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"Abel! Come on bud let's get a move on." I yelled at Abel from the kitchen

It had been a few weeks since the incident at Gemma's. I hadn't seen Tig or Dawn since then and I had re connected with Derek. I was currently watching Abel and Thomas for Jax and Tara, who left for their little get away a couple days ago. I had Thomas bouncing on my side and I grabbed the bottle that had just finished warming. Abel's little foot steps came bounding into the kitchen and straight to his chair where his diner was. "Yum!" He exclaimed as he devoured his food

I sat down beside him, cradling Thomas in my arms and feeding him his bottle. I smiled as I watched Abel, "Auntie, can we go ride your horsies tomorrow?" He asked as he stuffed his face with his spoon hanging from his lips

"But, your mom and dad will be home tomorrow, don't you want to stay here and wait for them?" I asked amused

He started to pout slightly and I knew he wanted to see his parents but, wanted to see my horses to. I adjusted my weight and leaned in towards him, placing my free hand under his chin, tilting it to face me. "How about this, when mommy calls tonight we will ask her together and if she is okay with it then we will go?" I suggested

His eyes lit up with excitement and he went back to eating his food. RING RING I sat back in the chair and adjusted Thomas so I could reach my phone that was in my pocket. I slide my finger across the screen and answered the phone, "Hello?"

"Hey hun." it was Derek

"Whats going on?" I asked out of curiosity, he was suppose to be here an hour ago

"I cant make it tonight, something is wrong with the horses and I don't want to leave them here on their own."

I sighed but knew he was just acting out of kindness. "Okay, we will see you tomorrow then. Depending on Tara, I may bring Abel and Thomas over."

"Okay well let me know, I work during the late morning tomorrow."

We said our goodbyes and Abel had finished eating. Thomas was getting fussy and started to shoved his bottle away. I place the bottle on the table and placed Thomas on my hip as I stood up. I reached forward grabbing Abel's plate and walked over to the sink. The whole time I was doing this, Abel kept watching me and when I left the table he followed me to the sink. I knew he wanted some ice cream and I found it even more amusing that he was looking at his feet and picking at his fingers. I reached into the freezer and unwrapped the popsicle, then I bent down so I was at his level and placed Thomas on my knee. Abel reached forward to grab the popsicle but, I pulled it back slightly. "What do you say?"

He seemed to think about this before he smiled brightly at me and said, "Please?"

I let out a small laugh and gave him the popsicle. When the popsicle left my fingers the doorbell rang and my eyebrows drew together with confusion. No one was suppose to be here anymore, I ruffled Abel's hair and stood up, "Go watch some cartoons buddy."

I followed him to the living room and waited for him to be situated before I answered the door. I peaked through the door first and when I saw it was just Tig holding a tray of something, I opened the door fully. "What are you doing here Tig?" I asked slightly annoyed

"Gemma sent me with some supper for the boys." he replied

"I already fed them, does she think I don't know how to cook?" I asked in all seriousness

"It's not that she doesn't think that you can't cook she apparently doesn't trust what Tara has here for the kids. You know how Gem is, you can't say no to that woman."

"You cant say no to her, I have no problem saying no to her." I teased with an easy going smile on my face

That seemed to break some of the tension between us but, he kept looking away from me and I started to get uncomfortable holding a fussy Thomas in my arms. I opened the door wider and motioned for him to come in. He gave me a smile before he walked in and went straight to the kitchen. I went into the living room and placed Thomas in his jumper before I stood up and went into the kitchen doorway so, that I could keep an eye on the kids but still able to talk to Tig. Tig was standing at the table sitting down, he looked completely drained "Dawn still here?" I asked knowingly

"Yes."

"Why is she here this time?"

"I don't know something about her mother and Fawn treating her unfairly and some boy is bugging her. She thought an escape would be better than staying there."

I raised my eyebrow, if there was one thing about Dawn that I knew, her need for attention from her dad tends to wear him down with the constant drama and need for money. But, Dawn could be sweet and innocent when she wanted to be. "I just don't know how to help her anymore, I give her money for whatever she needs and I give her a home when she comes here and I never force her to leave."

