Here is the next chapter as promised. I hope you guys like it. Some of you were thinking it was going to be Jude and Shay's discussion, but it's not. So I hope you guys won't be too disappointed.

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Walking out of Darius's office Tommy has to get out of the building and into some fresh air. Practically running over a stunned Jamie and SME Tommy heads out into the ally.

He can't believe he had just said that aloud. And not only did he say it aloud he said it in front of Darius, Sadie, and Kwest. He knows he probably shocked all of them. He wasn't really paying attention to the three of them, but he could've sworn he saw all three of their mouths fall open in shock.

He loved Jude. It wasn't that big of a surprise to him he had known that his feelings for her were way deeper then they ever were with anyone else, but to say it aloud and in front of his boss, his best friend and Jude's sister, that was big.

Thinking about it now Tommy wishes he hadn't said it out loud to the three of them. He should've told Jude first before anyone else, but the fact that he loved her just hit him and at the time that's all that he could think about. He had loved Jude since the Vinyl Palace when she had kissed him. He just didn't know it and admit it till now.

He couldn't believe it had taken him almost three years to admit that he loved her. He was such and idiot. How could he have not noticed he loved her? She had known that she loved him and she wasn't even 18 yet and here he was 24 year old who was finally facing reality.

And the honest to god truth is if it wasn't for the month away and then coming back and seeing her kiss Shay Tommy still probably wouldn't have admitted that he loved her. He was always to afraid to love her, but after being without her for a month and then seeing her kiss Shay Tommy had realized something. He was more afraid of losing Jude than he was of admitting that he loved her.

Tommy was worried though about how Jude would react. He had messed up with her so many times. He was really afraid that Jude had given up on him, because as it was now she wouldn't even talk to him. Not that he really blamed her. If you looked back at Tommy's track record with Jude you see him being one of the biggest asses on earth.

It was her 16th birthday. A day that is supposed to be one of the best ever, but for Jude Harrison it had sucked.

Tommy had seen her and Shay in the conference room and then he saw along with everyone else, including the press, their big fight in the middle of G-Major. He then saw Jude storm off and Shay following after her. Knowing that it couldn't be good Tommy follows them and enters Studio B just as Shay was leaving.

"Well if it isn't the great Tom Quincy" Shay says giving him a disgusted look and then daring Tommy to fight him.

Tommy couldn't believe this kid. Instead of beating little Shay Shay to a pulp he decides comforting Jude is more important.

Following her out on to the fire escape Tommy hates to see her cry. Trying to comfort her he realizes that Jude doesn't want to hear it from him. She blames him for part of her problems.

Feeling hurt by this Tommy looks at her again and he doesn't see a heartbroken 16 year old girl. No he sees Jude, the girl he loves and wants to be with, but he can't. And before he can stop himself he kisses her.

This could've ended great for both of them, but Tommy had to turn around 20 minutes later and tell Jude she needed to forget that kiss. He had broken her heart even worse than before. Tom knew it, but he had to. He was afraid.

Thinking back to that night Tommy hates himself even more and can't believe Jude forgave him for that. That night, in his eyes, is one of the worst things he has ever done. But he was afraid.

And you would think he would've learned from his mistake. Nope. A couple of months later he starts dating Jude's older sister Sadie. The only reason he had done it was because he figured having the one Harrison sister would make up for the feeling he had for the other. He had been wrong and he knew it then, but didn't care.

Dating Sadie had been one of the dumbest things he had ever done. He had broken Jude's heart again. All because he was afraid.

Even though Tommy had broken Jude's heart twice she still found a way to trust him, to hopefully love him again.

Of course with Tommy nothing lasts forever and when he started to realize that he couldn't be with Sadie and he didn't like her the way she liked him he had to break it off with her. And how did he do that? He neglected her and then in a slip up made it look like he cheated oh her, even though he didn't. Sadie did break up with him, which is what he wanted. But he also lost Jude too. She couldn't trust him or believe in him after she thought he had cheated.

Tommy had felt lost the whole time they were fighting. He didn't know if Jude would ever forgive him and instead of apologizing to her. He acted like a jackass to her instead. Tommy looked at the as one of the cruelest things he had done. But he was afraid.

