So this is the last chapter of Part one. Don't worry; it's just a part, nothing big. Just kind of change of problems.
Sorry this chapter took a long time to get out and it isn't very short; I had a very busy... past couple of weeks. Summer is almost here so be prepared :)
Hope you enjoy :) PLEASE REVIEW
Her lips were smooth and felt so vulnerable. They felt so small and were so small compared to everything else in the world. She was small, and so breakable. I could snap her in half... But still I held my lips against hers, not wanted to pull away. I didn't care what would happen later on in life, I was in bliss at this moment. Nothing could ruin it...
Suddenly, unexpectedly, Vivyan's lips were off of mine. She had somehow untangled herself from being wrapped up beside me for I could no longer feel her body up against my own. I opened my eyes immediately. What I saw made my whole form shake almost uncontrollably.
Vivyan was pushed into the small corner of my bed. Her right hand was grasping her lower neck/collarbone area while her left arm lay in a cast. The right side of her forehead lay under bandage, though that was hidden by her bangs. She also had small bruises on her lower neck, which I hadn't noticed before. What was worse though, was the shock, confusion and fear that her face held.
If she weren't my universe and life combined, I would've gone wolf right there. I had once again messed up big time, this time being the worst yet. I actually kissed her! And if that wasn't bad enough, her arm was fucking broken.
I had to guess what Vivyan was seeing at that very moment. I knew she wasn't seeing a smile on my face. She probably saw my clenched fists that I held pushing down on my legs, trying to keep them from shaking. She would see my upper lip folded into my mouth where I had to try hard not to bite it off. Lastly she would see my eyes full of pain.
"I'm so sorry Paul," Vivyan whispered, her face gaining sorrow. I blinked twice and took a deep breath before answering.
"Why are you sorry Viv, you didn't do anything," I said, keeping my teeth clenched. Vivyan blinked and took her hand off her collarbone and reached out towards me. She quickly brought her hand back and closed her eyes.
I knew I had no right to be angry with her, I would never be, especially then. Her own father had beaten her, and then I was taking advantage of her. What was wrong with me?
"Because I can't do this," Vivyan whispered again and brought her knees up to her chest. I couldn't answer right away, for I had to ponder what she meant.
"Can't do what Vivie? I don't understand." Vivyan closed her eyes and took a deep breath.
"Our friendship is too important Paul. If we were to date or whatever, we would eventually break up and I don't want this to be over," she said once her eyes opened. She looked nervous about what my answer would be. Was she seriously afraid that what she said would ruin everything? Did Vivyan not understand that I was frightened that me kissing her made her not want to be friends? I was relieved with what she said, so relieved I actually laughed. And not a small chuckle, but an actually HA-HA-HA.
My laugh seemed to surprise Vivyan more than it should have. Her eyes widened to the size of watermelons as I clenched at my stomach at the laughter that kept pouring from my laugh. It wasn't that I found something hilarious; it was that I was so damned relieved.
Finally the laughter stopped and I pulled Vivyan into a hug. I felt that her body was rigid, but it quickly melted.
"Didn't I tell you I'd love you how ever you want me to love you Crazy Eyes?" I laughed as I used the nickname I created for Vivyan. Suddenly I heard my front door slam and three bodies move into my house. I also heard my little sister run down the stairs and squeal. I guessed Noel was here, probably with Jacob.
I was worried about Noel, we all were. It was obvious he was growing at an alarming rate, but he was still much to young to phase. He was six for crying out loud. Not that you would guess he was six, he looked double his age, which also wasn't a good sign.
"Pawl your friends are here!" Nina shouted from the top of the stairs. That's when I remembered Vivyan was still in my arms. As soon as she was ready we both bounded up the stairs, hand in hand.
"Vivie!" Noel semi-yelled when his big sister came into sight. Vivyan let go of my hand and brought her brother into a huge, one-armed hug. It was weird how they both had a broken left arm.
