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Chapter 7: Deciding to find the lost

After that fated accident I had thought Ienzo was DEAD, but now it seems that he's actually alive!

But then why hadn't he come to find me? Then a thought occurred to me… Maybe mom had him and told him that she watched me die, killed me, I committed suicide, etc. so that she could make him forget about me and start over.

Well I couldn't let that happen, I had to find Ienzo soon so that I can get on with my life and maybe even make a new friend who's been waiting for me for awhile. Sigh. But how can I do that when maybe Ienzo doesn't want to see me again, maybe he doesn't want to remember me. Should I take that risk? … No I have to take that risk, or else both of us will feel an odd presence and only I will know its Ienzo, he wont. I need to find him soon, very soon.

Sigh. My fears have always gotten in the way of everything I ever do, and I guess now is the time to ignore the feeling in the pit of my stomach and go for it; even if Ienzo hates me for it I need to make sure he's alright. 'Thinking it over again? Damn, do you ever just do things on impulse?' And now this thing returns…

"What the hell do you want?!" I yelled angrily, accidentally saying it aloud. ' Nothing really, don't get your panties all in a knot.' It said, cackling. " Whatever, just get out of my head, I've made up my mind on what I'm gonna do." I mumbled bitterly, rolling my eyes. 'It sounds like your talking to yourself Zexy, and if those two think your crazy their not gonna let you go anywhere.' It said almost soothingly. "Well I don't see you coming up with any great elaborate plan to help me, so shut up." It just laughed at me after that one, but stayed silent so I could think. Nothing came to mind except slip out of the house once Vexen and Demyx went to work. Of course the set back of that is if I'm caught I wont be able to look for Ienzo for a long while. 'Stop thinky more Actiony!!' it said angrily, actually sounding right for once in its existence. " I guess your right. Thinking isn't going to solve any of my problems. Well here goes nothing." I said, voicing my thoughts aloud. 'Good boy.'

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Once I heard the door shut and the scent of both Demyx and Vexen were gone I began to move about the house finding the things I would probably need. These included: A knife (I keep one with me at all times), my cell phone, car keys (that's a given…so is the cell phone), wallet, and my key to the house. Everything was gathered in about 15 minutes, so I headed out the door to my car, that I hadn't driven for at least a month now, and threw my stuff in the passenger seat.

'You ready? Your heartbeat doesn't SOUND ready. Nervous are we?' 'Just shut up will you. Your adrenaline kicks in every time you are nervous, or excited about something. You of all things should know that.' I replied coldly, focusing on starting the car and getting to 'my' house before early evening when my 'mother' would get back and beat my ass for coming back. "You better be there Ienzo!" I mumbled, my heartbeat quickening making it hard to breathe.

Ienzo P.O.V.

'He's coming Master Ienzo.' My shadow interrupted loudly. "I could feel it Shadow, now finish your job." I growled, contemplating if I was prepared to even see my brother yet and my thoughts turning to Zexion when we were younger. 'What is there to finish Master? Zexion-sama is-'

"I know what I said Shadow. Just leave my presence and do not come upon me or my brother unless I call for you." I yelled now, angered by this things persistence. 'The Darkness is not the place for my twin. That's why I'm taking his place. I will be the Darkness, and he will be the Light.' I thought bitterly as Shadow disappeared with an awkward bow.

The sound of a car's engine turning off somewhere near the house stirred me from thoughts. I had been outside on the back porch so the sound could be easily pinpointed. 'Am I ready to face him?' I asked myself, my heart beginning to pick up pace at the worst possible point. 'But, I need to see him so I can settle what actually has been going on since my unwanted coma.' My thoughts answered my question, so my mind was made up. 'Hopefully I'm what Zexion expects me to be…' I thought, as I began to make my way into the kitchen to sit on the counter.

For a long while my depressing thoughts slowly coursed through my mind, and trying to clear my mind would be impossible, but then the front door's lock clicked loudly and my mind cleared instantly of anything I had wanted to say to Zexion. 'I'm so afraid when I shouldn't be. Hopefully I can say what needs to be said.' I thought, breathing in deeply and exhaling slowly. Taking another deep breath I said quietly, " I'm in the kitchen if you need something." My voice cracked slightly, but it didn't matter. At the moment telling my twin everything was all that mattered, and he had a right to know.

Soft footsteps came closer and closer to the kitchen's open door and my heart began to race taking my breath from my lungs. " Is that you Ienzo?" Zexion asked, his voice timid and afraid like I was afraid it would be.

Zexion P.O.V.

I had heard Ienzo's voice but he did not answer my question, so I'd just have to go to him. 'This is finally it. I can talk things out with Ienzo, and then I can answer the friendship's waiting for me.' I thought, looking down as I began to enter through the kitchen door. I was waiting for Ienzo's voice, which was the only way I would look up.

If I heard mother's voice that I had mistook as Ienzo's then I would make sure to high tail it out of their before I got beat to a pulp. I mean how would I explain all the new bruises to Vexen and Demyx?

Just say that 'Oh I fell down the stairs and got a concussion' no they'd never believe me if they'd want to see all the new bruises I acquired in the past 8 hours they were gone. Yeah right. I would never be able to lie that well. 'If your mom was here then you'd already be on the floor with a bloody nose.' A voice that was not mine said in my head. "Ienzo?" I asked quietly, recognizing the voice in my head from how Ienzo's voice sounded a few seconds ago. "Yes, what is it Zexion?" Ienzo asked quietly. 'It's him!' my mind yelled at me, wanting me to look up at him. I let in to that desire and looked up to see no one in the kitchen. "Looking for me?" a voice from behind me asked in a normal tone.

Startled I whipped around to come face to face with cold silver-blue eyes that resembled mine. They looked troubled; Ienzo had something important to tell me. That could wait for a couple minutes couldn't it? My vision became blurred with tears I didn't even know I was holding back. I quickly laid my head against his shoulder to hide the tears, but knowing Ienzo was actually solidly there and wasn't the illusion I'd had for so long, I began to cry; something I had done for a while. Ienzo laughed softly, and gently put his arms around me. "I've missed you too Zex."

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