After Tommy and Sadie broke up he thought he had lost Jude forever. But lucky guy that he was, he didn't. She forgave him and believed in him again. After that happened Tommy vowed to himself that he wasn't going to ever hurt Jude again. She was too important to him.

But for Tommy no vow really mattered, marriage vows or ones simply to himself. Because look at what he did to Jude after that. He left her standing in the middle of the street on what was supposed to be their first date.

That one wasn't completely his fault, but he had still done it. He left her crying and alone without a return date or a reason why he was leaving. That had been one of the hardest things he had ever done. He had broken her heart and for, what he hoped, was the last time. Now coming back Tommy didn't think he would be lucky this time and have Jude forgive so easily.

Sadie had been right. Jude had grown up in the month that he was gone. How much? Tommy wasn't quite sure of, but she had definitely grown up. He hoped that Sadie had been lying when she said Jude was over him.

Thinking about what he was going to do with Jude; Tommy heard someone come outside in the ally. He just figured it was probably Kwest or maybe Sadie wanting to know what he was going to do. So when he turned around he was a little surprised to see Shay leaning against the door looking right at Tommy.

"What are you doing out here?"

"I was looking for you. I was told that you were last seen heading this way." Shay says pushing off the door and walking closer to Tommy. "We need to talk."

"You're right we do. I want you to stay away from Jude."

"You can't make me do anything Tommy. I don't care what you say. I'm going to do whatever Jude and I want to do."

"The first time you two went out I let it go. I figured Jude was a big girl and you're a smart guy. That you would know a good thing when it was right in front of you and even if you didn't that Jude would realize you weren't worth it. I was wrong then because Jude got her heart broken. This time I won't make the same mistake."

"What are you going to do? Jude's going to be 18 in a month. And if you hadn't noticed she wants nothing to do with you right now." Shay says laughing and turning to look down the ally. He wasn't paying attention so when Tommy punched him he stumbled backwards a little. "What the hell was that for?"

"Stay away from Jude! That's all I'm going to tell you." Tommy says before turning to walk away.

Shay just starts laughing. He can't believe how dense they both are. He shouts after Tommy. "You love her don't you?"

Tommy just stops and looks back at Shay. "How did you know?"

"Because no man would punch someone over a girl unless he loves her." Shay should know he has history with this sort of thing. First Jamie after Jude's 16th birthday and now Tommy.

"Well what does it matter? Apparently you two are together and I'm insignificant." Tommy says turning and walking back over to Shay.

"I'm going to let you in on a little secret Tom. Me and Jude are not together." Tommy tries to interrupt him by mentioning what happened in the kitchenette but Shay cuts him off. "She wants to make you jealous and from what I can tell it's working."

"What are you talking about?" Tommy says crossing his arms so he doesn't hit Shay again.

"Jude kissed me to make you jealous. That is the first time me and her have kissed since we broke up. Up until that point Jude didn't even want to talk to me."

"Yeah well it looked like you two really hated it."

"Oh I didn't. I would love to get back together with Jude. She's the one who wanted nothing to do with me."

"Why are you telling me this?" Tommy asks confused.

"I'm just letting you know before you go and do anything drastic that you still have a shot with Jude." Shay says before turning to go back inside.

"What do you mean by that? Does Jude still love me?"

"Yeah she does." Shay says looking over at Tommy. "But from what I can tell she was pretty affected by that kiss, which means that I might still have a shot with her too."

"So what you want me and you to fight over Jude?" Tommy says laughing. "You've got to be kidding me."

"No I'm not. I want Jude just as badly as you do."

"Yeah but you just said she loved me. So wouldn't she choose me over you?"

Shay just looks at Tommy. How can it be that Tommy is the older one? Because he is definitely the dumber one. "How can you be so dense? Yes Jude loves you, but she has no clue how you feel."

"Well that's easy. I'll just tell her how I feel." Tommy says smiling.

"Yes but you've hurt Jude way more times than I have Tom. So will she be able to trust you?"

"She has always trusted me." Tommy says hoping he sounds more confident then he feels.

"She used to Tom. She Used to." Shay says opening the door to go inside. "All I'm going to say is good luck and may the best man win."

Tommy just stares at the door as it closes. Shay is right. Jude use to trust him, but after everything could she still trust him? He had had 3 years to prove to her that he loved her. Now here he was and he might lose her because he had been too afraid.

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