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Chapter 7:

Zero opened his eyes slowly. Is it morning already? He feels like shit right now as if he didn't slept the whole night. He turned to his other side to check on the little Kaname, he frowned when he didn't find him there.

He yawned and muttered to himself "Maybe he woke up early today"

He got out of the bed and walked to the window, he watched the bare trees outside and smiled to himself when he didn't see any snow there. He hates the snow, it always bring the bad memories, and in the winter's nights he always suffered from a terrible nightmares.

He frowned when he remembered he had one of them last night, and someone has woke him up. Someone .. Was is it really Kuran he saw last night? No way in hell Kuran would come here or wake him up from that nightmare.

His eyes widened when the realising hit him, Oh no .. Kaname!

He run to the door with fear filling his heart, he didn't hurt Kaname thinking he was that bastard did he?

He opened the door and gasped when he saw Kaname laying on the cold floor with nothing but only his pyjama. He knelt next to him and gathered him gently in his arms. shit his body is so cold, dammit how he hates himself! How could he do something like that to this fragile child?

He stands up and went back to his room, he put Kaname on the bed and frowned when he saw Kaname winced as if he was feeling pain. His eyes widened when he notices the child's swollen ankle. Did he really caused that? He took Kaname's small hands in his and muttered "I'm sorry sweety, I can't forgive myself for that"

"It wasn't your fault Zero"

He lift his widened eyes to Kaname's dark ones, he couldn't say anything when he saw the regretful gaze Kaname was giving him.

Kaname continued "It was mine, don't blame yourself"

Zero knitted his eyebrows "Why are you saying that ? I'm the one who hit you"

Kaname closed his eyes "I'm the one who woke you up, I deserve it" he turned on his side giving Zero his back 'And I deserve more, I have lied on you. I have caused you enough pain in the past, yet now I can't even leave you nor I can tell the truth. You will hate me more if that was possible, and I don't want that'

Zero stood up "Stop this nonsense Kaname this isn't like you, I'm going to bring something for your ankle don't move okay?"

When Kaname didn't respond Zero sighed and left the room. Why did Kaname say that? Maybe he was upset from him for what he did but.. That look he gave him, he wasn't behaving like he used to. Seeing that regretful sad look in those eyes was something unexpected, it was really shocking.

But why he was feeling this way, like .. Seeing that look in those wine-red eyes was totally wrong?


"Oh dear what happened to you?"

Cross whined when Zero put Kaname on his chair for the breakfast, Kaname looked at his bandaged ankle before he answered "I fell from the stairs"

Cross frowned "I didn't heard any sound..."

Kaname cut him off and hardened his gaze towards him "I fell from the stairs Chairman"

"Oh even you little Kaname! Why don't you call me daddy?"

Zero put an apple juice in front of Kaname and sat on his own chair "Don't bother him Chairman please he didn't slept well last night. Where's Yuki?"

Cross sighed and sat down "She still asleep. What are you thinking Zero giving the child an apple juice in the breakfast? You should give him milk look at him he is too short for his age!"

Kaname glared daggers at him while Zero frowned and asked "Can you know how old is he Chairman? I think he is a 6 or 7 years old, and he seems fine to me, besides he doesn't like the milk nor the orange juice"

Cross grinned "Yeah you are right 7 years fit him just right! But I wonder if that was his real age"

Kaname kept eating as if they weren't talking about him, that Cross just wanted to get on his nerve. He wasn't afraid of him because he doesn't have any powers right now so he was saying what he wants to, he knew his tables were save and he won't be able to brake it no matter what.

'I'll brake your tables one by one when I return to my real size Cross, you'll pay dearly'

Actually he preferred coffee for breakfast but Zero didn't let him so he settled on the apple juice instead.

He knew that Zero was watching him closely, he was worried about him. He could see the guilt deep in those violet eyes.

'You don't have to feel guilty for this Zero, I have to protect you from any pain yet I'm just causing you more. I hope you will be able to forgive me someday'


Kaname was sitting in the living room on the couch reading a book, Zero put him there and told him he will go to check on the horses.

Kaname lift his gaze to the window, it's really cold these days but it didn't snow yet, he wonders when the snow will fall?

He was lucky that Zero didn't recognised him yesterday, he thought he was dead for good. He wanted to run but his injured ankle get in the way.

There's no way Zero would forgive him for this, he didn't thought that Zero was hating him this much. Did he usually have nightmares about him?

