hi again guys! sorry it's been a while but life has been crazy...yeah. anyway, this is chapter six of do you remember me? i hope you enjoy, the song lyrics i used are from Brave by sara bareilles. so, yeah i hope you enjoy and remember to review!

Mikey knelt next to Raph, he reached over and pressed the button on the radio, "come on dude, let the music clear your mind" he said in a somewhat good impression of master Splinter, "and breathe dude." he frowned as the song came on, not one of his personal favorites, but Raph's eyes had widened, so he left it on.

You can be amazing, you can turn a phrase into a weapon or a drug, you can be the outcast, you can be the backlash of somebody's lack of love, or you can start speaking up. Mikey's eyes widened as well as he listened to the words for the first time, he looked at Raph, who was staring at the speakers as if they were talking right to him, it was the most together he'd seen his brother for two months.

Say what you want to say, and let your words fall out, honestly, I wanna see you be brave! Raph nodded slightly and Mikey felt joy rush through him, Raph's eyes looked real again, not glossed over.

Everybody's been there, everybody's been stared down by the enemy, fallen for the fear and done some disappearing, bow down to the mighty…

"You like this song Raphie?" he asked, Raph kept looking at the speakers though,and Mikey felt his heart sink. Maybe he wasn't completely cured by music after all. "I do too, now." he whispered.

I wanna see you be brave!

The song ended,and a new one came on the radio, Raph turned away from the speakers and his eyes glossed over again, Mikey frowned, was it just that song? Like the tune? Or, he gasped, or the lyrics?

He knew he had to do what the box told him, but he couldn't, he couldn't talk. He'd tried so many times, but his lips refused to move on their own. He looked at Mikey now sadly, he'd figured out this ones name, and the others, but now all he had was names, names and faces. He looked at his hands, he didn't know why he'd put the cloths on them, but it was important, really important.

"Guess what?" Donnie asked, walking over to them, "today we get to see your new plastron!" he looked up at him, he was tall. Really tall. Raph picked at the cloth that covered his chest and his eyes widened when he realised what Donnie meant. He could take it off today.

Donnie gently unwrapped Raph's upper abdomen and peeked underneath, the synthetic plastron had sealed, meaning it would hopefully grow as Raph grew, it was a slightly different color, but this way he could keep tabs on it. He lifted the bandages off so Mikey could see, Leo was still in his room but had promised to come out in half an hour, Mikey hadn't wanted to wait and Leo said it was ok. Mikey stared, and Donnie knew why, he'd purposefully left the original lightning shaped crack as untouched as possible, beebop had made it look different, obviously, but it still looked very close.

"I just," he whispered, "he would never be the same without it." Mikey's eyes filled with tears.

"That's just great Donnie." he said, "just great." Donnie watched as Raph lowered his gaze to his chest, he patted the synthetic material and frowned. Raph ran his finger along the edge of the lightning shaped section Don had left. He looked up at them, and Donnie resisted the urge to grab his older brother's shoulder and shake him, to joggle the stuck parts loose and make his mind work again. He sighed, if only people were more like machines, he'd have fixed his older brother as soon as they realised something was wrong, not sat and stared for two months, not knowing how to help. Raph looked into his eyes and Donnie couldn't tear his gaze away, it was like, Raph was searching for something. He patted Raph's head and smiled.

"Now you can work on walking more Raphie." he said, "you know, when you know what you're doing."

"What did I miss?" Leo asked, walking in, he saw Raph and his face lit up. "Hey Raph, how are you?" Raph turned his head to look at Leo, and patted his shell again, his eyes sparkled, but his lips didn't even twitch, Donnie frowned, he'd look into that later. Leo walked over to the cot and Raph shrank back a bit, his gaze froze, and he looked terrified. Leo stopped.

"Oh." he said, and looked at Donnie, "I'm going out." Donnie nodded and Leo left again. He sighed, why was Raph so afraid of Leo?

Leo stormed through the sewers, running his fingers along the edge of beebops blade, why Raph was sick, why he was afraid of Leo, this was all beebops fault, and Leo was going to avenge his brother. Now, today. He walked suddenly towards the shredder's lair, that was most likely where the pig mutant was, so he would just test how well the blade worked until he found him. The rage that had smoldered in his chest for so long was tempting to erupt, but he told himself to save it for the one who had done this, baxter stockman would get a fair share of rage as well.

