You Can't Know
You can't know
wouldn't know
couldn't know
what the future holds
Only StarClan has a glimpse
even then they don't know
If they could see
what would become of me
Why didn't they warn me
of where I would be?
I had started just fine
and became a warrior in the line
I vowed to serve my Clan
to the best that I can
Then one night I saw with my two eyes
a handsome tom in the moonlight
His fur was thick and glossed
and his shoulders were broad
His eyes were just as green
as a holly's small leaves
My own heart I had lost
to this unknown tom
He looked in my way
and I heard him say
"Hello, who are you?"
We talked before the leaders called from their place
But I still could feel my heart race
When all were dismissed to return home
we decided to make a choice quite bold
"Let's meet again"
I saw him again the next night
and for some reason, it felt so right
When the moon was up high the next time
we brushed pelts and locked eyes
After a half-moon
more about him I knew
As we groomed each other's fur
and we gazed at the stars
As our tails would entwine
and I knew that he would always be mine
He was a young warrior himself
named two moons ago along with a friend
He was popular in the Clan for his looks
(but why I already had known)
Several she-cats would chase him
but their chances were slim
How was I so sure?
He said this as his tongue ran over my fur
"Your heart belongs to me alone"
Then another moon passes
more stolen moments and glances
But at the border there's a battle
for which I felt baffled
It's just a set of stones
We don't need to break our bones
Yet both sides leaped at another
and I wished to not see my lover
He was there in the fight
just not in my sight
At least not until
he was accused for two kills
He had by accident shoved them in
to a river where they couldn't swim
It wasn't his fault that one washed away
and the other was pulled onshore later that day
But my Clan thinks he is guilty
as they retreated quickly
They just don't see who I see
the tom that walks in many dreams
The next night I wait by our tree
but him I don't see
I don't know where he could be
as he didn't warn me
The night after that
I go through the same act
The nights become a cycle of wait and pain
and I wondered if coming out was in vain
One day while in camp
I had first thought it was a cramp
But I still visited the medicine cat
and I could hardly register what he said
"You're expecting kits"
At first I was excited for us
and it was something we had discussed
But I must see him the next day
I had thought as I lay
The next night was the full moon
and I told him the news
He was happy but scared
I could see it in his stare
But I would raise him alone with my Clan
and without him I can
It would be alright
if I didn't see him every night
The day the kits came
I never thought I'd feel such pain
But they were so beautiful
(I suppose that statement is assumable)
Yet they inherited from their father
something that seemed to bother
They weren't built to be like my Clan
I thought I saw a cat deadpan
I took them out of camp to a river
but it didn't make them shiver
This was where they were built to be
unfortunately someone else had also seen
It was announced to all of camp
that my kits were half-Clan
And I was exiled from my home
the one place I'd known
Then I knew where'd we go
to the place were water flowed
Surely they'd accept me and my kits
They can't reject my in a state like this
But then like two others
the kits fell under
They washed away with the river
the thought makes me shiver
But I wasn't allowed in
but that wasn't it
My mate had another
another lover
I would strive for vengeance
for my kits' independence
Three lives I had taken
because they were forsaken
I had lost my own too
but as I died I knew
That it was all worth it
all worth it for my kits
But you can't know
that one mistake started a flow
from one thing to another
with a love of a mother
You can't know
wouldn't know
couldn't know
what the future holds
My name is Mapleshade
and I will never fade
Challenge Name: You Can't Know
Its Creator: Dragon
Word Count: 854 words
Start/Finish Date: 12/8 (or 9) - 12/10
Description: Nobody knows everything. They don't know others' secrets, for one. But most of all, they can't know the future. Only StarClan really has a glimpse of the future, and even that future could change. If a cat knew what the consequences of their actions would be, would they have done anything differently?
Signing out,
~Lauren