"Well maybe what Dawn needs isn't what you can physically give her maybe she needs some emotional help...like advice because if I know Fawn and their mother like I use to, she isn't getting that at home. Fawn is to much like their mother but, Dawn takes after you. She tries to be stronger than she actually is."

Tig nodded his head and seemed to be thinking over what I was talking about. "So where is your boy?"

I choose not to acknowledge how childish he was still being towards Derek and replied, "He is at home with my horses."

He nodded his head and I could faintly hear Thomas fussing again. I looked at my phone to realize that it was probably time for both of them to go to bed. "I have to put them to bed, I'll be right back."

I didn't give him a chance to reply and I walked into the living room "I can help if you want?" He asked as he followed me into the room

I was going to tell him no when I saw Abel curled up in a ball passed right out. I smiled and motioned to Abel, Tig got the hint and picked him up in his arms. I went to Thomas who had his arms up and was squeezing his hands at me. I let out a small giggle and grabbed Thomas under his arm pits. The moment Thomas was in my arms he placed his head on my shoulder and I followed Tig down to the bedroom. I bounced and rocked Thomas lightly in my arms as I waited for Tig to lay Abel down. My mind started to wander as I watched him with Abel. This was how I always saw our family and it was making me feel nostalgic almost. Tig was always a great father in my opinion, he would do anything for his kids and I hated how his ex ruined that chance for me...for us. Then a disturbing thought entered my head, was it me who ruined that chance by giving up to soon, by not believing in us and who we were together. A hand landed on my shoulder and because I was so deep in thought I jumped slightly. When I looked at Tig, he was looking at me concerned, "Are you okay Vickie?"

"Oh yeah I am, just got lost in my own thoughts. Thank you." I tried to laugh it off

He gave me a smile and a nod and I walked past him to lay Thomas down, who was now just starting to fall asleep in my arms. Once I was sure that both boys were fast asleep, I shooed Tig out of the room and turned off the light. I walked past him straight to the kitchen and pulled out two beers. He took his from me and followed me to the living room, I may still be mad at him for what happened last time I saw him but, I could never stay mad at him for long. "You're good with them." Tig complemented as he sat beside me

"Their just kids, not that hard to handle. Their actually pretty well behaved for two young kids. Though I am surprised that Abel fell asleep so quickly."

"Why do you say that?" Tig asked while taking a swing from his beer.

"Tara and Jax were calling tonight to talk to them but, I haven't heard from them yet and I wouldn't want to wake him now that he is sleeping."

Tig nodded his head and looked forward to the TV. I hated the silence and was about to say something when Tig spoke up, "Listen I want to apologize Victoria. I know you have found another life, one with...Derek. But, can you tell me something?"

I hated where this was going already, I didn't want to answer his question because I was scared of what the truth could do. Tig leaned forward and put his beer on the table in front of the couch and turned to face me. He placed one of his hands on my thighs and the other on the back of the couch, just above my shoulder. "Victoria...I know what I did that day was childish but, I was jealous. He has everything I want and I realized that it was to late and I lost you. Seeing you with Thomas tonight made me realize how much I did actually loose. Can you honestly tell me that there is no hope for us? No future?" he pleaded with me

I couldn't look at him anymore, he was bringing tears to my eyes. Why couldn't he have told me this before I left, why couldn't he just let me be happy and stop bringing me to tears. His fingers grabbed my chin gently and pulled it around to face him, he was closer than before and his blue eyes pleaded with mine. "I...I-I cant do this Tig...don't make me do this." My voice cracked

A few tears escaped my eyes and he pushed them away with his fingers. "I just want to know the truth, stop hiding it from me. Do you still love me?"

The tears started to come faster and I closed my eyes. I felt Tig shift beside me and after a few seconds, his lips pressed gently to mine. I didn't exactly stop the kiss and in fact I found myself returning it. His fingers ran through my hair and he pulled away, resting his forehead against mine. I opened my eyes to see his closed and he looked as if he was having an inner battle of some sort. "I know you're with him and I hope that you still love me the way I love you. If I have to wait for you to realize that and come home to me...I'm willing to wait for the only woman I have ever loved to come back to me."

I was shocked to say the least, Tig Tragger was actually confessing his love to me. He never even did that when we were together. This was to much and I pushed away from him so that I was standing and started to walk away to the bedroom. I stopped and said over my shoulder "I do still love you Tig but, right now is not the time to confess our feelings. There are other people involved this time and I can't just think of myself. You can stay here tonight on the couch, if you leave please lock the door behind you."