At any rate, he should find away to return to his real size quickly. He had gave Cross the hunter's name he found that day, and Cross has told him that the hunter was nowhere to be found.

He should kill them all, they are a disgrace to all the vampires. They are an upcoming danger, they will cause another war, after all everything they have done to prevent it.

When he finish everything, he will apologise to Zero, yeah he should do that at least. He won't apologise until everything is over, and because he knew that Zero won't forgive him he will leave Cross academy for good.

A gentle pick on the forehead jerked him out of his thoughts "What are you thinking about sweety?"

He looked at Zero's warm eyes 'It's better if you doesn't know, my innocent angle'

He leaned his head on Zero's chest, Zero smiled and hugged him "I'll go to the police station today to see if there's anything new about the research on your family Kaname"

Kaname closed his eyes and relaxed in Zero's arms "There's no need to tire yourself Zero" he clenched Zero's shirt "I have one already"

"What? You don't wanna see them?"

He inhaled Zero's scent before replaying "If they want me they will look for me, as for me, I don't want them I just want you"

Zero closed his eyes and smiled sadly "As much as your words has made me happy sweety, but there's no child can be happy and feels completed without his parents around"

'This goes for you Zero, whom your parents were taking away from you in an early age. But not for me'


"Where could he be hiding at? You know Cross I need to return to my real form fast!"

Cross sighed helplessly after Kaname's shout, he adjust his glasses "Listen Kaname as I told you before there's no one from the hunters know where he is about, it seems that his disappearing was at the same time he put that curse on you. And I couldn't get any information about if he was on an official mission that night or not"

Kaname massaged his temples "Fine, I'm going now Zero might be here soon"

He closed the office door behind him and walked slowly to the main door, it has been three days after that incident. He could walk slowly on his foot right now although it still hurt a little.

It was night already, and Zero went to town to bring some stuff for that idiot Cross. He opened the main door and went outside and sat on the doorsteps. He needed some fresh air, and he wanted to see Zero. He is late, he should be here before awhile ago.

He lift his gaze to the dark sky, it will snow at any moment, and Zero still didn't came .. He sneezed and closed his eyes for awhile, although this is not the first time he sneeze but he couldn't get used to it yet.

Hell he was feeling like shit, he felt like the energy has left his body. Why is he feeling like this anyway?

He breathed into his freezing hands, it's so cold where the hell is Zero?

He sighed in relief when he saw Zero walking past the gate from the distant, suddenly Zero stopped and lift his head to the dark sky. Kaname did the same when he saw the snow finely falling.

He frowned when he saw Zero still standing there,he walked slowly and stood behind a tree watching Zero's lost gaze.

'What's wrong Zero?'

Finely Zero resumed his walking towards the door, Kaname kept watching him until he entered 'He even didn't notice me'

He sat and leaned on the tree behind him 'Could Zero's mind was clouded by the bad memories?' He clenched his hands 'I wish I could erase them, even if I could he won't forgive me if I did'

He entered after awhile and saw Cross was standing next to the window, he frowned, was Cross watching him? He hated to be watched; but because he was a pureblood he used to it. Cross said when Kaname didn't say anything "He hates the snow, he needs sometime to be in his normal self again" he looks at Kaname in the eye and said in a dead serious voice "Please don't make it harder on him more than it is"

Kaname lowered his head but didn't say anything, he went to the living room and kept the light off. He laid on the couch and tried hard to sleep.

He hated it when Zero didn't look at him, nor he had sensed him. He hated to be neglected by Zero, but he should get used to it because Zero won't look at him again after he knows the truth.

And he hated the way Cross has warned him, he really does care for Zero like his son. But what's the feeling that pains him in his heart right now? Why does he feel like a child whom just knew that the family he raised in wasn't his? Why does he feel like an intruder?

'Because I'm an intruder, I don't belong here'

He forced his eyes to close 'Curse you humans and your stupid emotions'


Zero's lost gaze watched the outside from the window, the ground has been a pure white already. Just like that bloody night. He leaned his head on the windows cold glass, there's a small voice inside his head telling him to snap out of it. But he couldn't yet ..

Flashbacks

His mother's smiling face "Zero we have a mission to do, look out for Ichiru okay?"

Ichiru holding his hand "I don't need the medicine if you were by my side Zero"

Ichiru looking at him with puppy eyes "Please Zero let's play more in the snow !"

Let's play more in the snow ..

You have played enough in the snow Ichiru ..

You have painted their blood on the snow ..

As will as mine ..

You have betrayed us ..