When he got to the roof of shredder's lair, he crashed through and held his own two katanas ready, leaving the metal cylinder in his belt.

"just when I thought I'd have to send out party's looking again." shredder laughed, "you come to me, just think, the two oldest turtles dead byu my hands." Leo glared at him,a nd the realisation struck, shredder thought Raph was dead. He glared at the masked man.

"You and all your minions will pay for what you did to Raphael." he snarled, "but first, my first quarrel is with bebop and baxter stockman." shredder looked at him for a moment. Then pressed a button on his armrest.

"Beebop and baxter please come to me." he rumbled, and Leo frowned.

"You,want me to kill your minions?"

"No, I want entertainment." shredder shrugged, "you cannot defeat them, we have newly engineered weapons." Leo felt relieved, shredder hadn't seen that he had one of those newly engineered weapons.

"Master shredder." buzzed baxter stockman, flying in, "you wanted my...a turtle?"

"Yo what's up?" that was beebop, Leo's blood ran red hot through his veins, "you called fo me?"

"This turtle seems to think he has a quarrel with you bebop." shredder said, "may I ask why?"

"Uh…" bebop said, "maybe, maybe he saw a pig print or something? I told you the red ones dead and no one saw me and rocksteady." Leo glared at him.

"I am a ninja you idiot," he said, "if I don't want to be spotted I won't be."

"Oh," beebop said, "well, at least I wasn't lying about the dead guy." Leo felt the fury burst out of him.

"YOU!" he yelled, "YOU ARE THE ONE WHO RUINED MY BROTHER'S LIFE!" he ran at the mutant pig and he dodged, whipping out an identical cylinder, he sliced through Leo's katanas, Leo frowned, that was bad, but he grabbed the one he'd recovered from the chasm. "Let's level the playing field." he said, and grinned as the blade popped out, beebop gulped.

When Leo was finished, beebop lay on the floor whimpering, and baxter had lost one wing, he glared at shredder. "I don't have any more business here tonight." he said evenly and jumped to the roof, shredder glared after him. He ran home as quickly as possible, and was met by a frantic Mikey.

"Leo! Donnie said to find you, Raph took a nap and now he," Mikey gulped, "he won't wake up!" Leo stared at his youngest brother.

"What?" he asked, and pushed past him into the lab, "Donnie!"

"Leo! I, I don't know, he was perfectly fine when you left!" Donnie was next to Raph, holding smelling salts under his nose, "but now, he just won't respond! It's like he's in a coma!" Leo pushed past him and looked at Raph, he dropped the adamantium blade from his hand and stared at his brother, Donnie gasped.

"Leo, where were you, and what did you do?" Leo looked at himself, he was peppered with bruises and his sheaths were empty, he'd left his mangled katanas back at shredder's lair.

"I was…"he didn't say anything, "it's done now, I can't change the past." Donnie grabbed his shoulder and spun him around, staring at him.

"Leo, what did you do?" he almost yelled, Leo avoided his gaze.

"I was just," he stammered, "it doesn't concern you."

"Leo, what's going on?" Mikey asked, "you've been acting weird lately." Leo sighed.

"I was, getting, revenge." he gasped, his eyes burning with hot anger, "this should never have happened." Donnie gasped.

"Leo, you went to THE SHREDDER? Are you insane?" Leo glared at him.

"I went to the shredder's hideout, I didn't fight him." he growled, "i got beebop and baxter, they're the ones who hurt Raph." Donnie let go of Leo and hid his face in his hands.

"Leo, why? You could have died!" Leo looked away, and looked back at Raph, who was lying very still, too still for his liking. He grabbed Raph's shoulders and shook him, trying to wake him up.

"Whoa Leo!" Mikey cried, "calm down bro!" Leo couldn't calm down, Raph had to wake up and be normal, he'd gotten his revenge, now Raph would be ok. Right? Donnie pulled him away, Leo fought to stay with Raph.

"No! Let me wake him up!" he shrieked, trying to break free from Donnie's grip, "LET GO OF ME!" Donnie's eyes filled with tears as Leo felt a needle prick his neck.

"Sorry Leo."