As soon as I got into the bedroom I slid to the floor and let the tears fall again. Knowing that we both loved each other and that Tig wanted to work everything out, seemed to hurt a lot more then when I left him the first time. My phone started to ring in my pocket and I looked at it to see that it was Jax calling. I cleared my throat and wiped my tears away as I answered the phone, "Hey there Jax." I tried to sound as normal as possible

"Hey V, the boys awake?"

"No, I actually just put them down."

"Okay, they behaving for you at least?"

"You know it, Abel's suckering me into doing a million and one things with him and his brother. Which reminds me while we are on the topic, I know you guys are coming home tomorrow but, how about you pick them up from my house instead."

Jax laughed a little on the other end, "Let me guess, the horses?"

"Yeah." I replied

"Okay that's fine. We will see you tomorrow then?"

"Yeah...hey Jax?"

I needed to confide in someone and Jax was basically my best friend and I knew he wouldn't say anything to anyone. "What is it V? Is everything okay?"

I looked down at my one hand that was in my lap. "Yeah of course it is...would it make me a horrible person if I still loved Tig...if I wanted a future with him and after everything I did-"

"No Victoria it would not make you a horrible person, it makes you a woman in love. Just make sure you do right by the man you currently have and V?"

"Yeah?"

"Don't leave him again, if you go back that is. You were always the only woman that could control him and when you left...well you didn't see the aftermath."

"I won't Jax."

"Okay well, I love you and give the boys a kiss for us."

"Love you to, I will see you tomorrow."

The line went dead and I banged my head off the door lightly as I dropped my phone onto the floor.

I held the reigns in my hands as I took Abel for a walk on Buttercup and I had Thomas laying on a blanket not far from us with Veguara beside Thomas. We had been out for almost an hour and Abel didn't seem like he would ever leave Buttercup. For as old as Buttercup was, I thanked god that she was patient enough to deal with Abel pulling on her hair. I could hear a car pulling up to the house and come to a stop. I pulled Buttercup around so I could face the driveway and I watched as Tara all but, ran over to Thomas. She didn't seem panicked or angry, she just looked as if she missed her kids. I shielded my eyes from the sun as I looked over to the car. Jax wasn't alone when he stepped out of the car, Dawn was with them. I really didn't need this right now but, judging by the look on Dawns face she wasn't there to poke fun. Dawn stood at the edge of the fence where Tara was with Abel. My eyes turned to Jax who was walking over to me. "Dad!" Abel called out for him

"Is that my son up there? Well I would never have guessed." Jax stopped in front of us, gave me a hug and shoved his hands in his pockets

"Took a few attempts to get him up there but now I'm not sure if I will be able to get him to come down." I laughed

Jax smiled at us and he looked over at the house, "Derek home?"

"No he is at work tonight. Whats Dawn doing with you? Shouldn't she be with Tig?"

He looked over his shoulder to his wife and Dawn who was currently making funny faces with Thomas. "She said she wanted to talk to you, said it was important?"

My eyes were glued to Dawn and Jax reached up to grab his son, pulling him off the horse. "Hey buddy, why don't you run and say hi to mommy."

"But the horsies?" Abel pouted

Jax bent over to his level and said, "I'm sure Auntie Victoria will let you ride them again sometime soon."

Abel mumbled an okay and sauntered over to his mother. Dawn looked over to us, smiled and waved. I gave a wave back and Jax spoke up to get my attention. "I can take her back with me if you want?"

I shook my head, "No, sometimes there are things Dawn has to talk about and her dad cant help her with it. I'll call Tig later and get him to come get her."

I let go of Buttercups reigns and started to walk with Jax back to Tara, Dawn and the boys. "Did you talk to Tig?" Jax asked

"No and I still don't know if I will. Like you said last night Jax, I have to be one hundred percent sure that this is what I want before I go full force into it."

"Do you still love Derek?" he asked hesitantly

"I do...but, it's a different kind of love then it is with Tig. With Tig it's a natural love, an immediate one that surprised us both and one I could never forget. With Derek, it was a while before I loved him and even then my love for Tig over powers what I have built here with him."