A sweet yet calm voice "I won't leave your side Zero, I won't betray you .. I promise"

Zero gasped when he remembered " Kaname! Where the hell is Kaname?"

He ran out of the room but halted when he sensed Kaname's presence inside the house, he sighed in relief when he saw Kaname sleeping peacefully on the couch. He picked him up in his arms "Why are you sleeping here Kaname?"

He smiled when the other has buried his face in his chest searching for the warmth. He walked to his room and frowned when he felt Kaname's body was warmer than usual.

He put him on the bed and put his hand gently on Kaname's forehead "shit he has a fever!"


Kaname opened his heavy eyes slowly, he coughed .. Wait what was that ? He didn't really coughed did he?

He heard Zero's voice from somewhere beside him "Finely you are awake! I was worried about you"

Kaname said in a hoarse voice and wanted to sat "Worried about me? What's there to worry about?"

Zero put his hands on Kaname's shoulders to keep him laying "Stay in the bed Kaname you have a fever"

Kaname's eyes widened "you must be joking.." A harsh cough cut off his words.

Zero put his hand on Kaname's forehead "Relax sweety"

Kaname frowned "But I have never got I fever before"

Zero chuckled and brought a glass cup to Kaname's lips "How do you know? You are still a child. Now drink that"

Kaname made a face "I hate the orange"

"You have to drink it it will help your body resist the high fever"

When Kaname finished drinking he felt sleepy again, Zero covered him with the blanket "You must be fine by tomorrow Kaname, I have a mission and I don't want to leave you like this"

Kaname muttered before he closed his eyes "I'll be fine"

'And I'll protect you at all caused'


When Kaname woke up later it was already night, he saw Zero sitting next to him on the bed reading a book. He turned his gaze to Kaname when he sensed him waking up "Finely I got to see this lazy eyes open, how do you feel sweety?"

Kaname put his head on Zero's thigh "Much better, but that juice awful taste still on my tongue"

Zero chuckled and played with Kaname's hair "Your late dinner is ready whenever you feel like eating"

"Not now, I still feel like I'm dreaming"

Zero smiled and put a sweet chocolate into Kaname's mouth "What a weird way to put it"

Kaname chew it slowly, he likes this taste, Zero's taste in chocolate was truly wonderful.

He opened his mouth "Give me another one"

Zero frowned and put another one into Kaname's mouth "You'll eat all of it"

Kaname took the chocolate box from the night stand, he took one and put it in front of Zero's mouth, when Zero opened his mouth to take it Kaname smirked and put it into his own mouth.

Zero shouted "You thief this was mine!"

"Who said it was yours?" He took another one and put it in front of Zero's mouth again "Honestly this is truly yours"

Zero hastily took the chocolate into his mouth and bit Kaname's finger. Kaname shouted "Let me go Zero!"

He tried to snatched his finger from Zero's teeth "Seriously Zero you are behaving like a child!"

Finely Zero released his poor finger "I'm talking to a child so why not behaving like one? and you started it"

Kaname stared at the mark Zero's teeth has left on his finger, he was lucky there wasn't any blood or he will be doomed.

He lift his finger to Zero's lips "Apologise"

Zero sighed before he took kaname's hand and kissed his finger gently "What a spoiled child"


He opened his eyes and blinked for moments to adjust to the darkness, he and Zero stayed awake till the early morning. That was the time when his fever has returned. Zero wanted to stay with him and he refuses to sleep although he has a mission tonight.

About the mission, he better get up and asked Cross about it. He has a bad feeling about this. And from the looks of it it seems that Zero has already gone.

He was feeling better so he get up and went to take a shower in haste and to change.

He went to Cross's office and greeted him.

"How do you feel right now Kaname? Zero was worried about you"

Kaname replayed "I'm fine thank you, I want to ask you about Zero's mission Chairman"

Cross looked surprised " What about it Kaname ? "

" Do you know where the place is? How much level Es? Is he alone or there's someone with him?"

Cross smiled " What's with the sudden interest?"

"Just answer me Cross"

Cross sighed in defeat " I don't know how much are they, actually they didn't wrote it in the letter, and no he is alone in this mission I'm afraid, and about the place .. The letter said it's an old big house out of the town, to be exact it's in the northern outskirts of the town "

Kaname looked at him in disbelieve " It can't be .. " He shouted " What the hell Cross that house is a nest for the Es! I was going to wipe them out before I stuck in this!"

