Warning: This one is not as delightful as the other last two ok. You can say that it is a bit of a downer…

Oh well, who am I to tell you what to think! Please just enjoy… ^^

Disclaimer: I don't own INAZUMA ELEVEN GO

Chap 7: Sorry… and goodbye.

"I can't!"

In a swift movement, Shindou pushed himself away from his best friend.

Time seemed to stop as the pink hair boy's eyes were widened in surprise. The brunette was gripping his hands on his companion's shoulders, keeping the boy in a safe distance.

The defender couldn't even utter a word. Only after the piecing wind flown through his frozen body, did the boy finally realize what just happened… Reaching out his hand, Kirino softened his still confused eyes as he let out a tender but also worried voice. "Shindou… what…"

But before the boy could finish his question and send the other a comforting touch, the Raimon captain used his own hands to seize the other's wrists and stopped them from coming any closer. The other's eyes once again widened at the sudden contact. The prodigy wasn't looking at him. He was persistently sending his gaze to the ground as his bangs conceal his expressions. But somehow, even when he couldn't see his friend's face, Kirino could feel the sorrowful pain that the other was suffering from. This time the pink hair boy felt his throat went dried along with his own voice, and when he gradually understood the meaning behind brunette's actions, the music genius clarified his fear by slowly pulling out of his clasps.

After he completely released the other from his touch, Shindou whispered the very words that ripped Kirino's heart apart.

"... I am so sorry Kirino."

And with that, the Raimon captain turned his back to the other and began to walk away, leaving behind a boy who stood alone as a single tear ran down across his beautiful face…


Shindou was standing in his room with his head lowered and his face covered with both anger and agony…

The instant the Raimon captain was about to allow himself to sink into the ongoing alluring kiss and forget everything else besides the charming boy in front of him, an electric shot struck right through his mind and brought back all the memories from the previous night... The boy was then reminded of his unforgiveable actions, and along with them, his guilt…

That's right. He didn't deserve this. All of this.

How could he shamelessly hold his best friend like that when it was these very arms that forced the boy against his will only last night? How could he forget the terrifying expressions that had appeared on the boy's face, or the pleading words that his body had ignored, and the tears those beautiful eyes had shed in both torment and desperation?

The tears… Kirino had never once cried in front of him ever since that day. And yet, the very first tears he released in many years were caused by the boy's most trusted friend.

A long time ago, the first time he saw the heartbreaking tears flowing out non-stop from the dazzling azure gaze of the little boy who was crying in his arms when his parents finally decided to split up after many nights of fighting and yelling, it was the prodigy's unfading vow to always protect his dear friend, to never let him meet with another sorrowful experience like that again... And to this very day, that decision had never even wavered. Yes. Shindou would never forgive anyone that dared to make his best friend cried.

And he himself was no exception.

I don't deserve to be by his side anymore…


As he lied on the bed in his own room, Kirino constantly stared at his phone with a lifeless expression. It was near morning as the gleam of the first sunlight was starting to shine brightly through the glass of the window. Yet the pink hair male hadn't slept for even a moment during the whole night… Dark circles could be seen under his eyes and even though the boy was drained of his energy, he refused to let his now swelling eyes and feeble body get some rest.

The boy was unconsciously waiting for something, something that he didn't even know…

What was it he wondered? A miracle? Or maybe a fairy from all those love stories that his mother used to tell him every night, when she was still here with him that is, so that the magical woman could fix it, everything, and then changed them back to the time when none of this mess had happened… He shouldn't have done it, saying those words, dragging his friend around and showing his affections like that… and now, because of those senseless actions, the situation had become even worse for both of them… Oh how he wished he could just disappear now and forget everything that just happened…

Never lifting the phone out of his sight, the boy suddenly muttered to himself in quiet.

"Fool…"

He knew what he was waiting for… that determined look that he had always admired, those beautiful tears and smiles that he fell in love with from the bottom of his heart… the one person that he had been longing for ever since the first time they met... He knew that he was just lying to himself, so that he wouldn't have to suffer the pain of having to face with the harsh but inevitable reality, so that his heart wouldn't be reminded of those aching memories and cruel words…

As the pink hair boy felt his senses drifting away and his sights becoming wearier with every second, his azure eyes that was still illuminating from signs of tears began to shut slowly and the boy fell asleep with the unbearable pain in his chest…

...

That afternoon Kirino woke up with a message on his phone from Shindou. And the contents of the text made the pink hair boy jumped right out of his bed and bolted out of the house without hesitation, not even caring to change the clothes he had been wearing since yesterday.

The boy ran to the airport as fast as his feet could carry him. In his chest he could feel his heart beating with tremor and fear...

Why? Why would you do that?

Suddenly, the image of the nightmare from that night came back to him all at once and the sight in which his friend was devoured by light from the other world, the world that he couldn't reach, was so close to becoming a reality that he began to pray insides his head from desperation

Oh god, please don't let it come true. Please let me be there in time to stop him…

When he finally arrived at his destination, the boy panted exhaustingly as he looked around, searching for familiar sight. People were staring inquiringly at him but he didn't care. The one important thing in his minds now had nothing to do with them and their freaking opinions about his appearance.