"Well to me...that sounds like you have your answer." Jax said

"We will see."

That was the end of the conversation, as we had finally reached everybody. After a short goodbye and after I promised Abel that I would bring him back, Tara and Jax finally left. Leaving me alone with Dawn. Dawn stood petting Buttercup at the fence and feeding him some oats that I had sitting out. I smiled at her and walked over to her, "Sorry, I wasn't sure if I was aloud to feed her or not but, she looked hungry." Dawn apologized and looked down at the ground bashfully

I reached forward and petted Buttercups snout and replied, "Don't apologize, she has been good today so I think she deserved the treat and from a pretty lady no less."

I gave her a nudge and she broke out in a smile. "Want to ride her with me?"

"I would love to!" Dawn said enthusiastically

"Okay well let me go grab another horse and I'll be right out. Meanwhile you can saddle up on her."

I gave Dawn a soft pat on the shoulder and walked past her to the barn. I grabbed Silver and rode him out to meet Buttercup. Once I had reached Dawn we started to slowly ride our horses around the pasture. "So, what is going on in your life?" I asked innocently, one of us had to get this conversation started

Dawn looked down at Buttercup hesitantly, "I have this boy back home and I'm not sure what to do with our relationship. It seems that it is moving to fast for me."

"And how fast would that be...like sexually?"

"No...we already did that already but, when he found out who my daddy was...I don't know, all of a sudden he is talking about running away and eloping?"

"Marriage? Is he scared of your dad?" I asked

"I'm sure that has something to do with it. He says once we elope we wouldn't come back. I would have to leave my family behind, my dad behind."

When I looked over at her, I could tell that she was still hiding something. "Theirs something your not telling me...who is he apart of."

"Well he isn't really apart of them...yet."

"Dawn." I said seriously, reaching over and holding her hand that seemed to be white knuckling the reigns

"You can't tell my dad...he would kill me for getting involved with someone of another club or gang?"

"Who is it baby girl?"

"He is prospecting for the Niners."

I rose my eyebrows, shock completely evident on my face. I didn't let go off her hand as I watched a couple tears fall from her eyes. I let out a deep sigh, "Okay...well the only advice I can give you is that you have made your bed now you gotta sleep in it. Either you turn and run now before its to late, tell him that your not ready for marriage or go and get married and live that life. I can tell you one thing, this life ain't all its cracked up to be hunny. There is a lot of ups and downs that come with being in a relationship with someone like that but, don't run. If you choose to marry, running will make everything worse and do you really want your father to find out that way?"

She looked down with a mix of thoughtfulness and with shame before she let out a quiet okay. We rode for a few more minutes in silence before I spoke up again. "You know you wont be able to keep that from your father forever right, even if you don't marry?"

"You know you cant keep your feeling tucked away from him forever right?" she countered back at me

"Touche."

"Will you ever go back to him, or will you keep living this life here."

"Well, it's more complicated than that...with what me and your dad have and right now, I'm not sure where it's going...if you want me to be honest with you."

Dawn nodded her head. "But I do want you to know that I am back and apart of the SAMCRO's life again and this time I'm not leaving. So anytime you come visit or just need some space or someone to talk to...me and my horses will always be right here."

"That's good because dads house is always messy and he doesn't really have any food."

I laughed and looked back ahead of me, "Well, that would be your father...he lives at the dorms more than he does the house."

"I liked it better when you lived there."

"Is that so?"

She smiled at me and looked forward. Her eyes settling on something and her face became confused. I looked where she was and I could see a man standing in a brown leather jacket, leaning against my fence. "Who is that? Is that your boyfriend?" She asked innocently

This man gave me the creeps and I shook my head at Dawn. I dismounted Silver and looked up to Dawn, holding out the reigns for Silver. "Stay over here and watch over Silver. I'm just going to see what that man wants."

Dawn looked down at me with worry on her face. I gave her a smile and patted Buttercups stomach as I walked away towards the man leaning against my fence. "Can I help you?" I asked as I got closer

He was watching Dawn before his eyes wandered to me and he stood up a little straighter. I stood directly in front of him so he would stop staring at Dawn and asked the question once more but, with more of a threatening tone to my voice. "Can I help you sir?"