Cross rise his hands " Calm down Kaname, they won't sent him there if it was that dangerous, and Zero is a capable hunter you should trust him"

Kaname stormed out of the office muttering to himself "What would trusting in his abilities would do to me if he died? "

He remembered Zero was keeping another anti-vampire gun other than Bloody Rose in his room, he went to take it, he should go to find Zero as soon as possible .

'I can't lose you Zero, not after what all you did for me '


He was tired, besides the cold and the wet road, he was running all the way to that old house, but it was still too far 'Damn you hunters! Curse you all! Why the hell you send him there on his own!'

If this kept up he might be too late and Zero would be .. He saw an approaching car, then an idea came up to him .

He recklessly stopped on the car's way, when the car stopped before him he heard the driver cursing him, he went to the driver window "I need a ride"

The man looked at him as if he was insane "What the hell? Fuck off boy or I'll deg your grave here "

Kaname cursed under his breath "Filthy human "

The older man shouted " What did you say?"

Kaname swiftly opened the back door and put the gun on the man's head from behind "I said I wanted I ride. I might be a child but as you can see I'm a crazy one, to the northern outskirts Now!"

The poor man didn't have a choice and obeyed .

'Good thing he doesn't know the gun won't do anything to him, the ignorant fool '

When they reached their destination Kaname got out of the car "Thank you, you can leave"

When the man gave him a shocked look and drove the car away, Kaname ran to the old house praying 'Zero be safe please'

He stood before the house and tried to hear anything, but there was nothing to hear .. The place was deadly quiet.

He entered slowly and on his high alert, it has been 5 hours since Zero left, could he possibly wiped them out?

Suddenly he heard a move above him, he retreated swiftly and fired the gun on the level E's head, he can't see clearly in the darkness, and the moon's light from outside isn't enough, he should lure them out and finish them off there. But where's Zero? There wasn't any trace of him being here .

"Your blood smell very delicious "

He heard a hissed behind him, he turned and pointed the gun to the smirking level E "Did anyone came here before me? Answer me"

The level E laughed cruelly "Ah that one also smelled pleasant" he smirked again "I haven't taste a blood as good as his for awhile"

Kaname tried as best as he could to control himself 'It can't be .. He is lying'

He shouted "Lier! Where is he? tell me"

The E walked closer towards him "I can send you to his place if yo.."

Kaname didn't let him complete his sentence, he is lying, Zero can't be dead.

After the E before him turned into dust a dozen of E's appeared from no where, he retreated slowly backwards, dammit! In this body and without his power killing them all will be a hard task, but he must do it .. For Zero' sake.

'The only one who helped me, the only one who was smiling warmly at me, and the only one who .. Said he loves me the way I'm'

He saw a door leading to the back garden of the old house . when he was safely outside he started to shoot them one after another 'How could Zero depend on just his gun.. It's too dangerous, where are you Zero?'

After awhile of shooting he started to warn out, his vision started to blur because of the blood loss and his body has lost his energy, his wounds was bleeding without him noticing, his blood was all over the white snow, all he was thinking about is Zero ..' Is he really wasn't here any longer? Where is he ..? If he had gone I ..'

He tried to keep standing and focus on the Es around him, he can't fell in despair right now, but he couldn't ignore the emotions that was clutching its cruel fingers around him, for the first time in his life .. He felt the Fear, the weakness, he was helpless, he couldn't protect the one who loved his real him.

One of the Es managed to hit him hard on his chest, his head hit the wall behind him painfully, he fell to the ground and his hand loosened on the gun, Zero's gun fell beside him .. and maybe Zero fell the same way somewhere else, maybe that level E wasn't lying after all.

His eyelids closed slowly 'I failed to protect you Zero.. I don't want to live if you won't be here anymore .. I was going to live and watch your smiling face from a distant but.. If you're gone .. It doesn't matter'

He wasn't feeling any pain in this moment, he felt numb, he felt cold, very cold .

a visions from his past passed in front of his eyes, Juri and Haruka calling him their son, little Yuki's sweet smile, then a visions of blood and darkness, the long lonely way he had chose in his life, and then .. The bright and warm smile that belongs to Zero.

Before he gave up to the darkness, he heard the sound of a gun fire and someone shout his name, from far away .. so far .. with a smile, and for the first time in his life, a single tear run down his blooded cheek .


'Even if I was surrounded by the darkness ..

I heard him calling me ..

I knew it from the beginning ..

I'm not alone ..

I knew it all along ..

It wasn't just me'


To be continued