"It's just a sedative." don assured Mikey, who was looking horror struck as don picked Leo up, "he was in shock."

"Oh." Mikey said, looking relieved, "ok." Donnie set Leo on the couch,

"You watch him, ok?"

"Like a turtle do!" Mikey said, and Donnie assumed this was a yes.

"I'll see what I can do for Raph." he told the freckled young turtle, "call me if you need me." Mikey nodded and gave him a thumbs up, so Donnie went back to his lab. To his surprise, Splinter was there, watching Raph sleep. Ok, that was a bad description, however accurate it may be.

"Sensei!" he said, "wha, what are you doing?" Splinter turned and saw the jar of smelling salts still in Donatello's hand.

"Raphael will not need those my son." he said and Donnie's eyes widened.

"He's not-"

"He is not dead." Splinter assured him, "he has put himself in a deep meditative trance."

"Oh." Donnie said, he was meditating? "Does that mean…" Splinter shrugged .

"I do not know exactly what is means." he replied, "now, Leonardo does need our help." he held up the adamantium blade, "let us wake him." Donnie nodded and led Splinter out to the living room. Mikey looked up.

"Hey sensei, Leo was freaking out and Donnie was all like, evil science dude jabbing needles and-"

"What?" Donnie asked, "that isn't, exactly, how it happened." Splinter laughed

"I saw what happened Donatello, you did the right thing under circumstance" Donnie nodded.

"Thank you sensei." he said, "i can wake him up now if you want." Splinter shook his head.

"Bring him into the dojo first, I will talk to him."

"Hai sensei." he said, and picked Leo up again, a chill raced through him. Had Leo always been this light? He didn't think so. He lay Leo down on a mat in the dojo, and Splinter took the salts, he gestured for don to leave, so he did.

Leo woke to a really nasty smell, what was going on? He opened his eyes, he was laying in the dojo, sensei knelt next to him, holding a small jar under his nose. As he saw Leo's eyes open he set it aside, Leo sat up.

"S-Sensei?" he asked, he remembered Donnie crying, and a needle. Had Donnie, tranquilized him?

"Leonardo." Splinter said, "how do you feel?" Leo grasped for what to say, betrayed? Hurt? Then he knew what sensei meant. He meant other than that, he meant about Raph.

"I," Leo took a breath, "i feel confused. I don't even know why Raph got hurt, whether to say it was his fault for wanting to fight, or if something else happened with beebop and rocksteady, he knows he can't take on the two of them." he looked up at Splinter. "And, this one part of me only wants revenge." he sighed, "i'm an idiot master Splinter."

"Yes." master Splinter said, and Leo looked at the floor "and no." Leo raised his head quizzically.

"Sensei?" he asked, Splinter chuckled.

"We can all act like idiots, but that is not who we are."

"Oh," Leo said, "sensei, i, I went to the shredder's lair today." Splinter nodded and he took a shaky breath. "I, I thought I got revenge, on baxter and beebop. But, I still feel…" his eyes widened. "Raph! We have to wake him up!" Splinter placed a hand on Leo's shoulder.

"Raphael will be fine." he said sternly, "i, I am worried about you Leonardo." Leo looked at his legs, he turned into a kneeling position, but it did little to hide the fact that they were scratched, bruised, and discolored from their usual blue/green color.

"You don't," Leo stopped himself, "I'm fine sensei." Splinter leaned down to look into his eyes.

"When was the last time you ate a meal with your brothers Leonardo?" Leo froze. He avoided his father's binding gaze.

"That- that's beside the point." he stammered, sensei looked deeper into his eyes and Leo sighed . "Raph, he's afraid of me for some reason. He always just goes back into his shell and, he won't eat if I'm there, he just...stares at me."

"I see." Splinter said, "have you eaten other times?" Leo shook his head,

"I guess, I just forget, but it's only been a few, days, since I ate. I can eat some today and be fine."

"Leonardo," sensei said, as if he had a sudden thought. "Do you remember very much from when you were young?" Leo frowned, "before Raphael's first accident?"

"Well," Leo said, "not really,i mean, I know he changed a lot around when we were six or seven…" he frowned. It was true, before that Raph hadn't been as, rough. Weird.

"I see." Splinter said, "i would like you to meditate with me Leonardo."