"That your daughter?" he asked curiously

"Its none of your business and I'm going to ask you again. What can I help you with?"

"Do you know one Alexander Tragger or perhaps the gang that he is apart of. The Sons of Anarchy."

I narrowed my eyes at him, "Everyone in this town knows who they are, they are just a bunch of bike enthusiasts, not a gang and as for any member of the group, I would only know them by acquaintance or reputation." I stated blankly

"I believe that there is more to it then that...say your father for example," he gave out a short snort before he took a few steps backwards, "Well, that's all I need from you today Miss Victoria Delaney. I will see you again...shortly."

He turned his back to me and started to walk back towards his car. "Wait! How do you know my name?"

He turned around to face me but, kept walking backwards. He gave me a smirk and slipped his sunglasses on. "Have a good evening."

I stared out after him, something about the man creeped me out. "What did he want?" Dawns voice came from behind me

I jumped startled and placed a hand on my chest "Jesus!"

I looked behind me and Dawn was still on Buttercup but she was watching the man with a curious look. I looked back to the man as well and furrowed my eyebrows. "Just a gentlemen who was lost...nothing to worry about."

She looked down at me doubtfully and I grabbed bother Silver and Buttercup reigns and started to lead her back to the barn "Come on let's get some supper started for you."

I had prepared pork chops and baked potatoes for me, Dawn and Derek. We were just finishing up with the clean up when a knock came to the door. I looked over to Derek who didn't look as thrilled with our visitor. I dried off my hands and headed towards the door with Dawn following behind. My front door had two windows on either side of the door and Veguara had her head stuck in the curtain, barking at whoever was at the door. I peaked through the curtain and I could see Tig standing awkwardly at the door. I pulled Veguara back and opened the door for Tig. He gave me a warm smile and I returned it, "Alright kiddo, let's get going." Tig directed his statement at Dawn

Dawn stepped in between us and started to give me a hug. I graciously accepted, I gave her a quick squeeze and whispered in her ear, "Remember, no matter what happens don't run and don't do anything you are not comfortable with."

I gave her a kiss on the cheek and she walked past her dad, straight to his bike. Tig started to walk away but, I reached out and grabbed his arm. "Can I talk to you for a second?" I asked

His eyes traveled from my hand, to my face and then behind me before he gave a firm nod with his head. I looked behind me to see Derek leaning against the wall, staring questioningly at us. "Can you watch Veguara for a moment, I need to talk to Tig about something important."

He nodded his head and grabbed Veguara by her collar to keep her from bolting. I closed the door behind me and sat on the front step of the stairs. Tig followed after a short few minutes "So what is it?" He asked impatiently

"I had a visitor today."

"Okay?"

"I didn't know him but, he knew me and about dad, you and the club. He was secretive and sent the wrong vibe down my spine. Something wasn't right and still isn't."

"Was he a cop or an ATF agent?"

"I'm not sure, he wasn't dressed like anybody important, let alone an ATF agent."

Tig nodded his head and I continued, "I just thought I would bring it to the clubs attention but Tig...am I in danger right now?"

I turned to look Tig in the eye and I saw nothing but, worry and compassion in those beautiful blue eyes of his. "No and even if you were, I would never let any harm come to you. You know that right?"

I smiled at him, if there was one thing I could count on Tig for it would be safety. "I'll bring it to Clays attention tomorrow at church." He told me while standing up

I stood up with him, crossing my arms over my chest and I turned to face him, "Thanks for looking after her today...I didn't realize that she had left with Jax and Tara."

I looked back over to Dawn and smiled "No it's fine. She just needed some girl time."

"Don't we all." Tig joked

I smacked his arm and we burst out laughing together. Then our eyes connected again and I shuffled my feet. After a few minutes, I was the first to break eye contact and I looked down at the floor. Tig leaned in for a hug and gave me a quick kiss on my cheek. He had taken a few steps away from me before I called out to him once more, "Hey Tig...she needs her dad, not the big tough dad but the one that use to tell her that he was invincible."

He gave me a smile and a wave but, when he looked behind me his smile turned into a unpleasant tight smile. I looked behind me and saw no one but the curtain was moving. I turned back and watched as Tig left with Dawn before I walked back into the house.