"Why are you crying Sissy?" Noel whispered. Vivyan was crying?
"Because we're safe Bud, Ryan can't get us anymore Noel," Vivyan sobbed into her brothers shoulder. Noel was standing at Vivyan's shoulder height and first time I had met him he was about a foot shorter.
"Well don't cry Vivyan, just laugh," Noel said, laughing. I noticed his voice was much deeper too. Vivyan started laughing at Noel's statement and let go of him. It was only then that I noticed Seth and Jacob were standing, also watching the sibling exchange.
"Hey guys," I said and walked over to them. Vivyan was talking to her brother and I wanted to give them some privacy.
"Hey Paul," Seth said with a smile, while Jacob only nodded at me. He was also biting his bottom lip, a sure sign that something was on his mind.
"What's happening?" I asked, wondering why they were both here. With a look at the clock behind me I saw it was 4 o'clock, this meant the Halloween thing at the beach was happening. Why were they both here?
"I need to talk to you Vivyan," Jacob said loudly and walked towards Vivyan. Seth looked confused, and I was confused. Soon Vivyan and Jacob were out of my house.
"What was that about?" I asked and wanted to go find my imprint. I knew better than to; if Jacob wanted to talk in private he had every right.
"I know as much as you. All he told me was he had to talk to Vivyan," Seth answered with a shrug. I almost forgot Nina was in the room until she ran up to Seth and grabbed his leg. Seth smiled and looked down at my sister.
"What is it Nina?" Seth asked and picked her up. Nina giggled and hid her face. It was a known fact that she was in love with all my friends. Luckily none of them imprinted on her, or else I think someone would be dead...
VIVYANS POV
"What do you need Jake?" I asked as we walked away from Paul's house. Jacob shrugged and looked up at the sky. It was another cloudless sky, and the sun was shining like there was no tomorrow.
We walked in silence until we came to La Push's main road. Jacob stopped then and turned to look at me. He looked nervous. I knew he was nervous, for I was nervous for what he was going to say.
"I'm sorry about your dad Viv," Jacob said and looked down at his feet. I looked down too.
"Yeah. Thanks for... saving me," I answered and looked up again. Jacob nodded and bit his lip. He wasn't finished.
"About your father Vivyan..." Jacob started but didn't finish.
"What?" I asked, barely a whisper. Jacob swallowed and started walking towards the beach. I was about to follow when he came back. He placed his hands on my shoulders and looked me in the eyes.
"Tell me the truth Vivyan," pause, "Did you father ever... force you to do... things?" he asked and then swallowed. I did the same. So they knew. They knew I was broken material, no longer a virgin because of rape. I had had sex so many times that if they were fingers I'd have over twice as many as normal people. I had given so many blowjobs with my younger brother in the other room that I got used to it.
"Vivyan?" Jacob asked and snapped his fingers. I looked up at him and nodded quickly. Jacob started to shake then and there.
"Jacob are you okay?" I asked and reached a hand out to place it on his chest. Jacob shook his head and started mumbling. I caught "dead" "killed" "Paul" and "find out." I guessed that Paul didn't know. Paul didn't know?
"Jacob please don't tell anyone," I whispered quickly. Jacob looked up at me.
"Go to the beach, I won't tell anyone," Jacob said between breaths. I nodded and did as he said. Jacob didn't follow.
Within minutes I was at the beach. At the far end stood a large fire pit with logs and benches seated around it. The fire wasn't going yet, but logs and paper was already piled in the pit ready to burn. Close to the table stood five tables with food and about ten coolers under them. All throughout the beach people stood, talking in groups and what not. Almost my whole school was there. I had no idea where to go.
Finally I decided to step out from the trees that surrounded me and let my appearance be known. At first no one saw me, but soon a girl from school spotted me and pointed to me. Soon the entire beach fell silence as I sauntered my way towards Emily standing by the food.
Everyone now knew about my father. They knew I was an "abused child." They knew my father was a horrible parent. They all knew my darkest secret. I felt like crying.
