the tricky part, that is sticking the foam latex on the costume. I apply super glue on the foam latex and start sticking it on the unitard.
I stick them in such a way that they form a web like structure in a V. The 'web' design ends just below the belly button area of the body leaving the rest plain black. I leave space in the middle of the webs. Where I make medium sized spider that has two legs which end at the collar bone and the other two at the area just below my chest. When I've done the front I move to the back. I make the same spider but larger, which starts at the back of my neck and ends at my lower back.
When the suit is complete I leave it to dry and move to the mask. I do the same web design thing using the remaining foam latex and rim the white material covering the eye part red.
This takes me about 2 and half hours to complete the whole outfit and when I'm done I look at it, proud of what I just created, this is the best costume I've created till now.
I guess I'm more creative when I'm drunk. Ha-ha!
I look at the time, its 11:30…
"Its show time" I say out loud, eeep! I'm so excited.
Haha so it turns out Tori is a little drunk when she makes the spider suit. LOL. Something you weren't expecting. But just to be clear she's not that drunk, meaning she can act like a normal person, but with a little more fun.
So I hope you guys enjoyed the chapter including the Jori stuff. Please don't forget to review. Bye and I hope you all have a great day:D
