A/N: To all of the readers who are waiting for an update for my other stories since forever, I am so so so sorry! My laptop is mashed up, so I have to save up to buy another one and I'm never by my friends long enough to get constructive time to write – only if it's college related which is in turn taking its toll. I took up Sociology this year and it's a lot of reading and writing. Ugh.
I'm deeply sorry for the late, but I promise to try and get something in, though I can't promise you when. Just hope you guys are faithful and patient enough to wait ((grins))
Title: The Only Option
Prompt List/Ficlet Number: Sake, #16, Desperate
Rating: T
Genre: Introspective, Tragedy
Universe: Alternative
Word Count: 400 Summary: I will do anything just to be with you.
Warning: Suicide
Don't do it…
I could hear his voice whispering ghostly against my ears, begging me not to make such a choice. How could I listen to him when this was the only way, the only way for us to finally be together at last?
Not this way Kagome…!
It was amazing how I always seem to hear his angelic voice invading my thoughts, conversing with me on many occasions – yet the desire to see him, to touch and hold him was never an option. How can I, when the only guy I love had died? His death brought me to a world of loneliness, a world of agony filled with misunderstandings.
The cold uncaring world never understood how deeply my love ran for the guy who took my heart away with him. My parents didn't really think much on it, sure they were there to help me cope but they never truly listened.
Oh let her be, she'll get over him sooner than later… it was just a puppy love.
A puppy love? I had to laugh at the phrase. Because I was young, at the tender age of seventeen, my love for any significant person would be viewed as puppy love? They probably meant well – but they didn't understand, especially since they never lost each other.
Then there were my friends. They were happy with their loved once, filled with nothing but blissful ignorance. I was suffering, while going through such turmoil at such a young age.
You'll find someone else Kaggo… Don't give up – we're here for you.
I was more like a burden to them. Dark clothing to contrast their splash of bright clothes and an air of solitude and sadness to dampen their moments came with hanging out with me, the girl who was consumed with her dead lover.
"How can I move one when there's no path?" I openly asked him, knowing he was around with the warmth I was feeling. He always knew how to make me feel good – always knew just what to say to take away all of my troubles.
Don't do this Kagome!
Tears sparkled in my eyes as I gripped the knife tightly. "We'll be together Inuyasha, this is the only way."
I plunged the knife in my chest, gasping loudly as I felt the pain course through me, taking away my life as well as my loneliness. I smiled.