Right now, his only concern was…

"This is our last alert to all customers going on plan S1O, to the USA. Please be immediately present at gate 7… I repeat…"


Shindou was sitting on the waiting line in front of the gate to his flight. He was the last one left that hadn't gotten on the plane. And the last warning was announced a few moments ago already… The boy had no idea why he was still here.

What was he waiting for?

His friends?

The decision to accept the scholarship was made just last night and he didn't tell anyone about it. Even though he did text a goodbye message to the Kirino, the pink hair male was probably still sleeping right now. The brown hair boy didn't know what had possessed him to even have the courage to send his friend that message, but in the end Kirino had every right to know the truth. Or maybe he just couldn't bear lying to a person who he cared that much for.

But it didn't matter what the reason was. In fact, right now, nothing matted to him anymore... Even if his friend had seen the message, there was no way he could be here that quickly, let alone having the time to find his gate.

I really should go now…

The thought went through the music genius's mind as he stood up from his spot and started to walk towards the gate. However, just as he was about to pass through the door, a figure appeared from the crowd behind him and hastily let out a desperate yell.

"DON'T GO!"

The brown hair boy stopped in his track and unintentionally held his breath. He recognized that voice.

How…

Kirino stood a few meters behind the playmaker as he was still trying to catch his breaths. His despairing gaze never left the other. Even when Shindou didn't turn around to look at his best friend, the brunette's feet were glued to the ground and the boy literally couldn't move an inch of his body… What was he doing? He had to go now or he would miss his plane! He couldn't stay! He really couldn't stay any longer for Kirino's sake god damn it! Why? Why wouldn't this freaking body move?

Move.

The brown hair boy quietly and constantly repeated the word insides his mind to urge himself to continue walking. However, before he could even get his senses right, a pair of hands quickly grabbed him around his body and his eyes were open widely in pure amazement when he felt someone's warmth was pressed against his back…

Move...

Even when his head began to spin from the pink hair boy's touch, the word kept echoing insides his mind… And along with it is a trembling voice from the other…

"Please… don't go… please…"

Kirino's voice sounded crushed. His grip hardened when the thought of being apart from the other slipped through his mind...

You have to mo-

"Takuto... please don't leave me..."

The pink hair boy's already throbbing voice immediately broke at the last word…

He knew those words. They were the same pleads he had said in that terrifying dream… But the boy honestly couldn't think of anything else to say. He was standing on the edge of losing his best friend and also the only person he loved, and every logical word skidded its way out of his mind as his hands began to tremble in fright. The defender couldn't utter another word as he shut his eyes, praying that Shindou had heard him, that his begs had reached the other like the way they had the other night... that his best friend would turn back any minute now and show him those beautiful brown eyes and warm-hearted smiles… and then their relationship would return to the way it was, genuine and innocent, nothing more.

At this moment, he couldn't care less that the boy didn't love him or never would. Just don't let him lost the person he loved now… oh god please…

If you don't move now…

Shindou gritted his teeth to fight back the almost irresistible craving to turn back and hold the defender tightly in his arms and never let go again. If only he could do that. If only he could protect Kirino forever and ever, he would do anything…

But he couldn't.

I have to move.

And with that, the brown hair boy disconnected the other's arms from his body…

Time seemed to freeze when Kirino shot his eyes open and lifted his head. The boy couldn't even breath as he watched the person loved let go of his hands and began to walk away again...

As Shindou's sight moved further and further away, the defender exhaled a barely hearable sound…

"Why?"

The question was so quietly asked that it seemed to direct more to himself than the other… And after a silent second, the pink hair boy finally voiced out with an immensely painful cry the one question that had been torturing him from the insides ever since he knew his friend was going to leave him...

"Does my existence hurt you that much?"

Silence once again filled the air as the brown hair boy widened his eyes at the question. They both knew what it meant. However, instead of answering, the brunette bit his lips to keep himself from forgetting his decision.

It's not like that. It's not your fault… It's me...

But no matter how much he wanted to say those words out loud, the boy just couldn't. Because he knew if were to unveil his feelings now, he wouldn't be able to leave.

"Sorry…"

Not even turning back to look at his friend, Shindou forced himself to go through the gate with a lowered head, leaving behind his best friend whose eyes widened in jolt at the word the brown hair male just said.

The pink hair boy didn't move from his spot even after the plane had finally departed. His hands hung down lifelessly and his expressions were no longer visible due to the pink locks covering them.

And the boy continued to stand there alone in silence, with no one for him cling onto and cry out his pain…


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Okay I lied, that was wayyyy too depressing! (Please don't hate me. TTxTT)

Anyway, please tell me what you think ok… I am not so sure that I did this one well enough for you guys, I kinda struggled with the emotions and actions quite a bit this time… ( Inner mind: Liar! You changed almost the whole chapter and deleted everything else! -ignore-) In other words, please review!

Oh and I'll give you a spoiler this time! ;P Our next chap, we will welcome back our one and only FAV MAIN ANTAGONIST of my story! (You know who it is…-evil grin- ) So be prepared for some KxK ok! XD