I soon made it to Emily, after what seemed like the longest walk of my life. Everyone's eyes were glued to me and their ever-constant whispers followed me like their eyes.
"Sweetie I'm so happy your here," Emily said and hugged me. I hugged her back, one-armed.
"Where's Jake and the boys?" she asked and busied herself with the food. I shrugged, not able to find words, and looked out at all the people. No one was looking at me, no one was whispering; it was like I had imagined it all.
"Are they coming?" Again I shrugged. Emily nodded and looked at me with sympathic eyes. I forced a smile back and then sauntered away. Near the ocean I saw Kim, Jared, Deli, Brady, Collin, and Embry sitting together in a circle. I was happy to see Deli sitting with them and decided to head towards them.
"Hey guys," I said and took the spot beside Deli. She quickly grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze.
"I'm so sorry Vivie," Kim said and motioned to my arm. I shrugged and looked around at the circle. Everyone was staring at me, besides Collin, his or her faces all showing sorrow. I gulped and put on a smile.
"So what's with the gloomy faces?" I asked and laughed. Everyone's eyes widened but soon they laughed along with me.
Soon enough Seth and Paul joined us, Paul taking the seat beside me. He, and I, was disappointed that Deli stole my good hand side.
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"Collin, Brady, and Em Sam needs you," Leah said when she suddenly appeared behind me. We were sitting around the fire now. It was about 10 o'clock and the sun had set about two hours ago. Most people had gone home, other than The Manada. Brady and Embry stood up then and stretched, Collin didn't though.
"Come on bro let's go," Brady said and walked up to his brother. Collin shook his head.
"Tell Sam... Operation I. Okay?" Collin said, and moved closer to Deli whom he shared a seat with. Operation I?
"Oh my god, really Collin?" Leah asked, her face showing disgust. Collin nodded and stuck out his middle finger to her. Leah slapped him and told him to run along. Collin obliged and ran after his brother and Embry. Leah then took his seat and started whispering to her cousin.
"Come on really?" Leah shouted and jumped back. Deli looked down and nodded. I could see her blushing.
"Why cuz, you could do so much better!" Leah shouted again. I guessed Leah was shouting about Deli's obvious infatuation with Collin.
Throughout the night, I studied Deli and Collin. It was obvious he liked her a lot and it was obvious she couldn't keep her eyes off of him. I had to admit, he was a little young for her, but it was so cute.
"What's wrong with him?" Deli asked loudly. Leah snorted.
"He's like... Five?" Leah laughed. And that's how my night ended.
But of course life couldn't be normal. There were still problems in my life.
Noel and I were going to have to go into foster care. This could mean we could be shipped out of state to live with random strangers and I couldn't bear to leave La Push.
Noel and I would also have to face our father again, this time in court. I wasn't sure if I would be able to keep it together.
Another problem was Noel's growth spurt and entrence to puberty at such a young age. He was six for crying out loud, and he was almost five feet tall. That just wasn't right.
And lastly dreams always had to be replaced.
As I slept soundly in Paul's guest room with Noel laying in the bed beside me, he was there.
I don't know who he was, but he was there. He whispered sweet things to me and made my fall in love. In the end he always took off his mask and showed his true face. It was always my father, ready with a knife in each hand...
END OF PART 1
Eheheh. I enjoyed this chapter did you? Since it is the end of Part 1, I will give you a playlist of songs for it. ENJOY AND REVIEW AND TELL ME ABOUT LIFE :D
Playlist
Ch1: Like Daddy Like Daughter - Gregory and the Hawk
Ch2: A Storm in the Child's Fountain - Eye Alaska
Ch3: Close to you - Mirrormask Soundtrack
Ch4: Save Us - Cartel
Ch5: Flowers in the Attic - Daughters of Fission
Ch6: Safe Ride Home - Cute is What We Aim For
Ch7: Two Brown Eyes - Jill Barber
